positives: I'll end tomorrow with the same forty dollars I started out with, I can sleep in, I don't have to finish the tsunami! mix, I won't have to drive very far alone, I won't really have to drive anywhere period so I won't get another ticket this week, I don't have to find the digital camera, I won't have to straighten my hair, I'll bite my ( Read more... )

1. What did you do in 2004 that you'd never done before?graduated high school. kissed a girl. lost my virginity. saw a live cockroach. voted. went to college. failed a class. got a tattoo. got my hair professionally dyed. went to the Jersey shore. took adderol & went crazy. housesat. fell asleep with almost strangers. did a lot of random things ( Read more... )

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in the back of a moving car to my favorite Jeff Buckley song, his cover of Leonard Cohen's "hallelujah."
"you win," he said with a kiss.

I hope it isn't love, Kris.

after he ate my food & stormed out, & then put on this whole angry facade, he came back, & we cuddled together on the bed, fingers tracing shapes on arms & backs & stomachs. & then, again, he picks a fight, a hurtful fight & I am confused. he runs off with my suitemate, my suitemate who knows about my inclinations, & then returns to give my ( Read more... )

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my heart is too big for all of this & neon lights are flashing "run away ( Read more... )

Kyle: and you, meghan. you'll be such a fine mother, do you know that? you have such strong arms and such a beautiful face. you'll meet a man in a few years, you know, still living in the house with all of us. you'll meet him at some strange place and the whole thing will feel strange because you aren't used to healthy, romantic love, but you'll ( Read more... )

I know why I accidentally called him Jay now.
it wasn't sleeping. at times, it's slightly applicable.
& I know how things with Jay end so let's end this now.

ps - I know how these things work so be afraid, sweetie. I know all about you. & I know better.

an entry about "the stoop" as it is so commonly referred to among those who "know" me here ( Read more... )