Jason came over last night. I was drunk haha. he said i was trying to kill myse4lf. how fucked up iw that? andim soo fucjking embarassed he hadto carry all fucking million pounds of me up the stairs. and apparently i took my pants off and shit and i didt have underwaer on, and he like slept with me there..for a whil..or at leat until I wenrt ro ( Read more... )

today is special my loves...
very special indeed.

eyelids flutter ( Read more... )

Finals are finally here... and then to Arizona I go.

There are always days..
I will see you smile,
hear you speak,
smell your cologne,
feel your hardened chest,
taste your lips

But there is only one day..
that I will see you go.

I don't feel as if I've settled in my own shoes quite yet. They feel roomy. Ready for changes, yet not wanting to be termed liberal.

Jeff is leaving in 4 more days. I'm sad, but glad in a way that the temptation to be with him will be gone. Besides, I don't need to be losing my heart over someone who doesn't take obsessions lightly.

The great wheels are turning again ( Read more... )

I'm trying to live by the terms in which I've created for myself. But more and more I realise just how hard that truely is. Maybe life was better without my rules ( Read more... )

In my mind,
you wait for me
your smile reflects my emotions,
in reality-----
your eyes say nothing
but flicker with regret,
unknown

Please don't leave. You haven't come in yet. Don't give up. Please.

If I'm the light of your life, why is your face lost in the shadows of guilt?
If you believe war is immoral, why do you stand in the midst of every bloody battle?
If you want your moment of truth, why do you continue to lie?

Turn around.