i dont know whats wrong with me. I should be happy. im not sick, well, like physically, my family is doing great, everyone is on the rigth track, everything should be perfect, but i dont feel that way. I am finding myself crying uncontrollably for no reason, usually at night, i mean i have some reasons to be sad, but its not worth crying over and i ( Read more... )

Thanksgiving week was soooo fun.  its not complete yet, but its good so far, feel free to comment on anything I left out

****Frid 17th-We all went to Beytas house. I carried around a little present all night, and when vern was asleep, michael told me we should go wake her up, everyone was like "let her sleep" but we knew shed want some love. then ( Read more... )

Soooo, on the phone last night, Michael said, if the we were all on our way to Disneyland and suddenly monsters or something or other took over the world, and the fate of our arrival depended on me defining the word could, or would or should. If I knew that, we could get there. I was like noooooooooo. So i went to look up the definitions of those ( Read more... )

apparently I'm the difference between a monsoon and a typhoon, makes perfect sense. Also when we go to disneyland we must wear leis, and dedicate a room in someones future house as a lego world ( Read more... )

So basically Im not going to get into it now, im already in the process but not finished wirting about the events of the weekend I just thought Id write this first ( Read more... )

bigbruiser95 [1:18 PM]:  candiece
BabyGBBall [1:18 PM]:  michael
bigbruiser95 [1:18 PM]:  how the heck are ya
BabyGBBall [1:20 PM]:  ok my hair appt for this week failed, and i didnt go to class today cus i didnt read the 70 pgs of reading so i didnt wanna embarrass myself, and i wanted tp get my nails done today but my motivation is lost even tho ( Read more... )

I have anxiety and cant go to bed. Ahh. Today was a great day btw. I told everyone I was havin an awesome day, just cus things worked out. ANYWAY, now i cant sleep, maybe its cus i took two adderol, but that was so much earlier. Now im all errehuhhhueehh. I am takin very short breaths. just noticed that. i realize i need to do my homework. I ( Read more... )

BAdMoNkEy36 [9:20 PM]:  yp 
BAdMoNkEy36 [9:20 PM]:  yo 
BabyGBBall [9:20 PM]:  hey
BAdMoNkEy36 [9:22 PM]:  do u and vern wanna spend the nigh? 
BabyGBBall [9:22 PM]:  the nigh
BabyGBBall [9:22 PM]:  i love the moon filled nighs
BAdMoNkEy36 [9:22 PM]:  haha 
BAdMoNkEy36 [9:23 PM]:  night...::loser:: 
BabyGBBall [9:23 PM]:  haha
BabyGBBall [9:23 PM ( Read more... )

Thisis a "you had to be there moment" to think it was funny, even remotely ( Read more... )

So i have a paranoia problem, i think, so thats why im up right now, doin this. 
This past week has been weird. I am an emotional freak. 
Thursday-
I went to Erikas which was strange because mallory and veronica were not goin. i normally dont venture out on my own.  it was fun. Mallory milke, ashley D, Cody, Travis, Garret, jarad, christie, and lily ( Read more... )