nevermind

i'm excited to start school i need something but work to take up my time.

for now i feel fine i hope this optimistic attitude can last.

why does kissing you feel so good even though it aint allowed i know it sure damn should.

i feel myself settling in a lot of ways ( Read more... )

i am getting more comfortable to the idea

its extrememly difficult to deal with and i don't think it will ever be easy, but possible.

i am feeling extremely shitty

and he fell through again.

i put everything on hold for him as always and it hurts every time and this time it seems like so much more i don't want to open my eyes i don't want to be upest.

i'm home, but dissapointed and hurt.

if anything this has taught me how dependent i am ( Read more... )

i am leaving today and it feels like i'm leaving for so much longer.

is it sad that i am actually sad because i will miss him
i'm pathetic

i need this

i hope to come home with less worries.

it seems every time i begin to gain strain something gets in the way, and this time a reminder of how fragile life is.

i remember everything from tuesday and it's weird to think of not seeing someone again.