for the past four weeks.

even though its for the best, it still fucking hurts.

i just want to collapse within myself.

goodbye james.

(Besides over-sleeping & missing my last ceramics class ( Read more... )

is going to be fucking fantastic ( Read more... )

every single fucking day i am so anxious about the future. only 3 months and a year until i have to face the real world. only 3 months until summer, when they kick us out of the dorms and i end up floating around, technically "homeless" by legal definition. only weeks left until i have to turn in a bunch of apps for internships I don't feel ( Read more... )

Goodbye 2008.

1. What did you do in 2008 that you'd never done before?
sex with girls. rode a greyhound, saw the South.

2. Did you keep your New Year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I don't make resolutions.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
my cousin brittany. she was only 21 or 22.

4. Did anyone close to you die?
i don't think ( Read more... )

"Here's to the most troublesome girlfriend I have ever had. But you are totally worth it." -James

i guess i'm difficult

"you're beautiful. like the beautiful that makes people want to do beautiful things."

Today I realized I will not be able to make a 2year commitment (right after college) to TEACH FOR AMERICA unless I stop drinking.  I waste so much time consuming alcohol in the evening and spending the next day hung over and spaced out. I hope I can learn to cut back by the time I reach senior year, but really I don't see that happening. Once I ( Read more... )

"so a friend of mine overheard your 'sister,' earlier say: 'gosh James is seeing a lot of people.' i'm a little worked up."
"she's just a dumb freshman. trying to start drama. how could that be possible." he calmly replied.
"i don't know...."
silence.
"it's just i've turned people down recently. i got phone calls this week, i told them no."
"well ( Read more... )

i woke up this morning and saw a post-it note on my desk. in his handwriting it reads "Call James (818) xxx-xxxx"

i'm giddy.