oh geeze.

this crush feels way too familiar.

I'm really enjoying my living situation this year. My room is downstairs, right next to the front door, and in a corner without any other room next to it. So i get a lot of time to myself, and can listen to music at 4am without anyone complaining. It's nice. It's nice to have my own space for once ( Read more... )

i'm checking out today ( Read more... )

for the first time in a very long time (15 months?) i'm single.

it was really hard to let go, yet absolutely necessary.
this next month will be rough, but i have some awesome friends who are making the transition easier.
i built my life around him, now it's time to build my life around ME.

displaced. detached. uncertain. lonely. social. stretched. fake. false. warm. drunk. swimming. spinning. drifting. floating. falling. crashing ( Read more... )

Friday: beer pong at Johns with Elecktra, Casey, Jessica, Sylvie (i can't tell if syvie is friendly or hitting on me...) and john's roomate ryan. king's cup, we almost finished....didn't leave until after 4am ( Read more... )

is over.

which consisted of: 3 nights of passing out on the couch at 10:30 pm, 4 full 8hour work days, 2 days in santa barbara, and 2 meals in corona with the family.

honestly i am ready for school to be over and summer to begin. i'm sick of this living situation. sick of always being broke. sick of feeling trapped in materialistic california.

i don't ( Read more... )

you're pushing it. you push everything. but you won't push me over this time ( Read more... )

So I'm at home in corona. After today it won't be my home anymore. My parents are making me pack up my stuff and move it to the garage. But of course I only get a couple of boxes.  I don't know what I am supposed to do with things like stuffed animals and CD cases. I don't know what I am supposed to do with all my books. And I don't know what I am ( Read more... )

i am so fed up and disgusted.