i'm in a shitty as fucking mood.
i don't even know why.
i have been having much worse mood swings lately.
i hate that fucking shit.

i'm going to go.

have a wonderful day.
and fuck you.

i'm so fucking pissed. and depressed. my mom is so fucked up. i hate her ass. what the fuck is her goddamn problem. why the fuck is she sooo mother fucking blind. god damn it.
MOTHER FUCK!
i'm so pissed.

and i'm going to go now.

fuck you.

i feel like shit right now ( Read more... )

blah blah blah... yaaaaaah!

haven't talked to justin all day. sadness. hm. yes.

nah nah nah.
i will go now.

it was wonderful.
i had such an absolutely wonderful time.

i love justin.

i am so happy right now.

it made one of the shittiest days of my life, a good one.

i'm not going to talk about what happened today. b/c that would put me in a shitty mood. and i don't want to ruin this. it's far too wonderful/happy.

soo.. good day.

Eyes bleeding ( Read more... )

dispite the tears in my eyes
and the fear in my voice
you continue
slowly...
peice by innocent peice
tearing away...
shreading...
murdering...
my helpless
and utterly hopeless
soul
until there is nothing left.
you've left me with nothing
weak.
alone.
your left feeling accomplished.
are you happy?
good.
at least someone is capable of it.

he is now my boyfreind. and i am his girlfriend. and it all just works. it feels so right.
it just feels so damn right.

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i really really enjoy speaking w/ him. he makes me so happy. i just wish i could be near him. i want so badly to be near him right now. but that won't be happening for about 2 week at least. sucks.
grr.
me like pot. me love getting stoned. me have no short term memory. me stupid. me talking like a fucking moron. me need a ciggarette.

good bye.