As stated in the subject of this entry, I feel like the biggest bitch on earth right now. I'm so fucking miserable, and I can't even tell anyone. I told one person, and she laughed at me. So I sit here tonight, ready to cry. Cursing yet not, because there's no reason for me to feel this way. Plus I had to listen to a diatribe on how, yet again ( Read more... )

I've been trying to her the above song for about 3 days now...with futile results. I have heard "Fast Cars and Freedom" at least 3 times, though, so I'm semi-ok ( Read more... )

My birthday is tomorrow. I will finally be 19, one more step towards freedom. Yet I still feel lost. I just don't know what's coming up anymore.

Don't get me wrong, I love Tony with all my heart. I always will. But I feel so...I don't know.

I can't escape, walking down these halls
Hard to find a place, where there are no walls...I'm ( Read more... )

I found a song that completely mirrors how I feel right now...

You want me to just agree
With everything you say
Call my dad the bad guy
Make him pay and pay and pay
It's really not my business
It never was or will ever be
But I know nobody's perfect
And that's counting you and me
Yeah that's counting you and me...
I don't know anymore. I love ( Read more... )

Ok...I know some of you want to know...some of you don't...but whatever...here it is...My dad has moved out and he and my mother are divorcing. This has been a long time coming, but I was hoping that they would last until I got out of the house. Unfortunately, that's not the case now. If anyone actually cares, I'm doing all right. It's ( Read more... )

With trembling hands and a tear-drenched hello ( Read more... )

This has been the most gut-wrenching week possible. There were so many ups and downs, I feel like I just got off a roller coaster. But I'm so glad this all worked out ( Read more... )

This is me turning over a new leaf...

And making a list of things I'm planning not to do anymore.

I won't think of him when Ryan drives by ( Read more... )

I found a better way to get even with my memory...Why ( Read more... )

I love maple sugar. And maple syrup. And you.

I'm hanging out with Tony right now. Before that, I saw Mike. That was awkward. But we cleared the air about before and I am hoping that we'll stay friends like we were last summer.

"I hope you can see this because I'm doing it as hard as I can."

Hahahaha. So many good memories. I love ATHF.

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