today sucks so far. my vertigo has been acting up again. i woke up all dizzy and shit today. that is usually just the beginning of my torment. i feel like that for the rest of the day and sometimes for a little while the next day too. it fucking sux because i want to go out and do something but i feel too much like shit to do so. i've been to the ( Read more... )

well today was slightly boring. yesterday was better. i ended up buying some new cloths for fetish night. you should of seen me when i was shopping. i felt like a girl. but anyway my pickyness will pay off. i will look good, at least i hope i will look good. i just can't get as plastered this time, i do need to go to work the next day. but hey you ( Read more... )

fuck yeah, 21 at last! this day is gonna be so great. i am going out with my family first and then let the party begin at hell. i am probably going to get so drunk. at least thats what i hope. i just hope i won't feel like shit too much the next day. but you only turn 21 once so i am gonna live it up.

i am surprised that i haven't updated in a little while. i have been out and doing stuff the last three days. i have done the most spontaneous things lately. first off i have smoked each of the last three days. and before you think that i am bragging i'm not. i am a little upset with myself. i don't want to become a pot head. with that said, i had ( Read more... )

i've been thinking lately and i have realized that my list of ex's is begining to pile up alot faster than i would like it to. but my point here is that i always try to be friends with them after we have broken up and i am not sure if that is such a smart thing to be doing anymore. i mean really does anyone out there think that it is realistic to ( Read more... )

this sucks. i am so low on money. i have so much stuff i need to pay and not nearly enough of the green stuff to go around. i may have to hole up in my house for a little while to save some money. well except for march 8th. thats my 21st birthday and it's gonna be great. i am gonna get so fucked up so much more often. i am eventually gonna try to ( Read more... )

lots of emotions going on in my head right now. i can't really explain it, i just know it sux. mostly girl related. that is pretty much all you need to hear to get an idea of what it is. :(

today started off pretty good. i had a pretty good day at work. i didn't have to work too late so i got excited because i figured i would have some time to see tori today. i was wrong. she never called me today like she was going to. now i have all kinds of thoughts running through my head. there may be a good reason for her not calling me. but i ( Read more... )

saturday is gonna be so great. i'm going to see opeth and dark tranquility. and if thats not awesome enough i'm getting in free. yeah thats right FREE! thanks to mandi that is. she is fucking awesome. she is gonna be putting me on the guest list. i am so fucking excited to see this show. mandi you are the fucking best ( Read more... )

the in flamse show last night was great. it was definitely worth standing out in the cold for 2 hours. and it was cold. it had to be like 20 degrees and very windy. devildriver was awesome and trivium wasn't bad either. they did a piece of walk from pantera to remember dime bag. it was great. then in flames came on. they had a really cool light ( Read more... )