tonight i watched THREE movies with my brosef. we watched no country for old men, which i was disappointed with, the ending was not satisfying. then we watched micheal clayton, AWESOME movie. lovedit. THEN we watched the brave one, with jodie foster. freaking lovved it ( Read more... )

today i learned being called a fat bitch is one of the most hurtful things anyone could call you.
i hearby ban it from my vocabulary.
thanks bye.

cheers to a new year. <3

R.I.P. lord willin'
you were an awesome fish.

i dont remember the last time i got a middle school crush on a guy. the kind where you pick your words very carefully, and you try not to overdo it, but want to make sure he knows youre interested. im so confused and lost over how to make a guy like me without immediately sleeping with him. because we all know the ending to that story. im working ( Read more... )

i want to change so bad.
i want to be happy.

for the record, im WAY over so-called friends that WILL not talk to me when certain people are around. im NOT quite sure i deserve it after everything ive done for you. so be my friend or dont. simple.

im desparetely trying to balance.
dont go too high, or too low.
im controlling myself.
i give in.
i hold out.
im trying to be the good friend.
the good daughter.
i have a month until i will be surrounded by my favorite people. all the time.
i can hold on til then.
but its hard.
just help me keep on keeping on.

i am a SUCKER.

happy 12th birthday zoe!

so about once a month i have an INTENSE dream that starts with me running from police for god knows what reason, and ends up turning into a zombie flick. where i always end up thinking ive been saved but really being caught in a dead end. and its awful.