"It is not easy to grow so much for so long."

Am I the only person who cries over the loss of people who aren't gone yet? I get devastatingly lonely when I'm by myself these days. I used to not mind my own company, but lately it just isn't enough. Maybe I'm just not used to it anymore...having a girlfriend and being in love has spoiled me rotten, and I guess I just need to rekindle the ( Read more... )

I think my biggest, most crippling fear is the concept of "too late". I fucking hate and cannot stand that it is something that exists.

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I never just feel a little.

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I learned the other week that the man who only loved my mother his whole lonely life passed away from the same thing that my mother passed from. Visits to his house were some of my favorite parts of childhood. He had a beautiful cabin up in the woods in Bonny Doon that he built himself, and we would play in his garden and pick blackberries and ride ( Read more... )

I am Awful and scattered ( Read more... )

“If I could
I would take that smile
and inject it directly into my bloodstream

My parents warned me about drugs in baggies
sold on the street
but never ones
with teeth
and a heartbeat”
- M.W. (via audrotas)

I used to think
I was good at thought
This was because I wasn't
and I am still not.

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Had a really 'Drop Dead Diva' moment last night. I dreamt that I had woken up in some 13 year old girl's body. The whole dream was spent rifling through all of her stuff, and thinking about how ecstatic I was to be able to start over ( Read more... )