With what has your lust for battle left you?
Your love of battle and challenge has left you with no satisfaction for your actual accomplishments after the fight has been won.

 i'm beginning to see my sensitivity and responsiveness not as characteristics to be changed or fixed, but honed and appreciated. i have tried many times to develop a "thicker skin" and i can't. in many areas of my life, my sensitivity serves me well. i can connect with others emotionally. i can easily understand their feelings. i have to be ( Read more... )

It's difficult, you know. It's difficult because I'm not anything special. I don't have a lovely figure. I'm not a curvaceous, beautiful fat girl. I don't fit that mold either. I don't have long luscious hair. I don't have bright beautiful eyes. I don't have a slim waist flowing into voluptuous curves. I don't have a pear shape or an hourglass ( Read more... )

It's like men want some big-titted, small-waisted, big-assed, light-colored woman who can cook, fuck like a porn star, deliver malt liquor beverages in the blink of an eye, who doesn't open her mouth except to suck dick. She should have no education, goals, or dreams so that the man doesn't feel intimidated. She should have no expectations of being ( Read more... )

That I'm doing something wrong even while performing simple, meaningless, everyday tasks.
I'm doing something wrong when I'm not really.
I abuse my mother every time I interact with her.
I am still a bad ass, 10 year old child who needs some discipline even though I'm a grown adult who has grown relationships with most other people.
My college ( Read more... )

As a white female sociologist and activist, I have always felt more compelled to consider the plight of others than myself. I consider the struggle of a black single mother in rural Kentucky. I consider the plight of farmers subjugated by corporate interests. I consider the dilemma of a Mexican immigrant fresh into the States.The truth is, the ( Read more... )

Yesterday in a crying fit in front of my mother I exclaimed "Something is really wrong with me." I repeated it again. I'm at the point of trying to figure out whether something is really wrong with me and my perception of the world/the people around me or if it's them ( Read more... )

i suppose i should document this. it is one of the most horrifying and stressful situations i have come across as of late. i suppose what makes it so bad is that the stress hasn't let up in months. it's been one shit storm after another after another. and i can't seem to catch a break. car accident, sept 23. office doesn't know who's fault it is. ( Read more... )

I don't know how I managed, but things really are better. I keep reminding myself everyday that I need to let go of the past. I need to start anew. Holding on will get me nowhere. I want to replace all this negativity with newness and love. He and I will still argue, of course, but I never ever want an argument to spiral out of control the way it ( Read more... )

i think i at least owe it to you to give you another chance. i could for instance let go of old ideas about how relationships are constructed. Dr. Jean Houston suggests "This journey begins by letting go of old beliefs and patterns to make room for the new beliefs and capacities that will empower you to awaken to and live your higher purpose." the ( Read more... )