im struggling again :( i always get like this before he comes. like.. a feeling that i dont wanna see him.. like i dont wanna put myself through the same things i put myself through every single time i see him. hes acting like he wants to be here.. like he really wants to see me. i know things will be great while hes here and even for a while after ( Read more... )

goodbye to jake.. again :'(

there was this guy who was there for me through one of the toughest times in my life. he made me smile when deep inside, i felt like i was dying of a broken heart. he talked to me every single day and kept me sane when no one else could. he listened to me talk about a guy that i loved when he himself had feelings for me. im sure that hurt.. then ( Read more... )

it was just one day ago that i was writing about being ready to be in a relationship and being happy and now.. im not so sure. aaron and i have been getting closer. he told me last night that he wants me to come to church with him and meet his friends. he wont even let corri come bc he says it'll be too difficult for me to get well acquainted with ( Read more... )

i didnt think it was possible. i find it pretty hard to date someone within close distance bc if i see too much if them, i get irritated and they get on my nerves. i recently met someone though. its weird, but i think this will be good for me. i decided that i didnt wanna casually date anymore. i think im ready for a relationship again :) its been ( Read more... )

i dont know a lot of things, but recently, i dont know. i guess i figured some things out. since kyle and i broke up, i've been looking for this perfect guy.. tall, hot, straight teeth, strong, compassionate, caring, honest, sweet, big calf muscles, romantic, spontaneous, funny, geez.. so much more. anyway.. here i am looking for this "perfect guy ( Read more... )

find me here ( Read more... )

SHE'LL NEVER BE ME ( Read more... )

wow.. this is like the most depressing night ever. i dont know whats going on, but im just ready to break down. im listening to the most depressing music ever and i have so much on my mind. i havent written in my personal journal in forever so im sure as i sit here to clear my head, i'll have a book by the end ( Read more... )

I had it all ( Read more... )