Eh, sooner or later, hopefully, I'll update what's been happening since... 2012? Haha. Seriously not much though ( Read more... )

Why is it that people can write me off with no explanation necessary? How would they like it if it happened to them? So why is it even remotely fair ( Read more... )

Well, this hasn't been the best of times ( Read more... )

Rest In Peace:
Mr. R. Ballin.
January 6, 1952 - July 13, 2009.

A wonderful EEN teacher who touched the lives of everybody he came in contact with.
Gone too soon.
Forever in our hearts!
Keep it real up there in Heaven, Mr. Ballin.
God, please take care of him.
It was a real blessing to have the opportunity to get to know you.

We'll miss you.

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I didn't get around to watching American Idol until the middle of season seven.  My mother and my sister had watched previous seasons, and I loathed them.  I remember every Wednesday morning while in high school, my mother and my sister would put on KISS FM to hear the disc jockey's talk about the performances of the night before, and I absolutely ( Read more... )

So, 2008 is coming to an end.
And I'm petrified.

The holidays royally sucked.

But we'll see what 2009 brings.
I have a lot of determination.
But fear is so powerful.

WHAT HAPPENED TO ME?!

I used to hold something.

I had intelligence.
Computers were my life.
I could write like whoa.
I was athletic.

And I'm sure there's a shit more I could think of but I don't want to.

It's all gone.
Everything that put a value on me deteriorated into nothing.
And right now, that is what I am.

I just wanted to say that:

I miss my high school psychology notebook.

It has some very useful information that I could use right now.

COME BACK MY BLACK SPIRAL PAPER OF KNOWLEDGE!!!

:(

I'm not going to tell you right now what kind of shit has been happening in my life.  It's too insane to even be put into words.

But I did write a poem that I want to post.  So here goes nothing.

Murder in a Secret Form
It was a new year, 2008
Hoping it would turn out to be great
I realized my hopes were held high
As these first few weeks have been a lie

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Poems.

Cloud From Hell
Hey cloud from hell
Throw in a thunder
You have my thoughts
In a gruesome wonder.

Hey cloud from hell
Drown me in rain
The pain and torture
Won't be so insane.

Hey cloud from hell
Strike me dead
It can't be as bad
As living instead.

Hey cloud from hell
Suffocate me
Getting away from here
Is my priority plea.

Hey cloud from hell
Lift me away
A ( Read more... )