Can something be made from nothing? This cannot be what I feel. The only feelings within myself are those caused by something in my environment, not something I was born to have, something I was born to feel. The journey of any human has to do with what he or she goes through day after day, their morals, values, anything in between. I would rather ( Read more... )

Today was an incredible day. I woke up very early to smoke at 4:20, and had myself a small social gathering ( Read more... )

Can we burn the rest of the world, please ( Read more... )

Sunlight, rain, dew, myst, energy ( Read more... )

I have a tick in my right eye, stress related. When I was young, probably 9, 10, 11, 12, I had these really shitty ticks. I was one stress little shit. I would shake my head back and forth until my brain hurt (...uh oh!), twist my face in weird contortions and blink my eyes. I was OCB about #4. Everything that could vary without any major ( Read more... )

The worst part about feeling how I feel is my inability to locate the cure, the easy way out of this mental disarray. There are probably a dozen factors contributing to what I feel, but I sit in a dome of local-omniscience, disregarding my consciousness and blaming everything on a chemical inbalance. I want to be able to control the chemicals that ( Read more... )

Certain events have taken place in my life where all negativity is utilized for a long-term goal. It's the type of angst where it feels good; it is a last resort and a whole new world of freedom.

I want to fuck until I have an STD and a kid.

I want to smoke pot, booze it, and occasionally drop some acid, maybe some peyote.

I want to produce house ( Read more... )

Everything in my LiveJournal, I noticed, is lame, degenerate bullshit, so I deleted all of it. I'll start writing about whatever I feel will help me convey my angst upon whatever soul may read this. Woah. Woah!I woke up today, like usual, feeling desolate and morbid. It was 2:00 (no school today). I had a dream about some girl in my biology class ( Read more... )