Bernard's wedding is today. I'm kinda nervous about the whole thing. I hope I don't screw it up. He's not nervous, be he will be when he gets up there in front of everyone. Apparently there are some thirty people coming to the wedding ( Read more... )

I ramble too much. I dunno. Nothing ever seems to come out the way I think it. It hardly makes any sense to read through my journal entries. I just get caught up in the moment and go for it. I then proofread it right after I'm done, which doesn't make sense, cause I'm still on my streak and I prolly won't notice all the errors about whatever I ( Read more... )

I just have to hold the hate inside. Even now it consumes me. I HATE!!!! So much hate. I'm more angry than I've been in a long time. I'm literally shaking. There's nothing I can do about other people's decisions, and that's what I hate the most. I've lost my sense of control, somehow ( Read more... )

Under the above directive, it has become imperative to clean this house. I can no longer stand to live here. I'm still so embarrased about having a certain female spend the night after seeing the shocking sight of my bathroom surfaces up close. So bad that you just can't forget what that looks like. I don't want anyone to associate me with a ( Read more... )

Ugh, I'm just not even going to talk to girls anymore. I can't trust myself. I can't trust what I'm going to say. Yeah, told her that I tried to commit suicide on more than a few occasions, but that's BS. I've never tried. I've thought about death on a few occasions, but I always end up finding that last ray of hope in something and then my ( Read more... )

So I have about thirty minutes to write about my last few weeks, and I've already had to push the backspace key five times. My thoughts are just spilling out all over the place ( Read more... )

So I'm lacking in confidence too. Geez, let's go ahead and pick on the new guy who's shy. I really like this one. It makes me feel all warm inside to know when someone is judging you based on how confident you are ( Read more... )

Sometimes I wonder...is she the right girl. Sometimes I wonder...what am I doing? What does it all matter? I've seen it tonight. I wonder about her ( Read more... )

I guess the only thing left to say is this, Mary was right. She was right then, and she's right now. The one thing I lack is ambition. I'm not driven, like I have to attain my goal right now. But everyone else in the world is. I feel like I'm running out of time whenever I think of how quickly everyone else is getting there degrees and getting ( Read more... )

I went to the club with Ashley and Edward, shit happened and now Ashley and I are closer friends because of it. I hate live journal and everything it stands for, cause everytime I try to post here it fucks up my journal entries. Anyways the gist of what I had to write is that Ashley is so fucking hot! I wish she was my girl, but she can't or won ( Read more... )