well... so far so good in Holland... It's my first plane trip EVER and it was to Holland... It was pretty cool. take off was kinda like Superman the ride at Magic Mountain, except it didn't take off quite as fast and instead if it being about 20 seconds of airtime.. it was more like 10 hours total of airtime. First off. was at LAX to Philly. stayed ( Read more... )

This is my December ( Read more... )

it's been two years since I last saw my brother. 2 fucken years.... I hate the fact that those numbers are going to grow... I wish I could just go back in time way back, more than 6, 7 years to help Max. but yet thats always just wishful thinking. I still think about him all the time... while at the DM concert, I'd have to owe it more to my ( Read more... )

I'm soo bored... but most of all. I'm so lonely.

well.. been busy with things. Heard a newer depeche mode song called Precious.. I like it very much.. its very pretty and relaxing.. the lyrics to the words are awesome (I.M.O.) downloaded a few different versions.. gotta have them all!!! I wanna post the video up here but I don't have a link/serverspot to post up... oh well.. I want the new album ( Read more... )

See the animal in it's cage that you built ( Read more... )

well... umm... My friend pretty much mentioned to me that they don't wanna be my friend... well.... wtf did I do...oh.. thats right.. I became an insignificant part of thier life... well ( Read more... )

alrighty... here we go... found a few things out today... One guy whom I will not mention is still being gay len.... and I guess I scare people... well I'm not really suprized but..... makes me sad.... like I posted before... friends supposedly
still feeling that way...
and another thing..
ah fuck it...... No one cares what I think anyways...

I've been working on this one Track using FruityLoops... it's trance... its a little bit repetative, but it all goes together. it's kind of a sad vibe in my feel of it. but then other times it feels like its just a refreshing ending to whatever... I need to add more variety to it.... damn... so much work.

this entry is serious one.... I've been thinking about the friends I have (supposedly). I don't know what it is... why is it that I feel like people don't want to be around me? Is it the way I act... what I say? cuz I'm not the best looking?... why do some people seem to be so cold to me? it really sucks to feel this way... I have this feeling ( Read more... )