So it's Independence day or some crap like that. I moved into my new place on Friday. Not that hardly anyone cares. I'm guessing the only one who will even read this is Hannah, and I definitely do not wanna go down that road right now. Maybe in a few minutes...Having the apt to myself is nice, yet at the same time not so nice. Would be nicer if I ( Read more... )

Right so the subject is Hannah. Gee, I wonder who this entry is gonna be about lol. I haven't written in here in forever, so hopefully she's the only one that reads it. Makes it more personal that way hehe. The bad news is we're not compatible. She's told me that for almost a year. The good news is I have a very good imagination, and on the rare ( Read more... )

This will be my last entry, because some of you (Megan, Amanda, and I'm guessing more than likely Hannah), are too big of chicken shits to leave your names in your replies to my posts. So yea, just know that I know the 3 of you are the ones that have left the comments, and I hate you all for it. Bye.

How do you get that lonely, how do you hurt that bad ( Read more... )

So, as those that read my last entry know, I've been dealing w/ some issues the past few days. But, I've taken care of at least one of those. Actually she took care of herself. Yea, that's right, Amanda played head/heart games and then walked away. Probably straight into another guy's bed, since that's all she's "ready" for. It's a shame once she ( Read more... )

Ok so there's a lot that I need to tell people. But I haven't figure it all out yet. I'm very upset, confused, and other stuff right now. All I can say is I'm missing 2 people really bad. More will come as I figure it out. Oh yea, if you think you're 1 of those 2, get ahold of me...

So, today is the last day of Feb. THANK GOD! A month that I predicted to be bad even stunned me. V-day came and went like usual. And yea, I still hate that "holiday". It's just a 24-hour period to magnify my loneliness. Meanwhile Amanda was probably out screwin around w/ who knows how many guys at a party or whatever. But that's ok, cause at least ( Read more... )

My Beautiful Ocean ( Read more... )

Well, tonite sucked. Amanda shot me down yet again. But it's ok for her to go all the way to Miami just to screw Brendon again over spring break. Well at least he was good i guess. Better than me I suppose since I couldn't even pay her to come see me. We'll just forget about the 2-3 times I spent a combined almost $500 to go see her, only to have ( Read more... )

It's officially Feb now. Wow. The hardest month of my year, every year. This year will be exceptionally difficult. Valentines Day...who really needs it? I'll be here, alone, doing nothing. While the love of my life is out w/ who knows who doing who knows what. I was supposed to go be with her last year, but just like the other 3-4 times I tried... ( Read more... )