Do it like a Prefect! (2/3)
(krisbaek, nc17, 27.5k, Hogwarts!AU, romance/humor/drama)
Baekhyun falls in love with a Hufflepuff. It should be the end of the world, and guess what, it is.
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part II
Baekhyun woke up with the worst kind of headache the next morning. Not only didn't he want to get up and face a Wu Yifan that didn't remember their week together, he was also afraid of not being able to control himself and just grab the guy and kiss him senseless, just like Yifan had always done to him. How was he going to explain that, huh?
Standing up and getting himself ready, he stepped into the common room of his house, seeing that Sehun and Jongdae were waiting for him.
"I am mad at you, I just want you to know!" Jongdae suddenly shouted and that was basically the worst time for a mad Jongdae because that required all of his usual strength and Baekhyun didn't have any. Not today. Nevertheless, did he sigh and ask.
"What did I do?"
"You have a boyfriend and you didn't tell me? And it's that monkey Wu Yifan?"
"Don't call him that," Baekhyun snapped and was surprised at himself for a second before he saw the shocked look on Jongdae's and Sehun's faced and then realized how weird he was acting. "I mean, yea... but not anymore. It's a long story, and thanks Sehun for keeping your promise of not telling."
"I didn't tell him," Sehun just said, voice strong "Yifan told Joonmyeon and Joonmyeon told Jongdae and Jongdae just told me, well and now here we are."
"What?" Baekhyun asked shocked. "But Yifan promised he wouldn't tell anyone."
"Well, he apparently did anyway."
Baekhyun didn't understand. He had begged Yifan not to tell anyone and the Hufflepuff hadn't seemed very displeased with that idea either. So how come he had ended up telling someone after all? And besides Joonmyeon, who else knew about it?
"You broke up?" Sehun then asked and Baekhyun snapped out of his thoughts, nodding before he walked past them, to the door "Are you ok?"
"I'm fine," Baekhyun lied and when he saw the sincere worry in his best friend's eyes he smiled, trying to sound like the tease he usually was "Got some nice fucking out of it so it was worth it." Was it?
"If you want to talk, always feel free to fin-"
"I'm fine, Sehun!" Baekhyun said once more, louder this time, before he pulled the door open and disappeared, not wanting to talk about it anymore.
On the way to the Great Hall he was thinking about how to react when facing Yifan. Obviously the best way of dealing with this was to ignore him, just like Yifan would ignore him because before their little week together they'd basically never even talked to each other. But on the other hand, Baekhyun was seriously starting to consider to actually try to approach Yifan anyway and maybe ask him out or something. After all he could at least try to make him fall in love with him even without a potion and somehow that thought wasn't quite as appealing anymore. Since he'd get a lot of sex out of that and Baekhyun had learned to deal with Yifan's weird mood swings from horny to righteous and his frickingly nice character having the Hufflepuff fall in love with him for real didn't sound like the worst thing that could happen any longer. But then there was still the fact that Baekhyun wasn't even Yifan's type to begin with, right? Would he really have a chance?
When he sat down at his usual spot next to Chanyeol, he held his head high looking over at where Yifan was sitting opposite of Zi Tao, taking a sip from his mug. His lips were pulled around the rim of his cup, face almost fully hidden beside it but then he laughed all of a sudden, choking as some of the juice dripped down his chin and he quickly got a napkin to wipe it away. Baekhyun snorted at the sight, thinking how this was so typical when suddenly Yifan was looking back at him smiling.
For a moment Baekhyun wasn't sure if his eyes weren't playing a trick on him. But then he closed them hard, just to open them again and see that Yifan was still looking at him. Then he turned away, though, and Baekhyun was left questioning, his hands having turned into two nervous lumps on his lab.
Yifan had never smiled at him before their weeks together. Not like that. The two of them had never had anything to do with each other... why now?
Counting the days, Baekhyun was sure that he hadn't made a mistake. Seven days were over and the potion should not be working any longer. But then why had he just smiled at him? Had he made some kind of mistake in the procedure of making the potion?
Before he could think more about it, Sehun had sat down in front of him, blocking his view as he got himself a piece of toast and started buttering it.
What had just happened, Baekhyun had no idea. There was only one way to find out.
The Slytherin knew that Wu Yifan had Quidditch training today, that's why he made sure to head him off before he could leave for the field.
Leaning against the wall right in front of the entrance, Baekhyun pushed himself away from it as he saw Yifan turn a corner and approaching him. This was the first time he saw the Hufflepuff in his Quidditch attire, the yellowish robe flaring behind him and his broom in one hand. Baekhyun literally felt his mouth going dry at the sight. It was funny how just one week of meaningless sex could have such effects on how Baekhyun thought of a person. Having found him both extremely unattractive and boring, the Slytherin could only fight with his mind so he wouldn't grow a hard one just standing there and watching him walk.
"Yifan," he said when the man was only a few steps away and not to Baekhyun's surprise did the guy look at him and stop.
It felt just like the day before. Baekhyun would just have to grin and get up on his tiptoes and Yifan would haul him into his arms and press a wet and sloppy kiss to his lips. Just that it wasn't. Yifan didn't come any closer.
"Hello Baekhyun," the boy answered after a few seconds of just watching the Slytherin watch him.
For a moment, Baekhyun was surprised that he knew his name but then he remembered, he was pretty well known for being a tease who did what he wanted so knowing him by name wasn't really anything special.
"Hey, on your way to Quidditch training?" Baekhyun asked, forcing a smile on his lips and now that he was standing in front of him, Baekhyun had no idea how to actually ask him out or just make sure that the guy did not remember him. Everything had sounded so easy when he had gone through it in his head, but now he wasn't even sure if he'd manage to talk end this conversation without wetting himself.
"Yes," was Yifan's short answer before he just went back to staring down at Baekhyun and the Slytherin really wasn't surprised. He had never been much of a talker.
"Do you have time afterwards?" he finally decide to ask, not letting how nervous he was show on his face, just having his usual teasy smile on his lips as he continued "We could hang out, you know. Just the two of us. If you know what I mean." There he had said it and Baekhyun thought that he had done a pretty good job because Yifan's eyes had gone wide and Baekhyun knew that kind of expression. It was usually followed my a mild blush or a nervous nod.
"Oh," was all that came out of the Hufflepuff's mouth though, as he eyed the boy standing in front of him and Baekhyun felt like he was seriously being checked-out for a second. "I ehm... I'm sorry but ehm... I don't think that's a very good idea."
Like someone had just sucked all of the oxygen out of his lungs, that's how Baekhyun felt at the quite obvious rejection to his offer. Yifan was looking at him with a kind of sorry as well as confused expression.
"I'm sorry, Baekhyun."
"You... don't want to?"
"I'm sorry."
"But..." Baekhyun didn't know what to say. He hadn't really thought that Yifan was going to just go along with it, hoped yes, but not thought because he knew that he wasn't really his type, but such a straight-forward rejection? No, he had less than expected it. "You are a Hufflepuff. You're supposed to be nice. How can you just reject me like that?" He knew that he was gibbeting but that didn't stop him from mouthing his confusion.
The frown on Yifan's forehead that followed was something Baekhyun had seen a lot in those fast few days. Yifan had made that kind of expression every time Baekhyun had said something he didn't like.
"Well, I'm just not interested in a relationship or whatever you want from me. I'm really sorry Baekhyun, it's nothing personal, I jus-"
"I'm not your type am I? Loud, mean and say stuff you can't agree with. That's it, isn't it?" Baekhyun said and he wanted it to sound angry but he could hear himself and he sounded horribly pitiful and hurt and he hated himself for being like that and he also hated the way Yifan was looking at him now. So sorry.
Before the Hufflepuff could say anything else, though, mouth already opened, Baekhyun turned around and left in quick steps.
He didn't want to hear it. He didn't want to see him. Yifan obviously didn't remember him, that much was clear, and what's also been made clear was the fact that Yifan didn't give a rat's ass about him and Baekhyun couldn't believe the emotions that were welling through his body as he felt Yifan still staring at him as he left.
Baekhyun wasn't sad. He wasn't hurt. There was no reason to feel sorry at all. It was just that being stolen his perfect sexpartner after waiting for him for two years was kind of hard to take and realizing that you'd probably never get him again was even worse. That's what it was. A huge disappointment to his dick. And nothing more.
What the hell was wrong with him? What the fucking hell was wrong with him?
In those seven days the two of them had spent together, Baekhyun had wished for nothing more than a cock shoved up his arse, and that at least twice a day. He had not wanted to get along with Yifan. The kisses the Hufflepuff had wanted all the time had annoyed him because most of them hadn't led to more and Baekhyun had never been someone to get much of pleasure out of just kissing if it wasn't done as some kind of foreplay. Baekhyun hadn't wanted to see Yifan's ridiculously ugly smile and feel his fingers intertwining with his, or a strong body pressing him against his chest, fitting so perfect together while cuddling. All Baekhyun had wanted was to get fucked, fucked really really well, and now that everything was over, Baekhyun found this to be the least of his worries.
He wanted his kisses back. He wanted to hold hands. He wanted to be hugged. He wanted to make him smile. He wanted to talk to him and hear him tell him more ridiculous reasons for why people should finally start calling him Kris, even though the name didn't even fit him and Yifan was just so perfect. Not only the name, but also the person.
What the hell was wrong with him? If he didn't knew himself any better, Baekhyun would have said that he was in love, but fuck no, he didn't do shit like that. Baekhyun didn't fall in love. Baekhyun got fucked! That's how he had imagined his teenager years. Fucking one guy after another and not lying in his bed, not getting why tears were running down his face as he was thinking about the way Yifan had held him and played with his fingertips after they had had sex in the room of requirement for the first time. Baekhyun had pulled him inside for a quicky but Yifan had insisted on cuddling and pulled Baekhyun's back against his chest as he had leaned down against the head of the bed and pressed small kisses to Baekhyun's neck and Baekhyun had smiled and not wanted to let go.
"Baekhyun," he suddenly heard a voice say and he didn't want to but he turned to the side, seeing Sehun standing by the door. Quickly whipping his tears, Baekhyun sat up, smiling at his best friend as he approached. Again, that sorry expression. "Are you ok?"
"Of course I am," he said before he even realized that Sehun had just caught him crying while lying in his bed in the middle of the day and he obviously wasn't. "I mean... I will be ok. It's just..."
"Yifan?"
Baekhyun nodded. He didn't say anything, he just nodded because how was he going to explain if Sehun was gonna ask what had happened for them to break up? Nothing had happened after all! This had never been a real relationship in the first place.
"Do you miss him?" Sehun asked as he sat down next to Baekhyun at the edge of the bed, seeing the older guy nod once more. "Do you want to tell me about it?"
No, he didn't. He really didn't. He just wanted to lie down again and keep thinking and reliving those few memories in his head and search for faults in Yifan so he could go back to not liking him and just wanting his dick, but why the fuck wasn't it working.
"I just... I regret it. We were only going out for a week and..."
"You didn't treat him well?" Sehun asked, an understanding smile on his lips.
"How do you know?"
"Well, I'm your best friend and I know you. You're not the nicest person on the planet."
"That's saying it nice. I treated him like shit. I used him."
"For sex?" Sehun asked and Baekhyun nodded again "But you fell in love with him?" No, he didn't. He couldn't have. Sex was sex and love was love and the two things were totally separate issues. He hadn't fallen in love with him, he had... just gotten used to him and was now missing him. That's right. "Yes you fell for him, don't even try to tell me otherwise."
"I really didn't."
"Then why are you crying here alone in your room three weeks after your break up if you aren't in love with him?"
"Because I want his dick."
"More like the guy attached to that dick, right?" Sehun said grinning but then Baekhyun was glaring at him and the smile left his lips.
Baekhyun didn't need to hear this.
"I am just sad that's all, why can't I be sad without being in love, huh?" He was shouting those words and Sehun looked at him kind of surprised at the sudden outburst of emotions before he sighed.
"I get it. You aren't in love with him. Ok."
"Right!"
"Then... what do you plan on doing now?" Sehun continued, not trying to make his best friend mad again because he could see that he was in a delicate state and he didn't wan to make him feel even worse even when it was obvious that Baekhyun was just in denial.
"I want Yifan back. His dick, I mean."
"Of course you do" Sehun said nodding, not trying to sound too sarcastic "Then try to get him back."
"I can't, I'm not even his type."
Sehun looked at him in disbelief then "You got him once, you can get him again. If you're not his type, how did you make him go out with you in the first place?"
Of course Baekhyun couldn’t answer that. He could hardly tell him that he had to potion someone to get sex. No, he couldn't tell him.
"Just try that again Maybe it'll work," Sehun said after he'd seen the worried look on his best friends face and at first Baekhyun just nodded because what the hell was he supposed to say to that but then his eyes opened wide at the idea.
The potion.
He could do it again.
Not having had such a good nights sleep in weeks, Baekhyun watched with a wide grin on his face as the Hufflepuff Quidditch team rose down to the ground with their brooms and made their way to the side of the field to take a 5-minute rest. It was the moment Yifan's lips were touching his bottle and the liquid run down his chin and neck that Baekhyun jumped up in excitement having watched the act from the windows of the library.
"Quiet!" Madame Pince snapped at him from the side but the Slytherin just smiled at her for a moment before he looked back at Joonmyeon who had been watching him with a weird side glance.
"What?" he asked the prefect who was seated at the closest table with a few books opened up before him, probably having been studying or supposed to instead of staring at Baekhyun and the Slytherin turned to him in question.
"What is wrong with Yifan?" the boy suddenly asked not talking around the bush, "He told me that he was dating you a few weeks ago but then I asked him about it again and he seemed really confused as to why I would think that. He had no idea what I was talking about and I have a feeling that you can tell me what happened" Joonmyeon didn't have to say more because he saw Baekhyun swallow nervously "I knew it, did you do something to him?"
"It's none of your bus-" Baekhyun tried to say again, probably the words he most used when facing the Ravenclaw prefect but this time they didn't work and Joonmyeon hit the table with both of his palms while standing up.
"No, Baekhyun, it certainly is! I am a prefect but most importantly, Yifan is a very good friend of mine and he's been acting like someone hexed him or something. You tell me what's going on now or I'll go to the principle!"
This time Baekhyun really felt himself starting to shiver. This was bad. This was very very bad. Joonmyeon was for real, Baekhyun saw the sincerity in his eyes, and something like that could certainly get him expelled. Especially if they found out that he had just done it again... potioned another student against his will! Twice!
"Talk Baekhyun!" Joonmyeon said this time louder and standing up to walk next to where Baekhyun was still standing in front of the window.
"I..:" Baekhyun started and when he suddenly saw the almost angry glare in Joonmyeon's eyes he sighed and gave in. Apart from the fact that he apparently didn't have a choice anyway, it felt soo soooo good to finally get this off his chest and talk to someone about it. He hadn't even been able to tell his best friend after all and carrying around such a big secret for more than a month now was really uncomfortable.
When he was done talking, having just told Joonmyeon how he had actually just given Yifan the potion one more time but leaving out the part where his feeling for Yifan might have changed, the Ravenclaw sank down on the closest chair, all the while looking up at Baekhyun with wide eyes.
"You are a horrible person!" Joonmyeon whispered and first Baekhyun thought he didn't mean it so he agreed by nodding a bit "You are such a horrible person, I had no idea!" he continued, nothing but disgust in his expression then, " I thought you were just a huge tease, like Jongdae, but this... this is inhuman. You made someone have sex with you against their will. You... you basically raped him over and over again."
"Oh, I wouldn’t go that far," Baekhyun countered, shocked at the heavy accusation and crossing his arms in defence "I know what I did wasn't nice and... wrong, yes I know, but... it's not that big of a deal. Yifan was very willing, I can assure you I never forced him into doing all the stuff he did to me willingl-"
"Don't! I don't want to hear what you made him do to you! You disgusting little-"
"Wow, such words from our mister future head boy, what is going on?" Jongdae suddenly appeared from behind a bookshelf, with a sneaky little grin on his face and Baekhyun didn't even need to look twice to know that the bastard had been eavesdropping on them.
"Joonmyeon, Joonmyeon, Joonmyeon, what is with that look on your face? It doesn't suit you. Here here, smile," the fellow Slytherin said as he pinched both of the prefect's cheeks with his fingers, forming his lips into a smile and laughing at the sight, but Joonmyeon lightly hit his hands away, rubbing the red spots on his face and looking up at Jongdae a little troubled before he stood up, watching Baekhyun again.
"What you have done" the Ravenclaw started, voice strong "is horrible and disgusting. But I won't tell on you. Not because I feel sorry for you but because I just don't ever ever want him to find out what happened to him, because I know Yifan and I know it would destroy him." Baekhyun felt his hands starting to shiver at those words because the thoughts of Yifan actually finding out had never even crossed him mind. He had been so careful about planning everything and with just Sehun knowing he had never thought that anyone would ever... but now, knowing that the result would be an absolute nightmare, Baekhyun didn't know if he wanted to cry or to scream "When this week is over, you will not do it again. Ever. Because if you do, I swear to god, I will get you expelled before you can say Finite Incatatem! Did I make myself clear?"
Yes, he had more than made himself clear. Baekhyun nodded, a slight tremor to his hands when Joonmyeon's face softened, just a little bit, and the horrible silence afterwards was broken by a weird whistle sound coming from Jongdae.
"Oh my, mister head boy, this side of you, all angry and serious. You just got me a little bit hard."
Baekhyun was about to tell his classmate to shut the fuck up and that this was a very serious situation but in addition to Jongdae not taking anything serious ever, he saw a light blush to Joonmyeon's cheek before the prefect tried to shoot Baekhyun one more glare - but failing - and disappeared, leaving back the books he had been studying with.
It was only when the Ravenclaw was out of sight that Baekhyun turned to Jongdae.
"You heard everything?"
"Every single word." The boy was grinning and Baekhyun just sighed.
"Listen, you cannot tell anyone. Not even Sehun and Chanyeol. Two people already know and two is two more than I'd planned to tell."
"Don't worry. This kind of information is a lot worth, I wouldn't tell just for the fun of it," Jongdae reassured him but how come it didn't actually sound very calming?
"Anyway, don't tell anyone. Don't grin suspiciously or make weird comments when I'm with Yifan and please just leave Yifan alone. He doesn't really like people like us and having to deal with me is probably already complicated enough for him."
"People like us?" Jongdae asked, one eyebrow pulled up. "Slytherins?"
"No. Assholes."
"Well, that's understandable, I guess," Jongdae answered sincerely before the grin was back on his face "I have one condition, though."
"Jongdae please don't make this any harder for me than it already is!"
"One condition!" the boy insisted "You gotta tell me how to brew that wonder potion. Because I already know, at one point in my life I'm gonna need it!"
The next morning someone grasped him by the shoulder from behind, clearing his throat before Baekhyun stopped breathing for a while and turned around, Yifan standing in front of him with a nervous smile on his face that quickly turned into a strong and confident expression.
"Hi, I'm Kris," he said and Baekhyun wanted to laugh out loud at that but he couldn't because somehow he was still holding his breath "Well, actually my name is Yifan and you know that, but everyone calls me Kris so."
Nobody calls you Kris, Baekhyun would have said if he had been able to talk.
"Do you ehm... have some time after lunch? I've kind of been thinking about how you asked me out a few weeks ago and you're right, I wasn't very nice about it, so... I'd ehm... like to... get to know you better."
"Actually," Baekhyun started, finally opening his mouth again from the close tight line it had been just a second ago "I do have time. And I'd like that very much, Yif- ehm I mean Kris."
And there is was. The hideous smile Baekhyun had only been able to watch from afar for the past few weeks and the only thing holding him from getting on his tiptoes and press their lips together was the fact that they were surrounded by too many people at the moment.
"Why do your friends call you Kris, though?" Baekhyun then asked because somehow he just wanted Yifan to talk and as ridiculous as it was, he was very passionate about that one subject. He started talking immediately, explaining how Kris was such a fitting name for someone as tall as him and when they started walking side by side each other, Baekhyun didn't even listen to all of his reasoning, he just grinned to the ground as he watched their feet taking steps next to each other and the sound of Yifan's dark voice ringing in his ears.
After over a month of feeling like something huge had been missing in his life- not a dick! - Baekhyun finally felt like everything was going to be alright again.
For at least one more week.
Baekhyun hadn't known that just listening to someone talk about something they were passionate about could be such a wonderful thing to do. Him and Yifan had sat down together after lunch, eating slices of pie as Yifan had started to tell him about their big upcoming game against Gryffindor in a week and how excited he was. Explaining the different kinds of techniques he'd use, Baekhyun had seriously no idea what the big guy was talking about, but it was nevertheless interesting to watch how his lips and teeth moved at the different syllables coming out of his weirdly-shaped but all the more beautiful mouth. And all of a sudden, the gums Baekhyun had found so hideous were somehow really appealing and every time Yifan laughed Baekhyun found himself smiling at the sight.
Maybe he was ill. Or... or maybe - and really just maybe - Sehun had been right and Baekhyun had really fallen in love with the Hufflepuff. But why? Because of the sex? Nobody fell in love with a person because they managed to satisfy their sexual needs. It wasn't like that with love, was it?
"Are you listening?" Yifan asked, a slight smile on his face as he watched Baekhyun snap out of the intense staring he'd been doing for a while now.
"Yes, Kris. Quidditch. Very interesting," Baekhyun said hoping that Yifan had still been talking about the subject. Yifan's almost-snort told him that he hadn't, though. "Sorry, I was just thinking about... stuff."
"If that stuffs involves you and me in the prefect's bathroom tomorrow, I will forgive you."
Did he really just say that? Baekhyun wasn't sure. Yifan, though, seemed to be waiting for an answer and when he saw the Slytherin swallow hard, he blushed a little, moving his head back.
"Don't misunderstand!" the Hufflepuff said, holding his huge hands in front of his body "I just thought that it's a really nice place and since you're not a prefect, I'd like to give you the opportunity to... see it."
"Right," Baekhyun just answered, obviously not believing a single world, but nevertheless not knowing if a sneaky grin was the appropriate expression, so instead he just smiled nodding "I'd like that, Kris."
They had sex. Of course, they had. This time though it was Yifan who initiated it when he had offered to scrub Baekhyun's back and only two minutes later ended up with his fingers pushed inside of Baekhyun's arse to open him up. Similar to their first time, Yifan had bent Baekhyun over the rim of the tub, pressing him against the tiled-floor while pounding into him hard. And after that they'd had sex again. And then Baekhyun had given him a blowjob, finally able to take half of his length into his mouth without gagging and thankful for all of the practice he had gotten the precious week they'd been together. And very out of character, Baekhyun had been the one to start the cuddling, leaning against Yifan's body in the tub, head resting against his chest while the Hufflepuff stroked Baekhyun's wet hair, shoving a few strands behind one ear.
"What is it," Baekhyun asked when he had looked up to press a kiss to the Hufflepuff's mouth and found him starring at him with a frown on his head.
"You called me Yifan," Yifan said. The Slytherin looked at him in question before he continued "You always call me Kris but... when we were having sex, you called out Yifan."
"Well, that's your name."
"I know... it was just... weird."
"You don't like it when I call you Yifan?" Baekhyun asked because he'd surely call him by whatever name he liked best. Yifan shook his head, though.
"It's just that I," he paused before he looked kind of troubled and sighed before giving in "Please don't think that I'm some weird perverted guy or something but... it's just that I've had dreams you know."
"Dreams?"
"Yea. Of you and me... doing... stuff." Yifan whispered, looking back into Baekhyun's eyes, seeing him grin "And in those dreams you also called me Yifan all the time."
"Well..." Baekhyun didn't know what to say to that. He could hardly tell him that he had troubles calling him Kris while having sex because he'd grown so used to the name Yifan. He had always called him that after all, it was just that Yifan didn't remember.
"I like it, though. Maybe because you are one of the few people who manage to pronounce my actual name right... or maybe... I don't know. It just feels good having you call me by my name while I fuck you."
"I like it too. When you say my name," Baekhyun said smiling and Yifan smiled back, leaning down for a short kiss before he continued stroking through the Slytherin's hair.
It didn't even take three full days until his best friend Sehun noticed it again. They were sitting in the dungeon’s common room, both separately working on one of their assignments when Baekhyun started smiling from one ear to the other, remembering how Yifan had pulled him in an abandoned corner of the third floor right before his Quidditch training. The two of them had snogged for five minutes, ignoring the fact that both of them would be late, and then Yifan had just held on to him, pressing their bodies so hard together while slowly turning. It had been like they'd been dancing, just that there hadn't been any music - but that didn't even matter. It had been so perfect. And then Yifan had pulled away, smiling and disappeared and Baekhyun had watched him walk away in his sexy Quidditch clothes.
"So it worked?" Sehun suddenly asked and Baekhyun turned to him, still smiling and looking back at his best friend who was wearing a similar expression on his face. "You and Yifan again?"
Before Baekhyun could even think about not doing it, he was nodding already, his grin growing even wider, if that was even possible.
"I'm happy for you. A little surprised that you would go out with a Hufflepuff, but nevertheless happy."
"He may seem like a total Hufflepuff on the outside, but really? He's really sure of what he wants and an animal in bed. You won't believe what he's got hidden behin-"
"Ok, that's enough details. Thank you very much," Sehun said a smile with a mixture of slight disgust on his lips but when he saw the glow in Baekhyun's eyes and just how happy he was, he grinned again, slapping the older guy against the back a little in congratulations before going back to his assignment. "I just hope that this time I'll last longer than a week."
Of course Sehun didn't see the smile disappearing from Baekhyun's face then, not realizing what kinds of thoughts he had just triggered.
Longer than a week... Baekhyun wasn't ever going to get that, was he? Not with himself not being Yifan's type at all and Joonmyeon having found out about the potion and forbidding him from ever doing it again.
Four more days. He had only for more days and in those few days he'd have to make sure to use them wisely... as well as get some closure.
Someone was penetrating him from behind and it wasn't Yifan with his cock, it was that weird Hufflepuff girl over at the other side of the Great Hall with a gaze as sharp as a blade. It was the annual Yule ball so Baekhyun had pretty much expected to be stared at with his pretty new robes but he had not expected someone to look at him with so much hatred in their eyes.
"Who's that girl?" Baekhyun asked, looking back over his shoulder for a second and then up at Jongin again, who was himself starring at someone at the other side of the hall - probably Kyungsoo but Baekhyun couldn't care less about the Gryffindor's ridiculous crush.
"Which one?"
"Orange dress, black long hair. Looks like she wants to kill me."
"Ah," Jongin started, only looking at her for a second before looking back to the Ravenclaw "Isn't she the one who's going out with Yifan?" Jongin started and then he obviously read Baekhyun's reaction wrong because instead of wondering why Baekhyun had suddenly turned so pale and quiet he was starting to explain "He's the leader and Beater of the Hufflepuff team. Wu Yifan. Tall and dorky. I'm sure you've seen him."
"I have," Baekhyun just said, almost choking but not quiet knowing why "I didn't know he had a girlfriend."
"Mhm," Jongin took a sip from his drink "They got together a week ago or something."
"I didn't know you were friends with Yifan," Baekhyun said, sounding casual and he had no idea how he was managing that because he was feeling so nauseous all of a sudden, his head starting to spin just that it wasn't really but Baekhyun leaned back against the wall anyway, steadying himself because he was feeling like he'd fall if he didn't.
"We're not. Last time we trained with the Hufflepuff team, I saw them snogging at the side of the field, though."
"Have they've had sex yet?" and then he felt Jongin looking at him confused. He could see how this would be a weird question coming from him, someone who wasn't supposed to have any relationship with Yifan.
"How would I know? I told you, we're not friends."
"Yea, right. Sorry."
"Are you ok? You look kind of weird..."
"I'm fine," Baekhyun said but Jongin was cocking an eyebrow obviously not believing him in the state he was in,;eyes not focused on anything and heavily leaning against the wall. He stood up, forcing a smile on his face "Really."
Jongin seemed uncertain at first but then he nodded and excused himself with the words "Gotta tell Kyungsoo how good he looks," and disappeared.
Baekhyun was left standing there, looking back at the girl who was still staring at him with nothing but hatred in her eyes and for the first time in his life Baekhyun felt like he wanted to curse somebody.
She had no right to look at him like that! Yifan had been his first. She was just some slut that had come around a week ago and was now getting in between the two of them...
...just that she really wasn't. She was the one Yifan - the real uninfluenced not-potioned Yifan - had chosen and she was so damn pretty, Baekhyun had to admit that.
Not quite able to get her out of his head at all, even though he was trying so hard, Baekhyun sat down at one one of the empty round tables at the back of the hall, watching the few couples dancing to slow music. How he wished that he was one of them, together with Yifan. But he wasn't because he had told Yifan that they hadn't even been going out for a week and it was too early for them to be seen together like that, which was obviously total bullshit, but what fucking else was he supposed to do when he had to keep their relationship a secret because otherwise everything would just get too fucking messed up?
"Hey," Yifan suddenly said though, having sat down next to him and usually Baekhyun would have flinched away and told Yifan off for not keeping away like they had discussed, but he didn't. Too sad and disappointed and hurt at the thought that Yifan had had sex with someone beside him, even though he had no right to be, he just couldn't care less.
"Hi," Baekhyun said, a slight smile on his lips as he looked at Yifan who was just nothing but gorgeous in his traditional but nevertheless very handsome robes, and the bit of yellow that was showing off from beyond the robes, making Baekhyun frown.
"Oh that," Yifan said grinning and lifting up one side of his robe "I know that you love to see me in my Quidditch attire. I thought that we might want to go somewhere quiet... just the two of us... and I let you take it off of me?" he was still grinning until he saw that Baekhyun wasn't grinning back which was weird considering he had just made a very kinky proposition and the Slytherin was usually all for the kinky, "or not, I guess?"
Baekhyun opened his mouth to tell him that he'd very much like that but instead he heard himself say "That Hufflepuff girl you've been going out with... do you love her?"
Yifan had no expected that, it was obvious. His face showed a mixture of confusion, sorry and being caught in the act.
"We're not going out anymore. I broke up with her already."
"When?"
"The day I woke up and realized I wanted to be with you," he was smiling when he said that and probably expected Baekhyun to smile back but... how could he?
"Did you love her?"
"Why are you asking about her, Baek? She doesn't matter to me anym-"
"Did you love her?" he repeated strongly and Yifan sighed, looking around to make sure that no one was watching them before he took both of Baekhyun's hands in his.
"No, I did not," he immediately said and Baekhyun was somehow so sure that it was a lie but at the same time, Yifan didn't seem like he was lying "I liked her. She's pretty and really nice and" he stopped when Baekhyun withdraw his hands, to hold on to them again, this time harder "and she's just not what I wanted. I thought I wanted someone like her but... somehow all I've been thinking about is you. Even when I was with her."
"Wow," Baekhyun said, looking deeply into Yifan's eyes which were watching him "you're such a good liar, I had no idea!" And he really would have believed him if it wasn't for the fact that he knew better. There was no way that Yifan could have been thinking about him before taking the potion for the second time. The potion had made him forget. Baekhyun wasn't even his type. Why would he be thinking about him? This could not be anything but a lie.
"I'm not lying!" Yifan said strongly, seeming offended at the words "I told you, I've been having dreams about us. It started weeks ago. I've been thinking about you for a month, day and night."
"That's not even fucking possible, stop lying to me!" Baekhyun almost shouted, keeping his voice down because of the location.
"Yes it is. I am not lying. Why would you think that?"
Because the potion made you forget everything. It is just no possible. Of course he didn’t say that, how could he.
"If it's true, why did you date that girl then? If you've been thinking about me all the time?"
"Because she's pretty and I... I just realized a few weeks ago that I was gay, ok? That's also why I rejected you that time you asked me out. I was just so confused. I just wanted to see if I could do girls-"
"Did you? Did you fuck her?"
Yifan didn't want to answer that, Baekhyun could see that, and that was already enough of an answer.
"Yes," he quietly admitted after a while, though "but I was thinking about you all the time!"
That did it. Baekhyun stood up, not wanting to be near Yifan the moment those unjustified jealous feelings took over. He didn't know what he was going to do. Cry or get angry, he didn't know, he just wanted to get away. Storming out of the Great Hall and down into the dungeons, Yifan followed him and grasped him by the wrist before Baekhyun could disappear through the stone wall into his house.
"What is wrong with you?" Yifan shouted angrily and confused "We didn't date then. I didn't cheat on you!" he started, getting more quiet as he saw Baekhyun's hurt expression "I don't understand why this is such a huge deal for you. It's not like you've never slept with someone else befo-" he stopped talking then, as he realized it. Watching Baekhyun look at the ground both hurt and embarrassed. "That time in the prefect's bathroom... was your first time?" he asked almost too shocked, letting go of Baekhyun's wrist.
The Slytherin knew that the two of them were talking about two different times, but that didn't matter because yes, Yifan had been his first.
"It was," he just said quietly, more embarrassed than hurt at that moment and he didn't even know why.
What was wrong with him in general? Yifan was right, he hadn't cheated on him! He had no right to be angry or sad at this at all.
But he was. He was so much, his heart felt like it had broken in his chest and the sharp pieces were boring into his flesh from the inside.
"I'm sorry, I had no idea. I just assumed that you'd had sex before becau-"
"Because I seem like a slut?"
"No!" Yifan said quickly, holding on to Baekhyun again but this time entwining their fingers "Because you are so handsome and seemed very experienced. Man, that explains why you had to shove that shampoo bottle up your butt to prepare yourself. Of course, there'd be no way to take me in if it was your first time otherwise," Yifan said, blushing halfway through the sentence and then looking at Baekhyun still with that sorry look on his face combined with something that looked like sincere affection...
But Baekhyun just started at him. Stared and stared while his head was working hard, trying to comprehend what the fuck Yifan had just said.
Shampoo bottle... Yifan wasn't supposed to remember that. That had happened weeks ago. The potion had been supposed to delete those memories... then why was he...
And suddenly Yifan's eyes were growing so wide, his head so pink, Baekhyun had no idea what was going on but one thing was clear, something wasn't right here. Expecting to be hit in the face with Yifan realizing what Baekhyun had done to him - even though that wasn't even fricking possible - the Slytherin flinched a step back.
"Oh my god," the Hufflepuff started "You don't remember the shampoo thing, do you? Of course you don't. It was one of my dreams. I just... I keep confusing them, I'm so sorry, Baekhyun, urgh please don't think that I'm some kind of pervert who dreams about watching you shove a bottle up your arse," Yifan said seeming really embarrassed and trying to hide his face behind one hand so he couldn't see how incredibly shocked Baekhyun was.
"Those dreams you've been having..:" Baekhyun started, not knowing how to say it without it sounding weird "what are they like?"
"I told you before. We have sex in them. A lot of sex. Sometimes we just talk or kiss but most of the time sex. And they feel so real, you have no idea. Like they really happened."
And it didn't take long for the Slytherin to realize what was going on this time.
"Because they did," Baekhyun whispered but Yifan didn't hear him, asking him to repeat those words. "I need to go," Baekhyun said instead, though. "I really really need to go," he said one more time before he pulled his hand out of Yifan's again and disappeared right back to the Great Hall.
He needed to talk to Kyungsoo.
"Well," the Ravenclaw started, looking at the recipe of the love potion Baekhyun had wrote down from his memory on a napkin after he had stormed back into the midst of the Yule Ball, searching for Kyungsoo like a mad man and the boy had told him that he couldn't help him if he didn't have the recipe. "No wonder he is starting to remember... you made a mistake," Kyungsoo said pointing with his finger to the third line, leaning against a wall next to the dance floor "You should have shredded the mistletoe berries, not cropped them. Cropping them just makes the memories disappear for a certain amount of time, but they will come back in one way or another. Through visions, dreams, anything is possible, really. Only shredding them has the effect of making someone forget for eternity."
"So," Baekhyun said, his hand shivering, "he's going to remember? Everything?"
"Sooner or later, yes," Kyungsoo said, letting the hand that was holding on to the napkin with fall to his side and looking up at Baekhyun "Who are we talking about, though? Who did you give the potion to?"
"Does that really matter?" Baekhyun asked scared shitless and not knowing what to do. He had made the potion wrong twice! He had given Yifan this potion twice and sooner or later he was going to remember everything and he was going to be furious!
"I suppose it doesn't."
"It's Yifan," Joonmyeon said all of a sudden having appeared from out of nowhere and stopping next to Kyungsoo "He gave it to Yifan. Twice."
"Twice? Oh, " Kyungsoo said, looking at the sheet again with a little bit of worry in his eyes.
"Why Oh? What's wrong with twice?"
"Nothing, actually, but it might take a long time before he remembers all of it. A year. Maybe two."
"If you're lucky Yifan won't be at Hogwarts anymore when he finally remembers. That'd save you a lot of trouble, wouldn't it?" Joonmyeon said, a slightly angry look on his face and it was obvious that he was still mad at the Slytherin for doing that to his friend.
"Sorry Joonmyeon but I'm not in the mood to listen to your crap now," Baekhyun said harshly, wanting to leave for the dungeons again, lie down and give himself some time to think about everything, but Yifan was watching him from the entrance hall, waiting for him and making sure that Baekhyun wouldn't be able to leave without talking to him first. "Can't catch a fucking break," he whispered to himself before he saw something that made this day even worse than it had already been.
The Hufflepuff girl was approaching Yifan, suddenly standing in front of him, talking to him. At first it seemed like they were just having a normal conversation but then she was touching his arm, Yifan looking troubled, and all Baekhyun could think about was pulling out his wand and hex that pretty witch bald. And he was about to do that when...
"Don't you dare!" Joonmyeon said from behind him, holding on to his wand hand. "That's Yifan's girlfriend. Unlike you, he actually likes her."
"No he doesn't" Baekhyun snapped at the prefect, pulling his arm out of the boy's hold "He only fucked her because he was confused about his sexuality."
"No, he didn't. He's been talking about her for months. You are only confusing him with your potion. Yifan wants her. Not you, who's just treating him like a fuck toy," Joonmyeon said loudly, "When are you going to get that?"
But Baekhyun did get that. That was the problem. That's why he was feeling so sick all of a sudden, every millilitre of fluids and ever gram of food he had eaten that day threatening to come up his throat as he pressed his lips together in a tight squeeze so not to cry out loud.
Sehun had been so damn right. He was in love with Yifan and it was the worst thing that had ever happened to him. Nothing about this felt good. Nothing. Nothing!
"Just..." he said, not looking at Joonmyeon who had grown weirdly quiet next to him. Baekhyun could feel his eyes on his face and he felt tears running down his cheeks but it wasn't because of embarrassment that he fled the scene, it was because he just wanted to get away from everything and anyone. Wanting to be alone, because that's what he had always been. That's what he was used to and that's how everything had always worked out for him. Changing that by being so stupid and letting himself fall in love with someone who'd never really want him back, had been the biggest mistake in his life up until that point.
He was running past Yifan and the slut, the Hufflepuff trying to follow him but not being fast enough before Baekhyun slammed the stone wall shut into his face. He was running up the stairs into his dorm room and falling into his sheets with a stream of wet tears running down his face, ugly sobs leaving his mouth and all he really wished for at that moment was for something to make that feeling stop.
He'd never wanted to fall in love. Never.
But he had. And he could not make it go away.
The next morning, Baekhyun only forced himself out of the bed so he could walk over to Madam Pomfrey and ask her for something against a broken heart. He had really meant it when he said the words and the sorry smile the witch had given him had told him that not even magic would be able to take care of this shit of a mess Baekhyun had gotten himself into. Not even magic.
Baekhyun had lived his whole live believing that he was something special because he came from a pureblood family. Because he was pretty talented when it came to spells and similar stuff, because magic had just always been a part of him and he'd been good at it. He'd always been able to get his way, if not without it, he'd used magic and everything had turned out just fine. He'd hexed the people he didn't like, had gotten amazing sex out of magic, what else had he wanted? Definitely not this. After living 17 years like this, Baekhyun had found out that there was one thing magic could not do. Make that pain go away. It didn't work... not even the numbing spell he had cast on himself, pointing it at his head as well as his heart hadn't made him feel any less sad.
Not having gone to breakfast and lunch that day to make sure to avoid Yifan, only hiding in the common room of his house, his stomach was hurting a lot at the end of the day. He waited until dinner was almost over when he left his house for the first time that Sunday and get something to eat. Being confronted with Yifan and how fake his love really was, was too much, even knowing that it was his own fault or maybe especially because of that. They had only a whole day left together, but somehow Baekhyun didn't know if it was right to make use of that. He had surely failed to get closure, his feelings just having grown stronger with every second the two of them had spent together, and facing him or sleeping with him one more time... Baekhyun didn't know if he'd be able to do it without crying and he just really didn't want to have to explain himself to the Hufflepuff since sooner or later he'd know anyway and Baekhyun would have enough explaining to do then. He just hoped that by then he'd have managed to take care of his feelings....hoped.
Of course, the moment he entered the Great Hall, Yifan jumped from his seat at his own house table, one of the few students left in the Great Hall. For moment Baekhyun thought about running but Yifan was going to catch him. If not today, he'd somehow get to him tomorrow.
"Baek, please," Yifan said approaching him and immediately holding on to his arms in a tight but nevertheless careful grasp so he couldn't run, "You misunderstood. I know you saw me with her. We... we were just talking, I don't li-"
"That's not it. I'm not angry at you, Kris,"
The boy looked confused before he continued: "Then what is it? I don't understand... what happened... why are you suddenly trying to get away from me?" he sounded hurt and so so confused and his puffy eyes told Baekhyun that he hadn't been the only one crying and not getting enough sleep last night. "What did I do?"
"It's not your fault... I just..." no, he couldn't say it. He couldn't and he wouldn't. Not now. Not today when he'd have to face an angry - and even worse, disappointed - Yifan the next day.
"You just what?"
"Let's talk about it tomorrow."
"No, Baek! I can't wait until tomorrow, I'm going crazy thinking about it. Please jus-"
"Tomorrow, let's meet in the prefect's bathroom at 8pm, ok?"
Yifan didn't look like he was ok with it but when Baekhyun forced himself to smile at him Yifan nodded.
"So same time, same place?" he asked and Baekhyun almost laughed out loud because this was another thing from their first week Yifan wasn't supposed to remember, but he did and wasn't even aware of it.
"Same time same place," Baekhyun repeated before Yifan leaned forward to press a small but passionate kiss on Baekhyun's lips before leaving.
part I || part III
Baekhyun falls in love with a Hufflepuff. It should be the end of the world, and guess what, it is.
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part II
Baekhyun woke up with the worst kind of headache the next morning. Not only didn't he want to get up and face a Wu Yifan that didn't remember their week together, he was also afraid of not being able to control himself and just grab the guy and kiss him senseless, just like Yifan had always done to him. How was he going to explain that, huh?
Standing up and getting himself ready, he stepped into the common room of his house, seeing that Sehun and Jongdae were waiting for him.
"I am mad at you, I just want you to know!" Jongdae suddenly shouted and that was basically the worst time for a mad Jongdae because that required all of his usual strength and Baekhyun didn't have any. Not today. Nevertheless, did he sigh and ask.
"What did I do?"
"You have a boyfriend and you didn't tell me? And it's that monkey Wu Yifan?"
"Don't call him that," Baekhyun snapped and was surprised at himself for a second before he saw the shocked look on Jongdae's and Sehun's faced and then realized how weird he was acting. "I mean, yea... but not anymore. It's a long story, and thanks Sehun for keeping your promise of not telling."
"I didn't tell him," Sehun just said, voice strong "Yifan told Joonmyeon and Joonmyeon told Jongdae and Jongdae just told me, well and now here we are."
"What?" Baekhyun asked shocked. "But Yifan promised he wouldn't tell anyone."
"Well, he apparently did anyway."
Baekhyun didn't understand. He had begged Yifan not to tell anyone and the Hufflepuff hadn't seemed very displeased with that idea either. So how come he had ended up telling someone after all? And besides Joonmyeon, who else knew about it?
"You broke up?" Sehun then asked and Baekhyun snapped out of his thoughts, nodding before he walked past them, to the door "Are you ok?"
"I'm fine," Baekhyun lied and when he saw the sincere worry in his best friend's eyes he smiled, trying to sound like the tease he usually was "Got some nice fucking out of it so it was worth it." Was it?
"If you want to talk, always feel free to fin-"
"I'm fine, Sehun!" Baekhyun said once more, louder this time, before he pulled the door open and disappeared, not wanting to talk about it anymore.
On the way to the Great Hall he was thinking about how to react when facing Yifan. Obviously the best way of dealing with this was to ignore him, just like Yifan would ignore him because before their little week together they'd basically never even talked to each other. But on the other hand, Baekhyun was seriously starting to consider to actually try to approach Yifan anyway and maybe ask him out or something. After all he could at least try to make him fall in love with him even without a potion and somehow that thought wasn't quite as appealing anymore. Since he'd get a lot of sex out of that and Baekhyun had learned to deal with Yifan's weird mood swings from horny to righteous and his frickingly nice character having the Hufflepuff fall in love with him for real didn't sound like the worst thing that could happen any longer. But then there was still the fact that Baekhyun wasn't even Yifan's type to begin with, right? Would he really have a chance?
When he sat down at his usual spot next to Chanyeol, he held his head high looking over at where Yifan was sitting opposite of Zi Tao, taking a sip from his mug. His lips were pulled around the rim of his cup, face almost fully hidden beside it but then he laughed all of a sudden, choking as some of the juice dripped down his chin and he quickly got a napkin to wipe it away. Baekhyun snorted at the sight, thinking how this was so typical when suddenly Yifan was looking back at him smiling.
For a moment Baekhyun wasn't sure if his eyes weren't playing a trick on him. But then he closed them hard, just to open them again and see that Yifan was still looking at him. Then he turned away, though, and Baekhyun was left questioning, his hands having turned into two nervous lumps on his lab.
Yifan had never smiled at him before their weeks together. Not like that. The two of them had never had anything to do with each other... why now?
Counting the days, Baekhyun was sure that he hadn't made a mistake. Seven days were over and the potion should not be working any longer. But then why had he just smiled at him? Had he made some kind of mistake in the procedure of making the potion?
Before he could think more about it, Sehun had sat down in front of him, blocking his view as he got himself a piece of toast and started buttering it.
What had just happened, Baekhyun had no idea. There was only one way to find out.
The Slytherin knew that Wu Yifan had Quidditch training today, that's why he made sure to head him off before he could leave for the field.
Leaning against the wall right in front of the entrance, Baekhyun pushed himself away from it as he saw Yifan turn a corner and approaching him. This was the first time he saw the Hufflepuff in his Quidditch attire, the yellowish robe flaring behind him and his broom in one hand. Baekhyun literally felt his mouth going dry at the sight. It was funny how just one week of meaningless sex could have such effects on how Baekhyun thought of a person. Having found him both extremely unattractive and boring, the Slytherin could only fight with his mind so he wouldn't grow a hard one just standing there and watching him walk.
"Yifan," he said when the man was only a few steps away and not to Baekhyun's surprise did the guy look at him and stop.
It felt just like the day before. Baekhyun would just have to grin and get up on his tiptoes and Yifan would haul him into his arms and press a wet and sloppy kiss to his lips. Just that it wasn't. Yifan didn't come any closer.
"Hello Baekhyun," the boy answered after a few seconds of just watching the Slytherin watch him.
For a moment, Baekhyun was surprised that he knew his name but then he remembered, he was pretty well known for being a tease who did what he wanted so knowing him by name wasn't really anything special.
"Hey, on your way to Quidditch training?" Baekhyun asked, forcing a smile on his lips and now that he was standing in front of him, Baekhyun had no idea how to actually ask him out or just make sure that the guy did not remember him. Everything had sounded so easy when he had gone through it in his head, but now he wasn't even sure if he'd manage to talk end this conversation without wetting himself.
"Yes," was Yifan's short answer before he just went back to staring down at Baekhyun and the Slytherin really wasn't surprised. He had never been much of a talker.
"Do you have time afterwards?" he finally decide to ask, not letting how nervous he was show on his face, just having his usual teasy smile on his lips as he continued "We could hang out, you know. Just the two of us. If you know what I mean." There he had said it and Baekhyun thought that he had done a pretty good job because Yifan's eyes had gone wide and Baekhyun knew that kind of expression. It was usually followed my a mild blush or a nervous nod.
"Oh," was all that came out of the Hufflepuff's mouth though, as he eyed the boy standing in front of him and Baekhyun felt like he was seriously being checked-out for a second. "I ehm... I'm sorry but ehm... I don't think that's a very good idea."
Like someone had just sucked all of the oxygen out of his lungs, that's how Baekhyun felt at the quite obvious rejection to his offer. Yifan was looking at him with a kind of sorry as well as confused expression.
"I'm sorry, Baekhyun."
"You... don't want to?"
"I'm sorry."
"But..." Baekhyun didn't know what to say. He hadn't really thought that Yifan was going to just go along with it, hoped yes, but not thought because he knew that he wasn't really his type, but such a straight-forward rejection? No, he had less than expected it. "You are a Hufflepuff. You're supposed to be nice. How can you just reject me like that?" He knew that he was gibbeting but that didn't stop him from mouthing his confusion.
The frown on Yifan's forehead that followed was something Baekhyun had seen a lot in those fast few days. Yifan had made that kind of expression every time Baekhyun had said something he didn't like.
"Well, I'm just not interested in a relationship or whatever you want from me. I'm really sorry Baekhyun, it's nothing personal, I jus-"
"I'm not your type am I? Loud, mean and say stuff you can't agree with. That's it, isn't it?" Baekhyun said and he wanted it to sound angry but he could hear himself and he sounded horribly pitiful and hurt and he hated himself for being like that and he also hated the way Yifan was looking at him now. So sorry.
Before the Hufflepuff could say anything else, though, mouth already opened, Baekhyun turned around and left in quick steps.
He didn't want to hear it. He didn't want to see him. Yifan obviously didn't remember him, that much was clear, and what's also been made clear was the fact that Yifan didn't give a rat's ass about him and Baekhyun couldn't believe the emotions that were welling through his body as he felt Yifan still staring at him as he left.
Baekhyun wasn't sad. He wasn't hurt. There was no reason to feel sorry at all. It was just that being stolen his perfect sexpartner after waiting for him for two years was kind of hard to take and realizing that you'd probably never get him again was even worse. That's what it was. A huge disappointment to his dick. And nothing more.
What the hell was wrong with him? What the fucking hell was wrong with him?
In those seven days the two of them had spent together, Baekhyun had wished for nothing more than a cock shoved up his arse, and that at least twice a day. He had not wanted to get along with Yifan. The kisses the Hufflepuff had wanted all the time had annoyed him because most of them hadn't led to more and Baekhyun had never been someone to get much of pleasure out of just kissing if it wasn't done as some kind of foreplay. Baekhyun hadn't wanted to see Yifan's ridiculously ugly smile and feel his fingers intertwining with his, or a strong body pressing him against his chest, fitting so perfect together while cuddling. All Baekhyun had wanted was to get fucked, fucked really really well, and now that everything was over, Baekhyun found this to be the least of his worries.
He wanted his kisses back. He wanted to hold hands. He wanted to be hugged. He wanted to make him smile. He wanted to talk to him and hear him tell him more ridiculous reasons for why people should finally start calling him Kris, even though the name didn't even fit him and Yifan was just so perfect. Not only the name, but also the person.
What the hell was wrong with him? If he didn't knew himself any better, Baekhyun would have said that he was in love, but fuck no, he didn't do shit like that. Baekhyun didn't fall in love. Baekhyun got fucked! That's how he had imagined his teenager years. Fucking one guy after another and not lying in his bed, not getting why tears were running down his face as he was thinking about the way Yifan had held him and played with his fingertips after they had had sex in the room of requirement for the first time. Baekhyun had pulled him inside for a quicky but Yifan had insisted on cuddling and pulled Baekhyun's back against his chest as he had leaned down against the head of the bed and pressed small kisses to Baekhyun's neck and Baekhyun had smiled and not wanted to let go.
"Baekhyun," he suddenly heard a voice say and he didn't want to but he turned to the side, seeing Sehun standing by the door. Quickly whipping his tears, Baekhyun sat up, smiling at his best friend as he approached. Again, that sorry expression. "Are you ok?"
"Of course I am," he said before he even realized that Sehun had just caught him crying while lying in his bed in the middle of the day and he obviously wasn't. "I mean... I will be ok. It's just..."
"Yifan?"
Baekhyun nodded. He didn't say anything, he just nodded because how was he going to explain if Sehun was gonna ask what had happened for them to break up? Nothing had happened after all! This had never been a real relationship in the first place.
"Do you miss him?" Sehun asked as he sat down next to Baekhyun at the edge of the bed, seeing the older guy nod once more. "Do you want to tell me about it?"
No, he didn't. He really didn't. He just wanted to lie down again and keep thinking and reliving those few memories in his head and search for faults in Yifan so he could go back to not liking him and just wanting his dick, but why the fuck wasn't it working.
"I just... I regret it. We were only going out for a week and..."
"You didn't treat him well?" Sehun asked, an understanding smile on his lips.
"How do you know?"
"Well, I'm your best friend and I know you. You're not the nicest person on the planet."
"That's saying it nice. I treated him like shit. I used him."
"For sex?" Sehun asked and Baekhyun nodded again "But you fell in love with him?" No, he didn't. He couldn't have. Sex was sex and love was love and the two things were totally separate issues. He hadn't fallen in love with him, he had... just gotten used to him and was now missing him. That's right. "Yes you fell for him, don't even try to tell me otherwise."
"I really didn't."
"Then why are you crying here alone in your room three weeks after your break up if you aren't in love with him?"
"Because I want his dick."
"More like the guy attached to that dick, right?" Sehun said grinning but then Baekhyun was glaring at him and the smile left his lips.
Baekhyun didn't need to hear this.
"I am just sad that's all, why can't I be sad without being in love, huh?" He was shouting those words and Sehun looked at him kind of surprised at the sudden outburst of emotions before he sighed.
"I get it. You aren't in love with him. Ok."
"Right!"
"Then... what do you plan on doing now?" Sehun continued, not trying to make his best friend mad again because he could see that he was in a delicate state and he didn't wan to make him feel even worse even when it was obvious that Baekhyun was just in denial.
"I want Yifan back. His dick, I mean."
"Of course you do" Sehun said nodding, not trying to sound too sarcastic "Then try to get him back."
"I can't, I'm not even his type."
Sehun looked at him in disbelief then "You got him once, you can get him again. If you're not his type, how did you make him go out with you in the first place?"
Of course Baekhyun couldn’t answer that. He could hardly tell him that he had to potion someone to get sex. No, he couldn't tell him.
"Just try that again Maybe it'll work," Sehun said after he'd seen the worried look on his best friends face and at first Baekhyun just nodded because what the hell was he supposed to say to that but then his eyes opened wide at the idea.
The potion.
He could do it again.
Not having had such a good nights sleep in weeks, Baekhyun watched with a wide grin on his face as the Hufflepuff Quidditch team rose down to the ground with their brooms and made their way to the side of the field to take a 5-minute rest. It was the moment Yifan's lips were touching his bottle and the liquid run down his chin and neck that Baekhyun jumped up in excitement having watched the act from the windows of the library.
"Quiet!" Madame Pince snapped at him from the side but the Slytherin just smiled at her for a moment before he looked back at Joonmyeon who had been watching him with a weird side glance.
"What?" he asked the prefect who was seated at the closest table with a few books opened up before him, probably having been studying or supposed to instead of staring at Baekhyun and the Slytherin turned to him in question.
"What is wrong with Yifan?" the boy suddenly asked not talking around the bush, "He told me that he was dating you a few weeks ago but then I asked him about it again and he seemed really confused as to why I would think that. He had no idea what I was talking about and I have a feeling that you can tell me what happened" Joonmyeon didn't have to say more because he saw Baekhyun swallow nervously "I knew it, did you do something to him?"
"It's none of your bus-" Baekhyun tried to say again, probably the words he most used when facing the Ravenclaw prefect but this time they didn't work and Joonmyeon hit the table with both of his palms while standing up.
"No, Baekhyun, it certainly is! I am a prefect but most importantly, Yifan is a very good friend of mine and he's been acting like someone hexed him or something. You tell me what's going on now or I'll go to the principle!"
This time Baekhyun really felt himself starting to shiver. This was bad. This was very very bad. Joonmyeon was for real, Baekhyun saw the sincerity in his eyes, and something like that could certainly get him expelled. Especially if they found out that he had just done it again... potioned another student against his will! Twice!
"Talk Baekhyun!" Joonmyeon said this time louder and standing up to walk next to where Baekhyun was still standing in front of the window.
"I..:" Baekhyun started and when he suddenly saw the almost angry glare in Joonmyeon's eyes he sighed and gave in. Apart from the fact that he apparently didn't have a choice anyway, it felt soo soooo good to finally get this off his chest and talk to someone about it. He hadn't even been able to tell his best friend after all and carrying around such a big secret for more than a month now was really uncomfortable.
When he was done talking, having just told Joonmyeon how he had actually just given Yifan the potion one more time but leaving out the part where his feeling for Yifan might have changed, the Ravenclaw sank down on the closest chair, all the while looking up at Baekhyun with wide eyes.
"You are a horrible person!" Joonmyeon whispered and first Baekhyun thought he didn't mean it so he agreed by nodding a bit "You are such a horrible person, I had no idea!" he continued, nothing but disgust in his expression then, " I thought you were just a huge tease, like Jongdae, but this... this is inhuman. You made someone have sex with you against their will. You... you basically raped him over and over again."
"Oh, I wouldn’t go that far," Baekhyun countered, shocked at the heavy accusation and crossing his arms in defence "I know what I did wasn't nice and... wrong, yes I know, but... it's not that big of a deal. Yifan was very willing, I can assure you I never forced him into doing all the stuff he did to me willingl-"
"Don't! I don't want to hear what you made him do to you! You disgusting little-"
"Wow, such words from our mister future head boy, what is going on?" Jongdae suddenly appeared from behind a bookshelf, with a sneaky little grin on his face and Baekhyun didn't even need to look twice to know that the bastard had been eavesdropping on them.
"Joonmyeon, Joonmyeon, Joonmyeon, what is with that look on your face? It doesn't suit you. Here here, smile," the fellow Slytherin said as he pinched both of the prefect's cheeks with his fingers, forming his lips into a smile and laughing at the sight, but Joonmyeon lightly hit his hands away, rubbing the red spots on his face and looking up at Jongdae a little troubled before he stood up, watching Baekhyun again.
"What you have done" the Ravenclaw started, voice strong "is horrible and disgusting. But I won't tell on you. Not because I feel sorry for you but because I just don't ever ever want him to find out what happened to him, because I know Yifan and I know it would destroy him." Baekhyun felt his hands starting to shiver at those words because the thoughts of Yifan actually finding out had never even crossed him mind. He had been so careful about planning everything and with just Sehun knowing he had never thought that anyone would ever... but now, knowing that the result would be an absolute nightmare, Baekhyun didn't know if he wanted to cry or to scream "When this week is over, you will not do it again. Ever. Because if you do, I swear to god, I will get you expelled before you can say Finite Incatatem! Did I make myself clear?"
Yes, he had more than made himself clear. Baekhyun nodded, a slight tremor to his hands when Joonmyeon's face softened, just a little bit, and the horrible silence afterwards was broken by a weird whistle sound coming from Jongdae.
"Oh my, mister head boy, this side of you, all angry and serious. You just got me a little bit hard."
Baekhyun was about to tell his classmate to shut the fuck up and that this was a very serious situation but in addition to Jongdae not taking anything serious ever, he saw a light blush to Joonmyeon's cheek before the prefect tried to shoot Baekhyun one more glare - but failing - and disappeared, leaving back the books he had been studying with.
It was only when the Ravenclaw was out of sight that Baekhyun turned to Jongdae.
"You heard everything?"
"Every single word." The boy was grinning and Baekhyun just sighed.
"Listen, you cannot tell anyone. Not even Sehun and Chanyeol. Two people already know and two is two more than I'd planned to tell."
"Don't worry. This kind of information is a lot worth, I wouldn't tell just for the fun of it," Jongdae reassured him but how come it didn't actually sound very calming?
"Anyway, don't tell anyone. Don't grin suspiciously or make weird comments when I'm with Yifan and please just leave Yifan alone. He doesn't really like people like us and having to deal with me is probably already complicated enough for him."
"People like us?" Jongdae asked, one eyebrow pulled up. "Slytherins?"
"No. Assholes."
"Well, that's understandable, I guess," Jongdae answered sincerely before the grin was back on his face "I have one condition, though."
"Jongdae please don't make this any harder for me than it already is!"
"One condition!" the boy insisted "You gotta tell me how to brew that wonder potion. Because I already know, at one point in my life I'm gonna need it!"
The next morning someone grasped him by the shoulder from behind, clearing his throat before Baekhyun stopped breathing for a while and turned around, Yifan standing in front of him with a nervous smile on his face that quickly turned into a strong and confident expression.
"Hi, I'm Kris," he said and Baekhyun wanted to laugh out loud at that but he couldn't because somehow he was still holding his breath "Well, actually my name is Yifan and you know that, but everyone calls me Kris so."
Nobody calls you Kris, Baekhyun would have said if he had been able to talk.
"Do you ehm... have some time after lunch? I've kind of been thinking about how you asked me out a few weeks ago and you're right, I wasn't very nice about it, so... I'd ehm... like to... get to know you better."
"Actually," Baekhyun started, finally opening his mouth again from the close tight line it had been just a second ago "I do have time. And I'd like that very much, Yif- ehm I mean Kris."
And there is was. The hideous smile Baekhyun had only been able to watch from afar for the past few weeks and the only thing holding him from getting on his tiptoes and press their lips together was the fact that they were surrounded by too many people at the moment.
"Why do your friends call you Kris, though?" Baekhyun then asked because somehow he just wanted Yifan to talk and as ridiculous as it was, he was very passionate about that one subject. He started talking immediately, explaining how Kris was such a fitting name for someone as tall as him and when they started walking side by side each other, Baekhyun didn't even listen to all of his reasoning, he just grinned to the ground as he watched their feet taking steps next to each other and the sound of Yifan's dark voice ringing in his ears.
After over a month of feeling like something huge had been missing in his life- not a dick! - Baekhyun finally felt like everything was going to be alright again.
For at least one more week.
Baekhyun hadn't known that just listening to someone talk about something they were passionate about could be such a wonderful thing to do. Him and Yifan had sat down together after lunch, eating slices of pie as Yifan had started to tell him about their big upcoming game against Gryffindor in a week and how excited he was. Explaining the different kinds of techniques he'd use, Baekhyun had seriously no idea what the big guy was talking about, but it was nevertheless interesting to watch how his lips and teeth moved at the different syllables coming out of his weirdly-shaped but all the more beautiful mouth. And all of a sudden, the gums Baekhyun had found so hideous were somehow really appealing and every time Yifan laughed Baekhyun found himself smiling at the sight.
Maybe he was ill. Or... or maybe - and really just maybe - Sehun had been right and Baekhyun had really fallen in love with the Hufflepuff. But why? Because of the sex? Nobody fell in love with a person because they managed to satisfy their sexual needs. It wasn't like that with love, was it?
"Are you listening?" Yifan asked, a slight smile on his face as he watched Baekhyun snap out of the intense staring he'd been doing for a while now.
"Yes, Kris. Quidditch. Very interesting," Baekhyun said hoping that Yifan had still been talking about the subject. Yifan's almost-snort told him that he hadn't, though. "Sorry, I was just thinking about... stuff."
"If that stuffs involves you and me in the prefect's bathroom tomorrow, I will forgive you."
Did he really just say that? Baekhyun wasn't sure. Yifan, though, seemed to be waiting for an answer and when he saw the Slytherin swallow hard, he blushed a little, moving his head back.
"Don't misunderstand!" the Hufflepuff said, holding his huge hands in front of his body "I just thought that it's a really nice place and since you're not a prefect, I'd like to give you the opportunity to... see it."
"Right," Baekhyun just answered, obviously not believing a single world, but nevertheless not knowing if a sneaky grin was the appropriate expression, so instead he just smiled nodding "I'd like that, Kris."
They had sex. Of course, they had. This time though it was Yifan who initiated it when he had offered to scrub Baekhyun's back and only two minutes later ended up with his fingers pushed inside of Baekhyun's arse to open him up. Similar to their first time, Yifan had bent Baekhyun over the rim of the tub, pressing him against the tiled-floor while pounding into him hard. And after that they'd had sex again. And then Baekhyun had given him a blowjob, finally able to take half of his length into his mouth without gagging and thankful for all of the practice he had gotten the precious week they'd been together. And very out of character, Baekhyun had been the one to start the cuddling, leaning against Yifan's body in the tub, head resting against his chest while the Hufflepuff stroked Baekhyun's wet hair, shoving a few strands behind one ear.
"What is it," Baekhyun asked when he had looked up to press a kiss to the Hufflepuff's mouth and found him starring at him with a frown on his head.
"You called me Yifan," Yifan said. The Slytherin looked at him in question before he continued "You always call me Kris but... when we were having sex, you called out Yifan."
"Well, that's your name."
"I know... it was just... weird."
"You don't like it when I call you Yifan?" Baekhyun asked because he'd surely call him by whatever name he liked best. Yifan shook his head, though.
"It's just that I," he paused before he looked kind of troubled and sighed before giving in "Please don't think that I'm some weird perverted guy or something but... it's just that I've had dreams you know."
"Dreams?"
"Yea. Of you and me... doing... stuff." Yifan whispered, looking back into Baekhyun's eyes, seeing him grin "And in those dreams you also called me Yifan all the time."
"Well..." Baekhyun didn't know what to say to that. He could hardly tell him that he had troubles calling him Kris while having sex because he'd grown so used to the name Yifan. He had always called him that after all, it was just that Yifan didn't remember.
"I like it, though. Maybe because you are one of the few people who manage to pronounce my actual name right... or maybe... I don't know. It just feels good having you call me by my name while I fuck you."
"I like it too. When you say my name," Baekhyun said smiling and Yifan smiled back, leaning down for a short kiss before he continued stroking through the Slytherin's hair.
It didn't even take three full days until his best friend Sehun noticed it again. They were sitting in the dungeon’s common room, both separately working on one of their assignments when Baekhyun started smiling from one ear to the other, remembering how Yifan had pulled him in an abandoned corner of the third floor right before his Quidditch training. The two of them had snogged for five minutes, ignoring the fact that both of them would be late, and then Yifan had just held on to him, pressing their bodies so hard together while slowly turning. It had been like they'd been dancing, just that there hadn't been any music - but that didn't even matter. It had been so perfect. And then Yifan had pulled away, smiling and disappeared and Baekhyun had watched him walk away in his sexy Quidditch clothes.
"So it worked?" Sehun suddenly asked and Baekhyun turned to him, still smiling and looking back at his best friend who was wearing a similar expression on his face. "You and Yifan again?"
Before Baekhyun could even think about not doing it, he was nodding already, his grin growing even wider, if that was even possible.
"I'm happy for you. A little surprised that you would go out with a Hufflepuff, but nevertheless happy."
"He may seem like a total Hufflepuff on the outside, but really? He's really sure of what he wants and an animal in bed. You won't believe what he's got hidden behin-"
"Ok, that's enough details. Thank you very much," Sehun said a smile with a mixture of slight disgust on his lips but when he saw the glow in Baekhyun's eyes and just how happy he was, he grinned again, slapping the older guy against the back a little in congratulations before going back to his assignment. "I just hope that this time I'll last longer than a week."
Of course Sehun didn't see the smile disappearing from Baekhyun's face then, not realizing what kinds of thoughts he had just triggered.
Longer than a week... Baekhyun wasn't ever going to get that, was he? Not with himself not being Yifan's type at all and Joonmyeon having found out about the potion and forbidding him from ever doing it again.
Four more days. He had only for more days and in those few days he'd have to make sure to use them wisely... as well as get some closure.
Someone was penetrating him from behind and it wasn't Yifan with his cock, it was that weird Hufflepuff girl over at the other side of the Great Hall with a gaze as sharp as a blade. It was the annual Yule ball so Baekhyun had pretty much expected to be stared at with his pretty new robes but he had not expected someone to look at him with so much hatred in their eyes.
"Who's that girl?" Baekhyun asked, looking back over his shoulder for a second and then up at Jongin again, who was himself starring at someone at the other side of the hall - probably Kyungsoo but Baekhyun couldn't care less about the Gryffindor's ridiculous crush.
"Which one?"
"Orange dress, black long hair. Looks like she wants to kill me."
"Ah," Jongin started, only looking at her for a second before looking back to the Ravenclaw "Isn't she the one who's going out with Yifan?" Jongin started and then he obviously read Baekhyun's reaction wrong because instead of wondering why Baekhyun had suddenly turned so pale and quiet he was starting to explain "He's the leader and Beater of the Hufflepuff team. Wu Yifan. Tall and dorky. I'm sure you've seen him."
"I have," Baekhyun just said, almost choking but not quiet knowing why "I didn't know he had a girlfriend."
"Mhm," Jongin took a sip from his drink "They got together a week ago or something."
"I didn't know you were friends with Yifan," Baekhyun said, sounding casual and he had no idea how he was managing that because he was feeling so nauseous all of a sudden, his head starting to spin just that it wasn't really but Baekhyun leaned back against the wall anyway, steadying himself because he was feeling like he'd fall if he didn't.
"We're not. Last time we trained with the Hufflepuff team, I saw them snogging at the side of the field, though."
"Have they've had sex yet?" and then he felt Jongin looking at him confused. He could see how this would be a weird question coming from him, someone who wasn't supposed to have any relationship with Yifan.
"How would I know? I told you, we're not friends."
"Yea, right. Sorry."
"Are you ok? You look kind of weird..."
"I'm fine," Baekhyun said but Jongin was cocking an eyebrow obviously not believing him in the state he was in,;eyes not focused on anything and heavily leaning against the wall. He stood up, forcing a smile on his face "Really."
Jongin seemed uncertain at first but then he nodded and excused himself with the words "Gotta tell Kyungsoo how good he looks," and disappeared.
Baekhyun was left standing there, looking back at the girl who was still staring at him with nothing but hatred in her eyes and for the first time in his life Baekhyun felt like he wanted to curse somebody.
She had no right to look at him like that! Yifan had been his first. She was just some slut that had come around a week ago and was now getting in between the two of them...
...just that she really wasn't. She was the one Yifan - the real uninfluenced not-potioned Yifan - had chosen and she was so damn pretty, Baekhyun had to admit that.
Not quite able to get her out of his head at all, even though he was trying so hard, Baekhyun sat down at one one of the empty round tables at the back of the hall, watching the few couples dancing to slow music. How he wished that he was one of them, together with Yifan. But he wasn't because he had told Yifan that they hadn't even been going out for a week and it was too early for them to be seen together like that, which was obviously total bullshit, but what fucking else was he supposed to do when he had to keep their relationship a secret because otherwise everything would just get too fucking messed up?
"Hey," Yifan suddenly said though, having sat down next to him and usually Baekhyun would have flinched away and told Yifan off for not keeping away like they had discussed, but he didn't. Too sad and disappointed and hurt at the thought that Yifan had had sex with someone beside him, even though he had no right to be, he just couldn't care less.
"Hi," Baekhyun said, a slight smile on his lips as he looked at Yifan who was just nothing but gorgeous in his traditional but nevertheless very handsome robes, and the bit of yellow that was showing off from beyond the robes, making Baekhyun frown.
"Oh that," Yifan said grinning and lifting up one side of his robe "I know that you love to see me in my Quidditch attire. I thought that we might want to go somewhere quiet... just the two of us... and I let you take it off of me?" he was still grinning until he saw that Baekhyun wasn't grinning back which was weird considering he had just made a very kinky proposition and the Slytherin was usually all for the kinky, "or not, I guess?"
Baekhyun opened his mouth to tell him that he'd very much like that but instead he heard himself say "That Hufflepuff girl you've been going out with... do you love her?"
Yifan had no expected that, it was obvious. His face showed a mixture of confusion, sorry and being caught in the act.
"We're not going out anymore. I broke up with her already."
"When?"
"The day I woke up and realized I wanted to be with you," he was smiling when he said that and probably expected Baekhyun to smile back but... how could he?
"Did you love her?"
"Why are you asking about her, Baek? She doesn't matter to me anym-"
"Did you love her?" he repeated strongly and Yifan sighed, looking around to make sure that no one was watching them before he took both of Baekhyun's hands in his.
"No, I did not," he immediately said and Baekhyun was somehow so sure that it was a lie but at the same time, Yifan didn't seem like he was lying "I liked her. She's pretty and really nice and" he stopped when Baekhyun withdraw his hands, to hold on to them again, this time harder "and she's just not what I wanted. I thought I wanted someone like her but... somehow all I've been thinking about is you. Even when I was with her."
"Wow," Baekhyun said, looking deeply into Yifan's eyes which were watching him "you're such a good liar, I had no idea!" And he really would have believed him if it wasn't for the fact that he knew better. There was no way that Yifan could have been thinking about him before taking the potion for the second time. The potion had made him forget. Baekhyun wasn't even his type. Why would he be thinking about him? This could not be anything but a lie.
"I'm not lying!" Yifan said strongly, seeming offended at the words "I told you, I've been having dreams about us. It started weeks ago. I've been thinking about you for a month, day and night."
"That's not even fucking possible, stop lying to me!" Baekhyun almost shouted, keeping his voice down because of the location.
"Yes it is. I am not lying. Why would you think that?"
Because the potion made you forget everything. It is just no possible. Of course he didn’t say that, how could he.
"If it's true, why did you date that girl then? If you've been thinking about me all the time?"
"Because she's pretty and I... I just realized a few weeks ago that I was gay, ok? That's also why I rejected you that time you asked me out. I was just so confused. I just wanted to see if I could do girls-"
"Did you? Did you fuck her?"
Yifan didn't want to answer that, Baekhyun could see that, and that was already enough of an answer.
"Yes," he quietly admitted after a while, though "but I was thinking about you all the time!"
That did it. Baekhyun stood up, not wanting to be near Yifan the moment those unjustified jealous feelings took over. He didn't know what he was going to do. Cry or get angry, he didn't know, he just wanted to get away. Storming out of the Great Hall and down into the dungeons, Yifan followed him and grasped him by the wrist before Baekhyun could disappear through the stone wall into his house.
"What is wrong with you?" Yifan shouted angrily and confused "We didn't date then. I didn't cheat on you!" he started, getting more quiet as he saw Baekhyun's hurt expression "I don't understand why this is such a huge deal for you. It's not like you've never slept with someone else befo-" he stopped talking then, as he realized it. Watching Baekhyun look at the ground both hurt and embarrassed. "That time in the prefect's bathroom... was your first time?" he asked almost too shocked, letting go of Baekhyun's wrist.
The Slytherin knew that the two of them were talking about two different times, but that didn't matter because yes, Yifan had been his first.
"It was," he just said quietly, more embarrassed than hurt at that moment and he didn't even know why.
What was wrong with him in general? Yifan was right, he hadn't cheated on him! He had no right to be angry or sad at this at all.
But he was. He was so much, his heart felt like it had broken in his chest and the sharp pieces were boring into his flesh from the inside.
"I'm sorry, I had no idea. I just assumed that you'd had sex before becau-"
"Because I seem like a slut?"
"No!" Yifan said quickly, holding on to Baekhyun again but this time entwining their fingers "Because you are so handsome and seemed very experienced. Man, that explains why you had to shove that shampoo bottle up your butt to prepare yourself. Of course, there'd be no way to take me in if it was your first time otherwise," Yifan said, blushing halfway through the sentence and then looking at Baekhyun still with that sorry look on his face combined with something that looked like sincere affection...
But Baekhyun just started at him. Stared and stared while his head was working hard, trying to comprehend what the fuck Yifan had just said.
Shampoo bottle... Yifan wasn't supposed to remember that. That had happened weeks ago. The potion had been supposed to delete those memories... then why was he...
And suddenly Yifan's eyes were growing so wide, his head so pink, Baekhyun had no idea what was going on but one thing was clear, something wasn't right here. Expecting to be hit in the face with Yifan realizing what Baekhyun had done to him - even though that wasn't even fricking possible - the Slytherin flinched a step back.
"Oh my god," the Hufflepuff started "You don't remember the shampoo thing, do you? Of course you don't. It was one of my dreams. I just... I keep confusing them, I'm so sorry, Baekhyun, urgh please don't think that I'm some kind of pervert who dreams about watching you shove a bottle up your arse," Yifan said seeming really embarrassed and trying to hide his face behind one hand so he couldn't see how incredibly shocked Baekhyun was.
"Those dreams you've been having..:" Baekhyun started, not knowing how to say it without it sounding weird "what are they like?"
"I told you before. We have sex in them. A lot of sex. Sometimes we just talk or kiss but most of the time sex. And they feel so real, you have no idea. Like they really happened."
And it didn't take long for the Slytherin to realize what was going on this time.
"Because they did," Baekhyun whispered but Yifan didn't hear him, asking him to repeat those words. "I need to go," Baekhyun said instead, though. "I really really need to go," he said one more time before he pulled his hand out of Yifan's again and disappeared right back to the Great Hall.
He needed to talk to Kyungsoo.
"Well," the Ravenclaw started, looking at the recipe of the love potion Baekhyun had wrote down from his memory on a napkin after he had stormed back into the midst of the Yule Ball, searching for Kyungsoo like a mad man and the boy had told him that he couldn't help him if he didn't have the recipe. "No wonder he is starting to remember... you made a mistake," Kyungsoo said pointing with his finger to the third line, leaning against a wall next to the dance floor "You should have shredded the mistletoe berries, not cropped them. Cropping them just makes the memories disappear for a certain amount of time, but they will come back in one way or another. Through visions, dreams, anything is possible, really. Only shredding them has the effect of making someone forget for eternity."
"So," Baekhyun said, his hand shivering, "he's going to remember? Everything?"
"Sooner or later, yes," Kyungsoo said, letting the hand that was holding on to the napkin with fall to his side and looking up at Baekhyun "Who are we talking about, though? Who did you give the potion to?"
"Does that really matter?" Baekhyun asked scared shitless and not knowing what to do. He had made the potion wrong twice! He had given Yifan this potion twice and sooner or later he was going to remember everything and he was going to be furious!
"I suppose it doesn't."
"It's Yifan," Joonmyeon said all of a sudden having appeared from out of nowhere and stopping next to Kyungsoo "He gave it to Yifan. Twice."
"Twice? Oh, " Kyungsoo said, looking at the sheet again with a little bit of worry in his eyes.
"Why Oh? What's wrong with twice?"
"Nothing, actually, but it might take a long time before he remembers all of it. A year. Maybe two."
"If you're lucky Yifan won't be at Hogwarts anymore when he finally remembers. That'd save you a lot of trouble, wouldn't it?" Joonmyeon said, a slightly angry look on his face and it was obvious that he was still mad at the Slytherin for doing that to his friend.
"Sorry Joonmyeon but I'm not in the mood to listen to your crap now," Baekhyun said harshly, wanting to leave for the dungeons again, lie down and give himself some time to think about everything, but Yifan was watching him from the entrance hall, waiting for him and making sure that Baekhyun wouldn't be able to leave without talking to him first. "Can't catch a fucking break," he whispered to himself before he saw something that made this day even worse than it had already been.
The Hufflepuff girl was approaching Yifan, suddenly standing in front of him, talking to him. At first it seemed like they were just having a normal conversation but then she was touching his arm, Yifan looking troubled, and all Baekhyun could think about was pulling out his wand and hex that pretty witch bald. And he was about to do that when...
"Don't you dare!" Joonmyeon said from behind him, holding on to his wand hand. "That's Yifan's girlfriend. Unlike you, he actually likes her."
"No he doesn't" Baekhyun snapped at the prefect, pulling his arm out of the boy's hold "He only fucked her because he was confused about his sexuality."
"No, he didn't. He's been talking about her for months. You are only confusing him with your potion. Yifan wants her. Not you, who's just treating him like a fuck toy," Joonmyeon said loudly, "When are you going to get that?"
But Baekhyun did get that. That was the problem. That's why he was feeling so sick all of a sudden, every millilitre of fluids and ever gram of food he had eaten that day threatening to come up his throat as he pressed his lips together in a tight squeeze so not to cry out loud.
Sehun had been so damn right. He was in love with Yifan and it was the worst thing that had ever happened to him. Nothing about this felt good. Nothing. Nothing!
"Just..." he said, not looking at Joonmyeon who had grown weirdly quiet next to him. Baekhyun could feel his eyes on his face and he felt tears running down his cheeks but it wasn't because of embarrassment that he fled the scene, it was because he just wanted to get away from everything and anyone. Wanting to be alone, because that's what he had always been. That's what he was used to and that's how everything had always worked out for him. Changing that by being so stupid and letting himself fall in love with someone who'd never really want him back, had been the biggest mistake in his life up until that point.
He was running past Yifan and the slut, the Hufflepuff trying to follow him but not being fast enough before Baekhyun slammed the stone wall shut into his face. He was running up the stairs into his dorm room and falling into his sheets with a stream of wet tears running down his face, ugly sobs leaving his mouth and all he really wished for at that moment was for something to make that feeling stop.
He'd never wanted to fall in love. Never.
But he had. And he could not make it go away.
The next morning, Baekhyun only forced himself out of the bed so he could walk over to Madam Pomfrey and ask her for something against a broken heart. He had really meant it when he said the words and the sorry smile the witch had given him had told him that not even magic would be able to take care of this shit of a mess Baekhyun had gotten himself into. Not even magic.
Baekhyun had lived his whole live believing that he was something special because he came from a pureblood family. Because he was pretty talented when it came to spells and similar stuff, because magic had just always been a part of him and he'd been good at it. He'd always been able to get his way, if not without it, he'd used magic and everything had turned out just fine. He'd hexed the people he didn't like, had gotten amazing sex out of magic, what else had he wanted? Definitely not this. After living 17 years like this, Baekhyun had found out that there was one thing magic could not do. Make that pain go away. It didn't work... not even the numbing spell he had cast on himself, pointing it at his head as well as his heart hadn't made him feel any less sad.
Not having gone to breakfast and lunch that day to make sure to avoid Yifan, only hiding in the common room of his house, his stomach was hurting a lot at the end of the day. He waited until dinner was almost over when he left his house for the first time that Sunday and get something to eat. Being confronted with Yifan and how fake his love really was, was too much, even knowing that it was his own fault or maybe especially because of that. They had only a whole day left together, but somehow Baekhyun didn't know if it was right to make use of that. He had surely failed to get closure, his feelings just having grown stronger with every second the two of them had spent together, and facing him or sleeping with him one more time... Baekhyun didn't know if he'd be able to do it without crying and he just really didn't want to have to explain himself to the Hufflepuff since sooner or later he'd know anyway and Baekhyun would have enough explaining to do then. He just hoped that by then he'd have managed to take care of his feelings....hoped.
Of course, the moment he entered the Great Hall, Yifan jumped from his seat at his own house table, one of the few students left in the Great Hall. For moment Baekhyun thought about running but Yifan was going to catch him. If not today, he'd somehow get to him tomorrow.
"Baek, please," Yifan said approaching him and immediately holding on to his arms in a tight but nevertheless careful grasp so he couldn't run, "You misunderstood. I know you saw me with her. We... we were just talking, I don't li-"
"That's not it. I'm not angry at you, Kris,"
The boy looked confused before he continued: "Then what is it? I don't understand... what happened... why are you suddenly trying to get away from me?" he sounded hurt and so so confused and his puffy eyes told Baekhyun that he hadn't been the only one crying and not getting enough sleep last night. "What did I do?"
"It's not your fault... I just..." no, he couldn't say it. He couldn't and he wouldn't. Not now. Not today when he'd have to face an angry - and even worse, disappointed - Yifan the next day.
"You just what?"
"Let's talk about it tomorrow."
"No, Baek! I can't wait until tomorrow, I'm going crazy thinking about it. Please jus-"
"Tomorrow, let's meet in the prefect's bathroom at 8pm, ok?"
Yifan didn't look like he was ok with it but when Baekhyun forced himself to smile at him Yifan nodded.
"So same time, same place?" he asked and Baekhyun almost laughed out loud because this was another thing from their first week Yifan wasn't supposed to remember, but he did and wasn't even aware of it.
"Same time same place," Baekhyun repeated before Yifan leaned forward to press a small but passionate kiss on Baekhyun's lips before leaving.
part I || part III