Do it like a Prefect! (3/3)
(krisbaek, nc17, 27.5k, Hogwarts!AU, romance/humor/drama)
Baekhyun falls in love with a Hufflepuff. It should be the end of the world, and guess what, it is.
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part III
Not having slept a wink again, Baekhyun was on his way to the prefect's bathroom, having tortured himself through all of his classes that day and having had a bite to eat even though he'd not been hungry at all. He was almost at his destination when Sehun came trotting towards him, a smile on his lips when he met him.
"Where you going?" he asked looking behind him.
"Meeting up with Yifan."
"Made up?" Sehun asked happily but Baekhyun shrugged.
"Gonna break up with him," he said confidently, having thought about what to do the whole night and having come to the conclusion that hiding this anymore from him had become pretty useless the moment he had realized that the potion would not work the way it was supposed to. Sooner or later Yifan was going to know and it was better if Baekhyun was gonna tell him himself. He'd never have a chance to get him back but maybe somehow the Hufflepuff would be able to forgive him that way... sooner or later. "or something like that," he added nervously all of a sudden and not at all surprised when he saw the confused look on his best friend's face.
"But you're in love with him. Why would you break up with him when you're in love?"
"Well, sometimes that's just not enough, I guess," Baekhyun just said and continued walking. Sehun didn't follow him because he knew Baekhyun. If he didn't want to talk about something, he wouldn't.
He arrived at the prefect's bathroom a little early, the door was already unlocked though, so Baekhyun entered, eyes quickly finding the Hufflepuff who was standing only a few feet away, waiting for him in his Quidditch attire, not having taken of his clothes yet, which he usually did if he arrived first. It was obvious that he wanted to talk.
And they were going to talk. Just not immediately.
"I want to try something new today," Baekhyun said, a grin on his face but it didn't reach his eyes, he was aware of that as well as Yifan.
"I'm all for it, Baek, but please, let's talk about what's go-"
"Afterwards. I promise you, Kris, afterwards we'll talk and I'll answer every question... just one last time, ok?" he said a smile on his face, not realizing his words until Yifan's expression grew pale and hurt.
"One last time?" he asked, and Baekhyun wanted to kick himself in the butt. Yifan looked so hurt, his lip almost quivering "Why... what... I don't understand. Everything was fine... and now... one last time?"
Baekhyun didn't know what to say. He would have liked to tell him right then, it would have been the perfect opportunity but... Baekhyun was selfish. He wanted Yifan to hold him one more time and he surely would not if Baekhyun were to tell him first.
"One last time," Baekhyun said strongly and for a moment Yifan looked like he was about to start crying but then he pressed his lips together, being quiet for a moment before he made a step forward, fingers loosening the buttons to his robes.
"As you wish," he said in a whisper, taking of his clothes slowly and Baekhyun did the same.
The mood was horrible and when they were naked they just stood there for a few long seconds, watching each other, non of them the tiniest bit aroused. The Hufflepuff still looked like he was at the very verge of tears but he somehow managed to keep them in.
Baekhyun entwined their fingers then, pulling Yifan over to the wall and pushing him down so he could sit in his lap. It took him a while to get the boy hard, but he did after he used his mouth on him, a careful tongue licking over the tip while sucking at the head. Yifan only used two fingers to open up Baekhyun before the boy rose up on his lap and took Yifan inside of him. Large hands on his hips, Baekhyun was moving slowly up and down, savouring every single jerk of the Hufflepuff's hips, the friction going right to his groin as he started whining a little, hands resting in Yifan's hair, sliding through it slowly and softly.
"Baekhyun," Yifan more whispered than moaned and the boy looked back at him, Yifan's eyes fixed on his as the Slytherin leaned forward and kissed him. Mouth on mouth, tongue sliding against tongue, Baekhyun felt like crying because the realization that this was their last time kissing was more than he could handle. He didn't want to cry, he hadn't planned to cry but he had nevertheless known that he'd cry sooner or later.
Yifan was starting to push harder into him, deepening their kiss and when Baekhyun opened his eyes for a second, he saw tears leaving the Hufflepuff's eyes as well and soon he had no idea any more who's tears were whose. The only thing that gave him a little bit of comfort was the thought about tomorrow. Yifan wouldn't cry any longer. He'd be alright. And happy... for the time being. But he'd surely not be hurting like this again. He'd be angry about this situation yes, but he'd not hurt the way the two of them were hurting right now and Baekhyun was glad about that. One good thing about the potion was that at least Yifan would not be hurt in the long run.
"Baek please" he continued after Baekhyun had pulled away a little, trying to breath as he felt his orgasm approaching and everything was coming to an end. Yifan sounded so horribly devastated, - the same realization hitting him hard - and it was literally torture to listen to him moaning, "please don't do this, Baekhyun. Please," over and over again. He was begging, a sob leaving his mouth and Baekhyun didn't even want to come anymore but his body made him anyway and shortly afterwards Yifan came as well, leaving his warm cum inside of Baekhyun for one last time, refusing to let Baekhyun stand up even when they were all done, panting in each other's arms.
"Please, Baek. Don't. Please," he cried almost sobbing while clinging onto the Slytherin and fingers scratching his skin painfully. "You can't do this, please. Please Baekhyun. What did I do? I will change, I promise!"
"It's not you who's the problem!" Baekhyun said, pressing small kisses to the older guy's neck and not even caring that he was being held uncomfortably tight and that Yifan's wet tears were running down his shoulder.
He had to tell him. So he would not be sad any longer.
"I gave you a potion, Yifan," he then said and the words gliding over this tongue made him feel like he was ramming a blade through his own heart "You are not really in love with me. I gave you a potion. Everything you feel... it's not real."
The nails dug into his skin were slowly lessening their hold and even though it had been uncomfortable and painful, Baekhyun wished to be held on to like that again. But Yifan was looking at him now, face a mess of tears, a confused expression on his face and his hands lay on Baekhyun's sides.
"What?"
"It's a love potion. It made you fall in love with me for seven days. Tomorrow those seven days are over and you'll not love me anymore. You'll also forget about the week we've spent together."
"No?" Yifan said at first confused, a question mark to his statement. Then, though, he said it again, strongly "No. What I'm feeling is real. It's been going on for longer than a week, that's not possib-"
"It's because I gave you the potion before. A little more than a month ago I gave it to you for the first time. By accident actually," Baekhyun said trying to smile but not managing to make it look quite right and Yifan's expression was so hard to watch because there was neither affection nor sadness in it now. "We were together before. Well, we weren't really a couple but we had a lot of sex. Here. As well as the room of requirements and many other places. I'm sure you know, you've dreamed about it after all."
"Those dreams," Yifan started shocked, hands finally leaving Baekhyun's side and Baekhyun felt so cold all of a sudden "they really happened?"
"They did."
"But... you were different in those dreams. Like a different person. Mean and..."
"Because I didn't like you back then. That changed, though," He didn't want to say that he loved him because somehow it would not have felt right. But Yifan knew. He surely knew. Even if he couldn't be sure of his own feelings, he should be sure of Baekhyun's feelings for him. After all he was telling him this now. Why would he have done it, if it wasn't for the love he was felling for the Hufflepuff? "After that week was over, you forgot all about me and... I was a mess. I didn't know what to do. I approached you once but you weren't interested at all and the potion seemed like the only way to make you love me... so I did it again. I'm so sorry, Yifan."
But the Hufflepuff didn't say anything then. He was looking at Baekhyun, though, like he was waiting for something. Like he was waiting for him to just grin and tell him that he was just joking. But he wasn't.
"I'm so sorry, Yifan," he repeated, "I decided to tell you now because tomorrow you'll have forgotten about all of it again but some day all the memories about our two weeks together will come back to you through dreams. It's actually not supposed to be like that but I made a mistake in the potion," he admitted while Yifan's hurt eyes were on him and the Slytherin felt so sick, he could barely continue talking "I don't even know if telling you now makes a lot of sense since you'll forget about it anyway and probably remember this conversation last, but... it seemed like something I had to do. I owne you the truth."
He was done talking then. He'd said everything and apparently Yifan didn't know what to say either so they continued staring at each other quietly, not as awkward as it had been before though. Baekhyun was waiting for Yifan to push him from his lap and when finally after minutes of silence, Yifan sat up straight, with Baekhyun still on his lap, he thought that the moment had come.
But he was wrong.
Pulled into a kiss, tears started running down his cheeks again, Yifan's hand were cupping his head and pressing him softly against him before pulling away. Baekhyun looked down, ashamed of what he had done and not able to look at the Hufflepuff knowing that he was fully aware.
"How could I?" Yifan suddenly asked, so much confusion and hurt in his voice, Baekhyun would never look up again "How could I not love you for real? With that handsome face," he started, hands still cupping Baekhyun's crying face "that sweet nose. Those kissable lips," he continued, sounding like he was crying too but Baekhyun didn't look up to watch it, keeping his eyes closed as he just wanted this to be over already. This was torture. "With those beautiful eyes and your soft cheeks," Baekhyun felt fingers running over the whole of his face "How could I not love it?"
"You just don't," Baekhyun forced himself to say "You didn't want me. And as of tomorrow you will not want me ever again."
"No, I will want you again. I'm sure. Sooner or later. I will. I love you, Baekhyun. So much, you have no idea."
"Yes, I do. I do have an idea, Yifan. Did you not listen to me? It's the potion! Everything is the potion. It's all fake!"
"This is the potion?" Yifan asked, pulling Baekhyun in for another kiss, a slow but passionate intimate kiss that made Baekhyun want to lean back and just let it happen all over him. "Does this seem fake to you?"
"It's not fake to me. Nothing about this has ever been fake to me. It's all real. I feel everything and I will feel everything," he snapped, "But you won't! This" Baekhyun kissed him hard on the lips for only a second "will mean nothing to you tomorrow. And even when you remember it won't because all you'll remember is how that bastard Slytherin made you have love with him under the influence of a potion and treated you like shit for the cause of sex."
"No, I won't," Yifan said but Baekhyun couldn't bear to listen to this any longer. He stood up, wanting to get his clothes but Yifan followed him, back-hugging him hard so Baekhyun couldn't escape.
"Why are you not mad at me?" Baekhyun cried in despair. Everything would have been so much easier if Yifan could just be mad at him.
"Because I don't believe you. There is now way that a potion could make me have such strong feelings. Feelings I've never thought were possible."
"It is, though. Love potions are that strong."
"No, this is more. I know it."
"Enough!" Baekhyun screamed this time, pushing Yifan away from him with all his might while turning around to face him, "I know that I have no right to be angry at you, but stop! Just stop! I'm the one who has to live with those memories for the next few months, not you. Don't make this so hard on me. I can only handle that much pain!" Baekhyun was panting hard, having screamed those words and Yifan was finally quiet again. Looking both troubled and sad, he was making a step forward just to stop again, all the while not saying anything.
"I don't know what to do, Baek," he said after a minute of silence, voice only a whisper as he kept on looking at Baekhyun who had finally turned around again to grasp his clothes and pull them over his body quickly "You won't believe me, I get that, but I know that I'm right about this."
"You know nothing, Yifan."
"I know more than you, obviously" he said and it would have been a snort if it hadn't sounded more like a sob "What can I do to make you believe me? I really do love you," and the desperate sound of his voice triggered such a bad pain in Baekhyun's heart that he decided to turn to the Hufflepuff one more time, having put on all of his clothes, ready to leave any second.
"If you still say that you love me after you've regained your memories, then I will believe you," he said strongly, knowing that it wasn't going to happen but somehow the words lit up a little bit of hope inside of his broken heart. Just a little bit.
He looked at Yifan one more time before he opened the door and left. What he saw in the tall boy's eyes were not sadness and tears though. They were determination and something that told Baekhyun that the Hufflepuff was sure that he'd be back.
If only he was right...
When he came back into the dungeons that day, both Sehun and Jongdae were seated in the common room of their house. Baekhyun had tears running down his cheeks. He wasn't sobbing, no, but the tears just wouldn't stop and his nose was blocked up, making him have a hard time breathing.
On one hand, he wanted to walk over to his friends and make them comfort him because that was their job, but on the other hand, he felt like an idiot. Embarrassed about them seeing him cry but not at all embarrassed about falling for a Hufflepuff, which Jongdae would have definitely mocked him for if Baekhyun hadn't been crying.
"Are you ok?" Jongdae asked, standing up and making a few steps towards him but stopping again. Obviously crap at comforting his friends, Baekhyun smiled anyway just because his friend had at least tried.
"Well..." Baekhyun started, still slightly smiling as he looked over to Sehun who was hugging him a second later, softly patting his back "no... not really."
"I don't understand why you broke up with him if you lo-"
"Don't, Sehun," Baekhyun just started., not at all wanting to talk about this now. No, probably not ever again. "Please."
Over Sehun's shoulders, Baekhyun's eyes locked with Jongdae, an unusual serious expression on the boy's face. A little surprised that Jongdae hadn't told Sehun about the potion, but very thankful, Baekhyun shot him a smile, a sincere one. Maybe he had only kept his mouth shut because Baekhyun had given him the - apparently wrong - recipe to the potion, but that didn't even matter. He had kept his promise of not telling, and Baekhyun was thankful for that.
"Ok, you don't need to talk about it," Sehun said, obviously not having noticed the exchange of looks between Baekhyun and Jongdae. He was still patting his back before Baekhyun pulled away a little, having found enough comfort in the arms of his best friend for the moment and drying his own tears with the sleeve of his robes.
"Please don't tell anyone about this, ok?" Baekhyun didn't necessarily mean the crying, but the situation between him and Yifan and the two of them seemed to understand, nodding in agreement.
"We won't. And until you don't come to us to talk about it, we won't bother you. If you a ready, though, you know you can count on me. Us," Sehun was smiling and Baekhyun nodded.
He went back to his own room then, glad that apparently non of his roommates had gone to bed yet.
Lying down on his bed and pulling the blanked up to his nose, he thought about Yifan as he fell asleep, hoping that he'd at least be blessed with happy dreams about him.
He wasn't, though.
Not for the whole of next year.
The first few weeks were the worst. Every morning Baekhyun would wake up with no motivation whatsoever. The classes that had once been fun had turned into a pain in the arse. Breakfast, lunch and dinner time in the Great Hall were torture because even if he sat with his back towards Yifan, he would find himself turning around just to look at him every few minutes. What made it worse was that sometimes Yifan would look back at him. At first with a question in his eyes but then he'd smile because he had no idea what Baekhyun had done to him.
It got even worse when Yifan got back together with that Hufflepuff girl. Baekhyun wanted to believe that what Yifan had told him at the Yule ball was the reason for that, but somehow he doubted it. Especially after Joonmyeon had told him that Yifan had liked that girl for months.
Yifan looked happy with her. He was smiling at her. The smile Baekhyun had found so hideous at first but had fallen in love with later.
Sometimes Baekhyun would cry himself to sleep, hidden behind countless of private charms cast on his bed. His roommates always thought that he was doing something perverted in there and they'd comment about his red eyes with 'staying up too late' or 'wanking too much' the next morning. Oh, Baekhyun wished that was the reason. But sadly, no, not even wanking did it for him anymore.
For a while, he even avoided Sehun because he was the only one who noticed his pain and sometimes he'd look at him with so much pity in his eyes, Baekhyun wanted to vomit. He wasn't to be pitied. He deserved every bit of this, he was sure of it. At least most of the time, because sometimes the pain got so bad, he felt like passing out on the spot or leaving Hogwarts just so he wouldn't have to see Yifan again.
But he couldn't just leave. He couldn't, because there was a very slight chance that Yifan would come back to him. He had looked so sure of it that day, Baekhyun couldn't help but believe him just a little. It was probably wrong of him to do so but it was the only thing that kept him going. Some days the pain was so bad, threatening to eat him up alive, that last look Yifan had showed him, was the only thing that kept Baekhyun from fucking everything and just leaving.
Pain was all Baekhyun felt for a few weeks and thinking back, he felt sorry for ever having laughed at anyone who had made a big deal out of a broken heart. He literally couldn’t imagine anything worse. It was sad and so typically Slytherin, but the only thing that could make him feel a little better were the times he hexed Zi Tao. The pain transforming into anger, blaming the boy for not having defended his cup better back then. Everything would have turned out differently. Baekhyun wouldn't be suffering like this, if Zi Tao had just been less of a whiny baby that day. That's what he kept on telling himself, but of course it really wasn't his fault. Baekhyun knew that. From time to time, he couldn't stop blaming Zi Tao nevertheless.
It was only after a few months that Baekhyun started to get better. Of course, sometimes he'd still end up crying like a little girl, having thought too much about Yifan, but he wasn't constantly unhappy anymore. Classes were starting to be fun again and sometimes he even managed not to look at Yifan for a whole meal. But then again, sometimes he'd face him on purpose, testing himself, seeing if he could watch him for a longer time without the horrible pain coming back. It almost never worked.
The first time it did work though Baekhyun was so proud of himself, he started to try it more often. At first, he'd only watch him in the Great Hall, but soon he'd started to watch him while Quidditch training, through the window in the library. Or he'd follow him around in his free time, studying his every movement. Only when Baekhyun had started to actually go the the Quidditch trainings, hiding somewhere behind a tree or take a seat somewhere in a corner where Yifan wouldn't be able to see him, did Baekhyun realize that he really wasn't getting better at all. So much time had passed and he was getting obsesses. A stalker. He had turned into a creepy stalker.
That realization didn't make him stop, though. What made him stop was the day Sehun came to find him and Baekhyun only realized then that a year had passed and he was still that much in love with Yifan. A year had passed, he hadn't talked a single word with the boy, hadn't gotten closer than a few meters, and he still wanted him so much that it hurt.
It was funny how the world sometimes worked. The potion had awoken feelings in Baekhyun that wouldn't go away, not even after over a year of suffering. That same potion, though, had one year later helped his best friend Sehun to get together with his year-long crush, which somehow very ironically had turned out to be Zi Tao. Baekhyun hadn't quite believed it at first, or more like he hadn't wanted to believe it. After all, he was supposed to hate Zi Tao but could hardly go on doing that if his best friend was in love with him. And then, like that hadn't been worse enough, Jongin had gotten Kyungsoo to fall in love with him for real as well, also with the help of the potion. It had just been Baekhyun for whom the potion hadn't quite worked out for. Just him who was still suffering the consequences even with months and years passing.
And Yifan was too. It had taken a while, but after months, Baekhyun noticed the change to the Hufflepuff as well.
The boy had broken up with his girlfriend shortly after the new year had started. The rare confused looks Baekhyun would catch Yifan looking at him with had gotten less rare and soon there was more than just confusion in his eyes. Nothing that told Baekhyun that he'd started to love him again, though. There were no signs of his feelings coming back and Baekhyun knew that the day the boy would remember everything was getting closer.
He could feel it his veins that Yifan was getting more aware of him from day to day. Every morning he'd stare at him for such a long time, sometimes Baekhyun would grow so uncomfortable, he'd leave without having eaten a single bite of his breakfast. It was only a question of time when Yifan would approach him again. And then he'd either tell him that he still loved him or - which was much more likely - scream at him for all the horrible things Baekhyun had made him do. And the Slytherin would not be able to run from it.
It was almost valentines day when Sehun was wrapping a present in the common room, with ugly wrapping paper that had little dancing hearts all over it. He was grinning from one ear to the other and watching as Baekhyun approached with a grim look on his face. He had always hated valentines day, now more than ever.
"Let me guess. A present for Zi Tao?" Baekhyun asked almost sounding too spiteful, but Sehun was in the best mood ever and nothing could seem to change that. The younger Slytherin nodded back, still grinning.
"It's couple bracelets. A muggle brand Zi Tao really likes. I put a charm on them, though. The bracelets will start burning when the other is thinking dirty thoughts about him," still grinning like the happiest man alive, Baekhyun couldn't help but smile a little as well.
"Sounds like something Zi Tao would like."
"He'll love it!"
They were silent then, Sehun still smiling hard while using a charm to let a ribbon appear in his hand and carefully tying it around the small box. Ready and set to go, Sehun stood up from where he'd been seated on the floor and sat down next to Baekhyun on the sofa, present in his hands.
"Are you getting Yifan anything?" he asked and Baekhyun almost chocked at the words.
They hadn't talked a single word about the Hufflepuff for almost a year now and Baekhyun had thought that Sehun had learned not to try it again. He'd had more than a year to finally understand that the time Baekhyun was ready to talk about this whole Yifan-thing was never going to come.
"Don't look at me like that," Sehun said, an almost disappointed look on his face "It's time something changes between the two of you. It's been over a year and you are still crying over him. And he keeps staring at you lately. It's so obvious that he wants to talk to you too."
"No, you don't understand," Baekhyun just said, tired and less angry about Sehun talking about it than he'd have thought he'd be. "There is nothing I can do. If he doesn't forgive me, there is no use trying anything."
"I'm sure there is. Last time I checked with him, Yifan wasn't angry at you or anything," Sehun started talking like it was the most normal thing on the planet and Baekhyun stopped breathing at those words, "He just said that he doesn't know what to say to you, that's why he won't make the first ste-"
"You," Baekhyun started, surprised that he was able to bring out words with feeling like his insides were about to explode "talked to Yifan" he looked at Sehun, swallowing hard "about me? Even though your promised that you'd never ev-"
"Come on, Baekhyun," Sehun just sighed, sounding tired "I was over at the Hufflepuff table, eating lunch with Zi Tao and Yifan was basically just sitting there staring at you. How could I not have said something?"
"You promised!"
"Yeah, well I broke that promise. Because you were being silly about it," he started, not letting Baekhyun interrupt him "besides, I'm your best friend and I wanted to help you with Yifan."
"And what exactly did you say to him that would help me?" Baekhyun asked, having turned very very angry, almost not able to control his voice.
"Well, I didn't ask him why and how you broke up, if that's what you're so afraid of," Sehun said, sounding sincere "I want to hear that from you. I just asked him why he won't man up and talk to you first when he obviously wants to."
"And he said?"
"I told you. He's not angry, he just doesn't know what to say. He seemed really confused somehow... like he had no idea what I was talking about but somehow he did... it was weird."
"I see." Sehun didn't seem to know what he was saying but of course to Baekhyun it made perfect sense.
Yifan was not angry because he still didn't remember everything. Yet.
"Didn't seem like he'd come and talk to you soon, though. Maybe you'll really have to make the first step," Sehun advised, looking serious and Baekhyun just glared at him.
"Don't you worry yourself about that," he said, voice harsh, before he just turned his back on his best friend and walked away, passing through the stone wall and out of the common room.
Baekhyun had no real destination when he walked up the stairs, having waited for them to stop moving for a few minutes. Deciding that he could take a walk around the castle and visit his owl, he was walking through the snow, shuddering because he wasn't wearing either a jacket nor a scarf or hat.
Having walked up all of the stairs to the owlery, Baekhyun opened the door to step aside, but shut it it again in shock, closing his eyes hard at the sight of Jongin and Kyungsoo leaned against a wall snogging and probably about to do more.
"Sorry," he cried through the door and heard a low growl from the Ravenclaw before he turned around, half a grin on his face and started walking down the stairs again.
While the snowy wind blew past his shivering skin, it was the thought about having had the chance to have something like this for himself but blewing it that suddenly made him feel that unbearable pain in his chest again. This image of Jongin and Kyungsoo could have basically been him and Yifan... but it wasn't and it was highly likely that it would never be again.
This time Baekhyun didn't let it get as far as tears forming in his eyes, though. He'd had enough of crying, having probably done his lifetime share of that in the past year. He finally wanted it to be over. Wanted to stop feeling that way. Wanted to get some closure but how to achieve that was a fricking mystery. Jongdae had once said something about trying to fall in love with someone else. Of course, Baekhyun hadn't taken him seriously because first, it had only been a few days after their break-up and Baekhyun had had no place in his head to think about other guys. And second, Jongdae had no fricking clue about love and relationships. But now, that idea didn't sound so bad any longer. Not at all bad.
Very serious about the matter, Baekhyun started to check out every single male classmates passing by him in the gardens and later in the castle, surprised to find that a few blokes were quite attractive on a second glance. He noted down their names - if he knew them - in his head to get back to later. Thinking about it more, though, he was pretty sure that non of them would be any good for the long run and that's basically what Baekhyun wanted. A relationship. Not someone to fuck him into oblivion, no, someone he could hug and hold hands with and someone who'd insist on cuddling after sex. Someone who'd smile at him in a way that would make him feel very special. Someone who was really tall with dark-short hair. Someone that liked to wear yellow. Someone that loved to play Quidditch and someone that had a weird nickname.
Someone like Yifan.
Closing his eyes hard, realizing that his thoughts had drifted into the wrong direction again, he turned around a corner. Baekhyun almost run into Zi Tao then, who'd just in time stopped Baekhyun with his hands on his shoulders. The Slytherin opened his eyes in shock at the sudden unexpected touch.
"Watch where you're going," the taller Hufflepuff said, nothing harsh in his voice, but Baekhyun was about to snap back an insult anyway. Before he saw Yifan that was, standing right next to his best friend and looking down at Baekhyun like he'd never seen anything more shocking in his life.
"I ehm.." Baekhyun started not knowing if he was even getting out proper sounds at the sight of Yifan that close "am sorry."
"No problem," Zitao said but Baekhyun barely heard it, too busy gazing up at fucking Wu Yifan who was looking as handsome as ever and who was - even more importantly! - looking back down at him.
Their gazes melded, only a waving hand of Zi Tao's between their faces could make them break the connection between their eyes, looking at the grinning Hufflepuff who was still standing besides them. "Well, I'm going to meet up with Sehun now, just so you guys won't be too shocked when you finally decide to snap out of it again and see me gone. Bye then," he said, so much amusement in his voice that Baekhyun thought about kicking him in the ass for a moment because Zi Tao had always had it just that fucking easy and the Slytherin could only hate him a little more for that.
The boy way already gone, though, when Baekhyun decided to look back at Yifan for a second and see him swallow hard while his eyes moved around Baekhyun's face uncertain.
He knew that kind of gaze. Yifan was nervous and confused. He wanted to do or say something but he couldn't because sometimes he would just be that much of a wimp. And it was funny thinking about all the times the Hufflepuff had just bend Baekhyun over something, without asking, and fucked him without any consideration. Now he couldn't even bring out the words that were obviously burning on his tongue.
"I guess I will also get going then," Yifan said after a while and Baekhyun hoped that the disappointment didn't show in his eyes. Nodding, he looked intensely at the Hufflepuff one more time before the two of them started walking again, an unsatisfied feeling in the Slytherin's chest.
"Bye Baek," he suddenly heard Yifan whisper over his shoulder and for a moment it felt like the world had stopped spinning.
No idea if Yifan had intended for Baekhyun to hear that, he stopped in his steps, eyes and mouth opened wide at the way his nickname had slide so easily through Yifan's lips.
He didn't even want to say it because there was nothing Baekhyun was more afraid of than the consequences this could have, but then the words were already out out of his mouth, before he could stop himself. "Bye Kris," Baekhyun heard himself whisper right back. But he had been too quiet and Yifan had been too far gone to hear him, so all the Slytherin could do was watch Yifan walk always, no idea how he was going to make it through the day without losing his mind thinking about what had just happened.
All thoughts of finding someone else to forget about Yifan were forgotten again. All he could think about was how long it would take for him to finally remember everything and if he'd keep his promise and come back to him then.
Baekhyun had survived valentines day, unbelievable but true. Dinner was over and he had almost made it all the way to his house when he saw Zi Tao and Sehun making out right in front of the Slytherin dorm. Sighing, Baekhyun had turned around right then, not wanting to walk past that because even if he was happy for his best friend having found someone, he hated having to watch them do stuff. Especially on valentines day. A day designed for couples to rub their happiness into everyone else's faces.
He didn't even know where he was going when he tried to make it out of the dungeon by turning around every time he saw a couple being disgusting together. Somehow he made it to the library, sitting down at one of the tables facing the windows that gave him the perfect view over the Quidditch field.
How often had Baekhyun sat here, watching Yifan in the middle of training with his team. How often had he whipped his tears away at the thought of never being able to touch or talk to him. And just a few days ago he had been so close to him again, the memories of it burning inside of his chest.
Smiling, he pulled out his phone, regretting it the minute he opened instagram to see a picture of Zi Tao and Sehun sharing a piece of cake - or more like, passing a piece of cake between their mouths. Baekhyun wanted to vomit.
"Hey," a voice from behind him said, all of a sudden, and Baekhyun didn't need to turn around to know who it was. Frozen in his seat, he watched as Yifan sat down at the chair next to him, looking at Baekhyun troubled and then at his huge hands he had put in front of him on the table.
"Hey," Baekhyun said back quietly. "Happy Valentines day." He had no idea why he was saying that but he was too nervous to think about it.
What was this... Yifan usually did not just talk to him... why?
Yifan snorted in response, smiling a little "Well, thanks."
They were quiet then - again - the uncomfortable silence making Baekhyun's skin itch, wanting to say something. Anything at all. But he didn't because he felt like this was not his place to talk and his assumption was confirmed soon.
"Listen, Baekhyun," Yifan said and Baekhyun did, looking at the Hufflepuff who's eyes were again fixed on his hands "I know I kind of promised that I'd come back to you as soon as I remembered everything... but I had some thinking to do first." Yifan murmured uncertain, gaze on the Slytherin now, who's expression was slowly changing, "I'm sorry it took so long."
This was the day, Baekhyun realized as he looked at Yifan.
Almost unable to breathe and sit there unmoving, Baekhyun put his hands on his thighs, boring a nail into his skin just to see if this was really happening. If he wasn't just dreaming. But no, he'd never dreamed about Yifan, not once, not even when he had fallen asleep thinking or crying about him and begged the gods for nothing more but a glimpse of a Yifan directing one of those wonderful smiles at him.
This was really happening.
"... how long since the memories came back to you?" Baekhyun asked, his hands shivering under the table.
"A few months, I guess."
"Months?" Baekhyun asked, voice louder than intended.
"I'm sorry," he explained, a sincere look on his face "I needed to think... about this," one of his hands pointed at both of their bodies.
The Slytherin couldn't quiet believe it. He'd suffered so much over the past year, the uncertainty almost eating him up alive. But there Yifan was, having taken his sweet little time to think about stuff.
About to get angry at that thought, Baekhyun squeezed his hand into small fists, ready to jump up and shout out in frustration. But then he realized something...
This was it!
This was the end.
Or maybe it wasn't... but one thing was clear...
This was final!
"Wait!" the younger guy quickly said, shutting his eyes close, "I don't know if I'm ready for a rejection yet." Saying it out loud made his heart erupt into that horrible horrible pain again "Just a minute. Please don't say anything yet."
He was about to get himself ready. To really really finally let go of every bit of hope his love-scared heart had been holding on to for the past year when Yifan just continued anyway.
"Who said I'd reject you?" the Hufflepuff whispered, and for a very tiny moment Baekhyun's heart was filled with joy instead of pain and worry. The Slytherin could hear himself let out a little whimper. Normally, he would have been embarrassed at that sound, but this time he was busy trying not to explode from all of the different kinds of emotions and thoughts that were running through his mind and body.
"What do you mean?" Baekhyun asked, looking up at Yifan again, but it only took him the split of a second to realize that he didn't need to wait for Yifan to mouth his answer. Just looking at the Hufflepuff's face was enough to encourage him to do what he'd been thinking about doing for so long.
Yifan's eyes were glimmering with love and hope when Baekhyun bit back tears of joy and leaned forward quickly, pressing their mouths together in a hard but nevertheless soft touch.
Wanting to cry, to laugh and to scream at the same time, Baekhyun felt hands coming along his back, fingers tracing it and then boring themselves into his shoulder so hard, there was a feeling of uncomfortable pain rushing to his head, immediately replaced by a dangerously warm sensation of fire running through his veins instead.
Yifan's lips against his felt so much better than anything he remembered. Feeling like this was their first real kiss, Baekhyun could barely hold himself back to stuck his tongue down Yifan's throat and claim his mouth his, and the taller guy quickly opened his mouth a little.
The unbelievable heat that was running through his body, right into every limb, made Baekhyun pull away first. He knew that he wouldn't be able to stop and they were hardly in a place for anything more than a kiss to happen. He could already feel a few couple of eyes on them, but there'd probably never been anything Baekhyun had cared less about.
Yifan looked both completely drained and filled with so much emotions, when he put his forehead against Baekhyun's, only the length of a fingertip between their lips.
"This is what I meant," the Hufflepuff said before Baekhyun let out a sob and Yifan smiled at him.
The smile Baekhyun had missed so much.
They didn't even have to try twice before the door to the room of requirements appeared right in front of them and Yifan pulled Baekhyun inside, fingers entwined, lips locked, as they made their way to the huge bed that was seated right in the middle of the room.
Being pushed back down into the sheets and having Yifan cover him with his body, their erections rubbing against each other through their so incredibly annoying clothes, made Baekhyun pull his legs around the man's waist and press him down closer because every tiny bit of air between their bodies felt like too much for today.
Yifan didn't even need his wand when he cried "Nudus!" and their clothes disappeared without a trace and both him and Baekhyun moaned at the feeling of having their crotches pressed directly against each other, Baekhyun almost whimpering when he felt Yifan separate their lips again to press small kisses to his jaw and neck and then going down to kiss his chest and nipples, lightly sucking on one of them.
He remembered the feeling of Yifan touching and kissing him everywhere, he remembered it so well because that's all he'd been thinking about for the past year. Then how come this was so much different from anything they'd ever done, anything Baekhyun had ever felt? Yifan's hot mouth was on him, taking his head inside while licking over the tip with his tongue and pushing his fingers inside of the Slytherin's tight hole. Nothing had ever felt this intense when Yifan started to kiss a line down between his legs, over his balls and perineum right to his arse so he could lick and suck at the place his fingers had been buried inside just a few seconds ago, pushing Baekhyun's thighs up with his huge hands pressed against the underside of them.
"Yifan," Baekhyun cried, voice only a hoarse scratchy sound when he came a second later, his dick untouched and spurting white all over his chest and stomach, with Yifan's tongue pressing inside of him in a quick, stabbing motion.
Yifan wouldn't let him rest, though, pushing his fingers right back in when he came up to kiss Baekhyun again and all the Slytherin could do was open his mouth for him, moaning at the feeling of fingers and a tongue carefully sliding over his insides.
"Have you," Yifan started, only pulling away for a moment to mouth the question "done this with anyone else since then?"
"No," Baekhyun immediately answered and Yifan looked relieved but somehow almost not so.
"Then I guess I'll need to take more time to prepare you," he said, already entering the third finger, making Baekhyun moan in the back of his throat and bend his back almost painfully when Yifan's fingertip touched against his prostate.
"Just do it," Baekhyun whined, very serious when Yifan looked at him in question "You know I like it when it hurts a bit."
"It won't just be a bit, though."
"I'll be fine," Baekhyun reassured him, a small grin on his face when he looked down between their bodies to see Yifan's rock-hard erection pointing at him. "Is it just because I haven't seen it for a while, or have you gotten even bigger?"
"I don't know," Yifan said, a little blush as well as an amused smile on his face before he pulled his fingers out, adding "Sure you'll be alright?"
"Go slow. I'll be fine," Baekhyun said, pulling Yifan down at his shoulders to sling his arms around his neck and share an intense kiss.
He didn't really expect it when he suddenly felt hands going down to press his legs forward so his knees were almost placed next to his head. Bending them around his shoulders, Yifan positioned himself before their lips touched again and he slowly started pushing inside. The sounds coming out of Baekhyun's lips were both from pleasure as well as the painful feeling of being filled up that much after such a long time. Yifan's soothing kisses and his hand's holding on to Baekhyun's legs, softly moving his fingers over their skin, made up for the pain, though. Slowly pushing forward, until he had buried half of his cock inside of him, Yifan let out an exhausted breathe, obviously trying very hard not to move and not to come yet.
"Fine?" Yifan asked and Baekhyun was almost surprised to hear him say that but then he nodded and only a second later, when the taller guy had started moving, did he start to moan, saying Yifan's name in between. The Hufflepuff obviously liked the sound of that because of the way he was looking at Baekhyun, not even kissing him just so he could continue to hear Baekhyun call him by his name. His eyes were filled with lust, and when he sped up, Baekhyun screamed at the sudden harder pushes.
"Yifan... Yifan," Baekhyun cried desperately and it took a while for the older guy to realize that Baekhyun was actually calling him so he'd lean down and kiss him. When he did, Baekhyun made sure not to let him go, pressing their lips hard together, so they'd bruise. "I'm coming, Yifan," the Slytherin half whispered half moaned when Yifan angled his hips differently, hitting that spot right almost every time.
"Me too."
"Kiss me, Yifan," Baekhyun said once more and the moment their lips touched, smothering both of their moans, they came at the same time, lips not unlocking as Yifan rid out his orgasm with Baekhyun's tight walls clenching around his penis, milking him just right. Baekhyun lost all of the strength over his body, arms falling to his sides as Yifan continued clinging to him strongly.
They stayed like that for a second longer, with Yifan slightly rocking against him, and even when he pulled out, he didn't let go, didn't move, covering Baekhyun's lax body with his, neither caring about the disgusting sticky feeling between their bodies, as they held on to each other, the strength coming back to Baekhyun.
He cupped Yifan's face in his hands, looking at him for a long time, smiling before the Hufflepuff finally pushed himself up a little so they could properly look at each other.
After having shared another long and tired kiss, Yifan rolled off of Baekhyun's body, lying beside him and immediately taking the smaller man into his arms. He rolled himself against Yifan's broad chest, waiting for the Hufflepuff's long limbs to hug him close. Head resting against Yifan's neck, both of his arms tightly slung around his body while his fingers were moving patterns over the skin on his back, Baekhyun hadn't even realised yet what all of this meant. On one hand, he had, of course how couldn't he after finally having had sex with Yifan again, but on the other hand, there was still a little something inside of him that told him that this could not be real. Yifan could not really be holding him like that. Loving him.
"I love you, Yifan," Baekhyun said and only the moment the words had rolled over his tongue did he realize that he'd never said it before. Not once. Not to anyone. Not out loud.
To his surprise, he heard Yifan snort. Looking up at him in almost shock at his weird reaction, he was met with a soft smile, though, his eyes glimmering almost wet.
"Remember the last day of our first week?" Yifan asked and Baekhyun nodded "When I told you to take your time to tell me that you love me, I didn't actually mean for it to take years, you know."
That did it. That was the moment Baekhyun finally wasn't able to hold back his tears anymore. He didn't sob, he didn't cry out loud, but he felt tears leaving his eyes as so much relief and guilty feelings washed over him.
Yifan was pressing him harder against his body now, kissing his forehead.
"I'm so sorry," Baekhyun whispered, wet drops on Yifan's chest "Thank you so much for forgiving me. Thank you so much taking me back."
"How could I not, when I love you this much?"
Baekhyun didn't know what to say to that so he just kissed him again. Kissing seemed like the perfect thing to do when you didn't know what to say, anyway. Kissing him so hard, trying to make up for the lost time.
"I love valentines day," Yifan whispered against his lips after a while, with Baekhyun having rolled on top of him and the two starting to rub off against each other again.
"Oh god," Baekhyun said, a laugh escaping his lips before he realized that "I do too."
Andrew Green made a surprised as well as a slightly confused face at the sight of yet another new gay couple approaching the Hufflepuffs table.
"What is it?" Joana asked him, seated right in front of him while taking a bite of her toast after having noticed his weird expression "Seen a ghost?" she joked, failing badly.
"No," Andrew said, eyes still fixed on Yifan, their Quidditch team's leader as he affectionately slid a hand through his apparently now-boyfriend's hair. "Just surprised."
"About?" his best friend Timothy added, mouth stuffed with different kinds of foods.
"I don't know... don't you guys think it's kind of weird that we have so many gay Asian guys at this school?" he nodded towards the new pair "First that Slytherin dating Zitao, then that weird Ravenclaw hooking up with Gryffindor's seeker and now Yifan and another Slytherin twit? Like what the hell is going on."
"I don't know man," Timothy said, shrugging his shoulders "maybe Asians are just generally gay."
"Yea, because that makes a lot of sense" Joana said snorting, fixing her eyes on the group of Asian guys sitting together at the other end of their table "and they're all really good looking, too."
"Who's good looking?" they suddenly heard Joonmyeon ask over their shoulders as the head boy had stopped next to their table, looking at them in interest.
"Your Asian lot. All really handsome... and gay," Joanna said, grinning when she saw Joonmyeon's confused expression turn into a slight troubled blush. "Don't tell me you like guys too."
"I... do not," Joonmyeon said, obviously a miserable liar.
"You so do," Timothy almost shouted grinning before adding "You also have a boyfriend? Let me guess, it's that weird tall Slytherin with the huge ears."
"What?" Joonmyeon responded loudly as well, "No way."
"Then the one who always looks really tired? That Gryffindor guy?"
"No, I told you, I'm not ga-"
"Don't try to deny it," Joana laughed but before she could make another false guess, a Slytherin had appeared next to Joonmyeon, letting his arm fall over the guys shoulder and making a pouty face.
"I'm hurt guys, you didn't even consider me?" Jongdae asked, pretending to pet his broken heart over his robes before he turned to Joonmyeon grinning and Andrew almost laughed out loud when he saw how tense the head boy suddenly was, trying not to look at the Slytherin and burying his hands in his pockets.
Timothy and Joana both shot Andrew an Oh-My-God look before they all turned back to watch Jongdae leaning over Joonmyeon shoulder and whispering something in his ear that made the guy blush so bad, his head was turning into a tomato.
"I didn't know you guys were a couple," Andrew said and Joonmyeon immediately shook his head, pulling his body out of Jongdae's grasp over his shoulder.
"We're not! Really!" he said and for a tiny moment Andrew believed the head boy but then Jongdae leaned over again, to whispers something else into his ear and all of sudden Joonmyeon was storming out of the Great Hall, rubbing his ear at the touch of his lips.
The three friends watched as Joonmyeon disappeared and then looked back at Jongdae who was still standing beside their seated figures, looking down at them before saying "Not yet!" with a grin on his face and leaving for his own table.
It took a while until one of them decided to say something again, all of them having amused expressions on their faces.
"This school is so gay, I'm telling you," Joana mouthed before she bit into her toast again, a satisfied smile on her face.
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the end...
this was total shit, wasn't it? idk how it got that long and sorry for this shit ending but somehow i had the feeling i needed to explain about all of those gay asians in hogwarts XD anyway, this is the longest thing i've ever written and most importantly the first krisbaek ff i managed to finish. krisbaek has been my otp for like idk 1000 years but i never quite managed to upload one of my countless desperate tries...
i hope you guys like this ff even tho it's total trash and i apologize for cockslut baek. that boy is just that much of a pervert in my head, i'll never be able to write him as a normal person, sorry. if you want to know more about how taohun and kaisoo became a couple read the other ffs to my potion!series here:
TAOHUN
KAISOO
(and no, i am not going to write a suchen story. i've got enough of the potion plot. but expect more hogwarts!exo stories from me since i joined the exolliarmus fic exchange :D)
huge thanks to my wonderful beta john who managed to edit this in only like 3 days or smth (i think he's a wizard but psssst!)
i'd appreciate any kind of feedback so pls make sure to leave me some. i enabled the anon option so even if you don't have an account here on lj, you should be able to comment :)
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Baekhyun falls in love with a Hufflepuff. It should be the end of the world, and guess what, it is.
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part III
Not having slept a wink again, Baekhyun was on his way to the prefect's bathroom, having tortured himself through all of his classes that day and having had a bite to eat even though he'd not been hungry at all. He was almost at his destination when Sehun came trotting towards him, a smile on his lips when he met him.
"Where you going?" he asked looking behind him.
"Meeting up with Yifan."
"Made up?" Sehun asked happily but Baekhyun shrugged.
"Gonna break up with him," he said confidently, having thought about what to do the whole night and having come to the conclusion that hiding this anymore from him had become pretty useless the moment he had realized that the potion would not work the way it was supposed to. Sooner or later Yifan was going to know and it was better if Baekhyun was gonna tell him himself. He'd never have a chance to get him back but maybe somehow the Hufflepuff would be able to forgive him that way... sooner or later. "or something like that," he added nervously all of a sudden and not at all surprised when he saw the confused look on his best friend's face.
"But you're in love with him. Why would you break up with him when you're in love?"
"Well, sometimes that's just not enough, I guess," Baekhyun just said and continued walking. Sehun didn't follow him because he knew Baekhyun. If he didn't want to talk about something, he wouldn't.
He arrived at the prefect's bathroom a little early, the door was already unlocked though, so Baekhyun entered, eyes quickly finding the Hufflepuff who was standing only a few feet away, waiting for him in his Quidditch attire, not having taken of his clothes yet, which he usually did if he arrived first. It was obvious that he wanted to talk.
And they were going to talk. Just not immediately.
"I want to try something new today," Baekhyun said, a grin on his face but it didn't reach his eyes, he was aware of that as well as Yifan.
"I'm all for it, Baek, but please, let's talk about what's go-"
"Afterwards. I promise you, Kris, afterwards we'll talk and I'll answer every question... just one last time, ok?" he said a smile on his face, not realizing his words until Yifan's expression grew pale and hurt.
"One last time?" he asked, and Baekhyun wanted to kick himself in the butt. Yifan looked so hurt, his lip almost quivering "Why... what... I don't understand. Everything was fine... and now... one last time?"
Baekhyun didn't know what to say. He would have liked to tell him right then, it would have been the perfect opportunity but... Baekhyun was selfish. He wanted Yifan to hold him one more time and he surely would not if Baekhyun were to tell him first.
"One last time," Baekhyun said strongly and for a moment Yifan looked like he was about to start crying but then he pressed his lips together, being quiet for a moment before he made a step forward, fingers loosening the buttons to his robes.
"As you wish," he said in a whisper, taking of his clothes slowly and Baekhyun did the same.
The mood was horrible and when they were naked they just stood there for a few long seconds, watching each other, non of them the tiniest bit aroused. The Hufflepuff still looked like he was at the very verge of tears but he somehow managed to keep them in.
Baekhyun entwined their fingers then, pulling Yifan over to the wall and pushing him down so he could sit in his lap. It took him a while to get the boy hard, but he did after he used his mouth on him, a careful tongue licking over the tip while sucking at the head. Yifan only used two fingers to open up Baekhyun before the boy rose up on his lap and took Yifan inside of him. Large hands on his hips, Baekhyun was moving slowly up and down, savouring every single jerk of the Hufflepuff's hips, the friction going right to his groin as he started whining a little, hands resting in Yifan's hair, sliding through it slowly and softly.
"Baekhyun," Yifan more whispered than moaned and the boy looked back at him, Yifan's eyes fixed on his as the Slytherin leaned forward and kissed him. Mouth on mouth, tongue sliding against tongue, Baekhyun felt like crying because the realization that this was their last time kissing was more than he could handle. He didn't want to cry, he hadn't planned to cry but he had nevertheless known that he'd cry sooner or later.
Yifan was starting to push harder into him, deepening their kiss and when Baekhyun opened his eyes for a second, he saw tears leaving the Hufflepuff's eyes as well and soon he had no idea any more who's tears were whose. The only thing that gave him a little bit of comfort was the thought about tomorrow. Yifan wouldn't cry any longer. He'd be alright. And happy... for the time being. But he'd surely not be hurting like this again. He'd be angry about this situation yes, but he'd not hurt the way the two of them were hurting right now and Baekhyun was glad about that. One good thing about the potion was that at least Yifan would not be hurt in the long run.
"Baek please" he continued after Baekhyun had pulled away a little, trying to breath as he felt his orgasm approaching and everything was coming to an end. Yifan sounded so horribly devastated, - the same realization hitting him hard - and it was literally torture to listen to him moaning, "please don't do this, Baekhyun. Please," over and over again. He was begging, a sob leaving his mouth and Baekhyun didn't even want to come anymore but his body made him anyway and shortly afterwards Yifan came as well, leaving his warm cum inside of Baekhyun for one last time, refusing to let Baekhyun stand up even when they were all done, panting in each other's arms.
"Please, Baek. Don't. Please," he cried almost sobbing while clinging onto the Slytherin and fingers scratching his skin painfully. "You can't do this, please. Please Baekhyun. What did I do? I will change, I promise!"
"It's not you who's the problem!" Baekhyun said, pressing small kisses to the older guy's neck and not even caring that he was being held uncomfortably tight and that Yifan's wet tears were running down his shoulder.
He had to tell him. So he would not be sad any longer.
"I gave you a potion, Yifan," he then said and the words gliding over this tongue made him feel like he was ramming a blade through his own heart "You are not really in love with me. I gave you a potion. Everything you feel... it's not real."
The nails dug into his skin were slowly lessening their hold and even though it had been uncomfortable and painful, Baekhyun wished to be held on to like that again. But Yifan was looking at him now, face a mess of tears, a confused expression on his face and his hands lay on Baekhyun's sides.
"What?"
"It's a love potion. It made you fall in love with me for seven days. Tomorrow those seven days are over and you'll not love me anymore. You'll also forget about the week we've spent together."
"No?" Yifan said at first confused, a question mark to his statement. Then, though, he said it again, strongly "No. What I'm feeling is real. It's been going on for longer than a week, that's not possib-"
"It's because I gave you the potion before. A little more than a month ago I gave it to you for the first time. By accident actually," Baekhyun said trying to smile but not managing to make it look quite right and Yifan's expression was so hard to watch because there was neither affection nor sadness in it now. "We were together before. Well, we weren't really a couple but we had a lot of sex. Here. As well as the room of requirements and many other places. I'm sure you know, you've dreamed about it after all."
"Those dreams," Yifan started shocked, hands finally leaving Baekhyun's side and Baekhyun felt so cold all of a sudden "they really happened?"
"They did."
"But... you were different in those dreams. Like a different person. Mean and..."
"Because I didn't like you back then. That changed, though," He didn't want to say that he loved him because somehow it would not have felt right. But Yifan knew. He surely knew. Even if he couldn't be sure of his own feelings, he should be sure of Baekhyun's feelings for him. After all he was telling him this now. Why would he have done it, if it wasn't for the love he was felling for the Hufflepuff? "After that week was over, you forgot all about me and... I was a mess. I didn't know what to do. I approached you once but you weren't interested at all and the potion seemed like the only way to make you love me... so I did it again. I'm so sorry, Yifan."
But the Hufflepuff didn't say anything then. He was looking at Baekhyun, though, like he was waiting for something. Like he was waiting for him to just grin and tell him that he was just joking. But he wasn't.
"I'm so sorry, Yifan," he repeated, "I decided to tell you now because tomorrow you'll have forgotten about all of it again but some day all the memories about our two weeks together will come back to you through dreams. It's actually not supposed to be like that but I made a mistake in the potion," he admitted while Yifan's hurt eyes were on him and the Slytherin felt so sick, he could barely continue talking "I don't even know if telling you now makes a lot of sense since you'll forget about it anyway and probably remember this conversation last, but... it seemed like something I had to do. I owne you the truth."
He was done talking then. He'd said everything and apparently Yifan didn't know what to say either so they continued staring at each other quietly, not as awkward as it had been before though. Baekhyun was waiting for Yifan to push him from his lap and when finally after minutes of silence, Yifan sat up straight, with Baekhyun still on his lap, he thought that the moment had come.
But he was wrong.
Pulled into a kiss, tears started running down his cheeks again, Yifan's hand were cupping his head and pressing him softly against him before pulling away. Baekhyun looked down, ashamed of what he had done and not able to look at the Hufflepuff knowing that he was fully aware.
"How could I?" Yifan suddenly asked, so much confusion and hurt in his voice, Baekhyun would never look up again "How could I not love you for real? With that handsome face," he started, hands still cupping Baekhyun's crying face "that sweet nose. Those kissable lips," he continued, sounding like he was crying too but Baekhyun didn't look up to watch it, keeping his eyes closed as he just wanted this to be over already. This was torture. "With those beautiful eyes and your soft cheeks," Baekhyun felt fingers running over the whole of his face "How could I not love it?"
"You just don't," Baekhyun forced himself to say "You didn't want me. And as of tomorrow you will not want me ever again."
"No, I will want you again. I'm sure. Sooner or later. I will. I love you, Baekhyun. So much, you have no idea."
"Yes, I do. I do have an idea, Yifan. Did you not listen to me? It's the potion! Everything is the potion. It's all fake!"
"This is the potion?" Yifan asked, pulling Baekhyun in for another kiss, a slow but passionate intimate kiss that made Baekhyun want to lean back and just let it happen all over him. "Does this seem fake to you?"
"It's not fake to me. Nothing about this has ever been fake to me. It's all real. I feel everything and I will feel everything," he snapped, "But you won't! This" Baekhyun kissed him hard on the lips for only a second "will mean nothing to you tomorrow. And even when you remember it won't because all you'll remember is how that bastard Slytherin made you have love with him under the influence of a potion and treated you like shit for the cause of sex."
"No, I won't," Yifan said but Baekhyun couldn't bear to listen to this any longer. He stood up, wanting to get his clothes but Yifan followed him, back-hugging him hard so Baekhyun couldn't escape.
"Why are you not mad at me?" Baekhyun cried in despair. Everything would have been so much easier if Yifan could just be mad at him.
"Because I don't believe you. There is now way that a potion could make me have such strong feelings. Feelings I've never thought were possible."
"It is, though. Love potions are that strong."
"No, this is more. I know it."
"Enough!" Baekhyun screamed this time, pushing Yifan away from him with all his might while turning around to face him, "I know that I have no right to be angry at you, but stop! Just stop! I'm the one who has to live with those memories for the next few months, not you. Don't make this so hard on me. I can only handle that much pain!" Baekhyun was panting hard, having screamed those words and Yifan was finally quiet again. Looking both troubled and sad, he was making a step forward just to stop again, all the while not saying anything.
"I don't know what to do, Baek," he said after a minute of silence, voice only a whisper as he kept on looking at Baekhyun who had finally turned around again to grasp his clothes and pull them over his body quickly "You won't believe me, I get that, but I know that I'm right about this."
"You know nothing, Yifan."
"I know more than you, obviously" he said and it would have been a snort if it hadn't sounded more like a sob "What can I do to make you believe me? I really do love you," and the desperate sound of his voice triggered such a bad pain in Baekhyun's heart that he decided to turn to the Hufflepuff one more time, having put on all of his clothes, ready to leave any second.
"If you still say that you love me after you've regained your memories, then I will believe you," he said strongly, knowing that it wasn't going to happen but somehow the words lit up a little bit of hope inside of his broken heart. Just a little bit.
He looked at Yifan one more time before he opened the door and left. What he saw in the tall boy's eyes were not sadness and tears though. They were determination and something that told Baekhyun that the Hufflepuff was sure that he'd be back.
If only he was right...
When he came back into the dungeons that day, both Sehun and Jongdae were seated in the common room of their house. Baekhyun had tears running down his cheeks. He wasn't sobbing, no, but the tears just wouldn't stop and his nose was blocked up, making him have a hard time breathing.
On one hand, he wanted to walk over to his friends and make them comfort him because that was their job, but on the other hand, he felt like an idiot. Embarrassed about them seeing him cry but not at all embarrassed about falling for a Hufflepuff, which Jongdae would have definitely mocked him for if Baekhyun hadn't been crying.
"Are you ok?" Jongdae asked, standing up and making a few steps towards him but stopping again. Obviously crap at comforting his friends, Baekhyun smiled anyway just because his friend had at least tried.
"Well..." Baekhyun started, still slightly smiling as he looked over to Sehun who was hugging him a second later, softly patting his back "no... not really."
"I don't understand why you broke up with him if you lo-"
"Don't, Sehun," Baekhyun just started., not at all wanting to talk about this now. No, probably not ever again. "Please."
Over Sehun's shoulders, Baekhyun's eyes locked with Jongdae, an unusual serious expression on the boy's face. A little surprised that Jongdae hadn't told Sehun about the potion, but very thankful, Baekhyun shot him a smile, a sincere one. Maybe he had only kept his mouth shut because Baekhyun had given him the - apparently wrong - recipe to the potion, but that didn't even matter. He had kept his promise of not telling, and Baekhyun was thankful for that.
"Ok, you don't need to talk about it," Sehun said, obviously not having noticed the exchange of looks between Baekhyun and Jongdae. He was still patting his back before Baekhyun pulled away a little, having found enough comfort in the arms of his best friend for the moment and drying his own tears with the sleeve of his robes.
"Please don't tell anyone about this, ok?" Baekhyun didn't necessarily mean the crying, but the situation between him and Yifan and the two of them seemed to understand, nodding in agreement.
"We won't. And until you don't come to us to talk about it, we won't bother you. If you a ready, though, you know you can count on me. Us," Sehun was smiling and Baekhyun nodded.
He went back to his own room then, glad that apparently non of his roommates had gone to bed yet.
Lying down on his bed and pulling the blanked up to his nose, he thought about Yifan as he fell asleep, hoping that he'd at least be blessed with happy dreams about him.
He wasn't, though.
Not for the whole of next year.
The first few weeks were the worst. Every morning Baekhyun would wake up with no motivation whatsoever. The classes that had once been fun had turned into a pain in the arse. Breakfast, lunch and dinner time in the Great Hall were torture because even if he sat with his back towards Yifan, he would find himself turning around just to look at him every few minutes. What made it worse was that sometimes Yifan would look back at him. At first with a question in his eyes but then he'd smile because he had no idea what Baekhyun had done to him.
It got even worse when Yifan got back together with that Hufflepuff girl. Baekhyun wanted to believe that what Yifan had told him at the Yule ball was the reason for that, but somehow he doubted it. Especially after Joonmyeon had told him that Yifan had liked that girl for months.
Yifan looked happy with her. He was smiling at her. The smile Baekhyun had found so hideous at first but had fallen in love with later.
Sometimes Baekhyun would cry himself to sleep, hidden behind countless of private charms cast on his bed. His roommates always thought that he was doing something perverted in there and they'd comment about his red eyes with 'staying up too late' or 'wanking too much' the next morning. Oh, Baekhyun wished that was the reason. But sadly, no, not even wanking did it for him anymore.
For a while, he even avoided Sehun because he was the only one who noticed his pain and sometimes he'd look at him with so much pity in his eyes, Baekhyun wanted to vomit. He wasn't to be pitied. He deserved every bit of this, he was sure of it. At least most of the time, because sometimes the pain got so bad, he felt like passing out on the spot or leaving Hogwarts just so he wouldn't have to see Yifan again.
But he couldn't just leave. He couldn't, because there was a very slight chance that Yifan would come back to him. He had looked so sure of it that day, Baekhyun couldn't help but believe him just a little. It was probably wrong of him to do so but it was the only thing that kept him going. Some days the pain was so bad, threatening to eat him up alive, that last look Yifan had showed him, was the only thing that kept Baekhyun from fucking everything and just leaving.
Pain was all Baekhyun felt for a few weeks and thinking back, he felt sorry for ever having laughed at anyone who had made a big deal out of a broken heart. He literally couldn’t imagine anything worse. It was sad and so typically Slytherin, but the only thing that could make him feel a little better were the times he hexed Zi Tao. The pain transforming into anger, blaming the boy for not having defended his cup better back then. Everything would have turned out differently. Baekhyun wouldn't be suffering like this, if Zi Tao had just been less of a whiny baby that day. That's what he kept on telling himself, but of course it really wasn't his fault. Baekhyun knew that. From time to time, he couldn't stop blaming Zi Tao nevertheless.
It was only after a few months that Baekhyun started to get better. Of course, sometimes he'd still end up crying like a little girl, having thought too much about Yifan, but he wasn't constantly unhappy anymore. Classes were starting to be fun again and sometimes he even managed not to look at Yifan for a whole meal. But then again, sometimes he'd face him on purpose, testing himself, seeing if he could watch him for a longer time without the horrible pain coming back. It almost never worked.
The first time it did work though Baekhyun was so proud of himself, he started to try it more often. At first, he'd only watch him in the Great Hall, but soon he'd started to watch him while Quidditch training, through the window in the library. Or he'd follow him around in his free time, studying his every movement. Only when Baekhyun had started to actually go the the Quidditch trainings, hiding somewhere behind a tree or take a seat somewhere in a corner where Yifan wouldn't be able to see him, did Baekhyun realize that he really wasn't getting better at all. So much time had passed and he was getting obsesses. A stalker. He had turned into a creepy stalker.
That realization didn't make him stop, though. What made him stop was the day Sehun came to find him and Baekhyun only realized then that a year had passed and he was still that much in love with Yifan. A year had passed, he hadn't talked a single word with the boy, hadn't gotten closer than a few meters, and he still wanted him so much that it hurt.
It was funny how the world sometimes worked. The potion had awoken feelings in Baekhyun that wouldn't go away, not even after over a year of suffering. That same potion, though, had one year later helped his best friend Sehun to get together with his year-long crush, which somehow very ironically had turned out to be Zi Tao. Baekhyun hadn't quite believed it at first, or more like he hadn't wanted to believe it. After all, he was supposed to hate Zi Tao but could hardly go on doing that if his best friend was in love with him. And then, like that hadn't been worse enough, Jongin had gotten Kyungsoo to fall in love with him for real as well, also with the help of the potion. It had just been Baekhyun for whom the potion hadn't quite worked out for. Just him who was still suffering the consequences even with months and years passing.
And Yifan was too. It had taken a while, but after months, Baekhyun noticed the change to the Hufflepuff as well.
The boy had broken up with his girlfriend shortly after the new year had started. The rare confused looks Baekhyun would catch Yifan looking at him with had gotten less rare and soon there was more than just confusion in his eyes. Nothing that told Baekhyun that he'd started to love him again, though. There were no signs of his feelings coming back and Baekhyun knew that the day the boy would remember everything was getting closer.
He could feel it his veins that Yifan was getting more aware of him from day to day. Every morning he'd stare at him for such a long time, sometimes Baekhyun would grow so uncomfortable, he'd leave without having eaten a single bite of his breakfast. It was only a question of time when Yifan would approach him again. And then he'd either tell him that he still loved him or - which was much more likely - scream at him for all the horrible things Baekhyun had made him do. And the Slytherin would not be able to run from it.
It was almost valentines day when Sehun was wrapping a present in the common room, with ugly wrapping paper that had little dancing hearts all over it. He was grinning from one ear to the other and watching as Baekhyun approached with a grim look on his face. He had always hated valentines day, now more than ever.
"Let me guess. A present for Zi Tao?" Baekhyun asked almost sounding too spiteful, but Sehun was in the best mood ever and nothing could seem to change that. The younger Slytherin nodded back, still grinning.
"It's couple bracelets. A muggle brand Zi Tao really likes. I put a charm on them, though. The bracelets will start burning when the other is thinking dirty thoughts about him," still grinning like the happiest man alive, Baekhyun couldn't help but smile a little as well.
"Sounds like something Zi Tao would like."
"He'll love it!"
They were silent then, Sehun still smiling hard while using a charm to let a ribbon appear in his hand and carefully tying it around the small box. Ready and set to go, Sehun stood up from where he'd been seated on the floor and sat down next to Baekhyun on the sofa, present in his hands.
"Are you getting Yifan anything?" he asked and Baekhyun almost chocked at the words.
They hadn't talked a single word about the Hufflepuff for almost a year now and Baekhyun had thought that Sehun had learned not to try it again. He'd had more than a year to finally understand that the time Baekhyun was ready to talk about this whole Yifan-thing was never going to come.
"Don't look at me like that," Sehun said, an almost disappointed look on his face "It's time something changes between the two of you. It's been over a year and you are still crying over him. And he keeps staring at you lately. It's so obvious that he wants to talk to you too."
"No, you don't understand," Baekhyun just said, tired and less angry about Sehun talking about it than he'd have thought he'd be. "There is nothing I can do. If he doesn't forgive me, there is no use trying anything."
"I'm sure there is. Last time I checked with him, Yifan wasn't angry at you or anything," Sehun started talking like it was the most normal thing on the planet and Baekhyun stopped breathing at those words, "He just said that he doesn't know what to say to you, that's why he won't make the first ste-"
"You," Baekhyun started, surprised that he was able to bring out words with feeling like his insides were about to explode "talked to Yifan" he looked at Sehun, swallowing hard "about me? Even though your promised that you'd never ev-"
"Come on, Baekhyun," Sehun just sighed, sounding tired "I was over at the Hufflepuff table, eating lunch with Zi Tao and Yifan was basically just sitting there staring at you. How could I not have said something?"
"You promised!"
"Yeah, well I broke that promise. Because you were being silly about it," he started, not letting Baekhyun interrupt him "besides, I'm your best friend and I wanted to help you with Yifan."
"And what exactly did you say to him that would help me?" Baekhyun asked, having turned very very angry, almost not able to control his voice.
"Well, I didn't ask him why and how you broke up, if that's what you're so afraid of," Sehun said, sounding sincere "I want to hear that from you. I just asked him why he won't man up and talk to you first when he obviously wants to."
"And he said?"
"I told you. He's not angry, he just doesn't know what to say. He seemed really confused somehow... like he had no idea what I was talking about but somehow he did... it was weird."
"I see." Sehun didn't seem to know what he was saying but of course to Baekhyun it made perfect sense.
Yifan was not angry because he still didn't remember everything. Yet.
"Didn't seem like he'd come and talk to you soon, though. Maybe you'll really have to make the first step," Sehun advised, looking serious and Baekhyun just glared at him.
"Don't you worry yourself about that," he said, voice harsh, before he just turned his back on his best friend and walked away, passing through the stone wall and out of the common room.
Baekhyun had no real destination when he walked up the stairs, having waited for them to stop moving for a few minutes. Deciding that he could take a walk around the castle and visit his owl, he was walking through the snow, shuddering because he wasn't wearing either a jacket nor a scarf or hat.
Having walked up all of the stairs to the owlery, Baekhyun opened the door to step aside, but shut it it again in shock, closing his eyes hard at the sight of Jongin and Kyungsoo leaned against a wall snogging and probably about to do more.
"Sorry," he cried through the door and heard a low growl from the Ravenclaw before he turned around, half a grin on his face and started walking down the stairs again.
While the snowy wind blew past his shivering skin, it was the thought about having had the chance to have something like this for himself but blewing it that suddenly made him feel that unbearable pain in his chest again. This image of Jongin and Kyungsoo could have basically been him and Yifan... but it wasn't and it was highly likely that it would never be again.
This time Baekhyun didn't let it get as far as tears forming in his eyes, though. He'd had enough of crying, having probably done his lifetime share of that in the past year. He finally wanted it to be over. Wanted to stop feeling that way. Wanted to get some closure but how to achieve that was a fricking mystery. Jongdae had once said something about trying to fall in love with someone else. Of course, Baekhyun hadn't taken him seriously because first, it had only been a few days after their break-up and Baekhyun had had no place in his head to think about other guys. And second, Jongdae had no fricking clue about love and relationships. But now, that idea didn't sound so bad any longer. Not at all bad.
Very serious about the matter, Baekhyun started to check out every single male classmates passing by him in the gardens and later in the castle, surprised to find that a few blokes were quite attractive on a second glance. He noted down their names - if he knew them - in his head to get back to later. Thinking about it more, though, he was pretty sure that non of them would be any good for the long run and that's basically what Baekhyun wanted. A relationship. Not someone to fuck him into oblivion, no, someone he could hug and hold hands with and someone who'd insist on cuddling after sex. Someone who'd smile at him in a way that would make him feel very special. Someone who was really tall with dark-short hair. Someone that liked to wear yellow. Someone that loved to play Quidditch and someone that had a weird nickname.
Someone like Yifan.
Closing his eyes hard, realizing that his thoughts had drifted into the wrong direction again, he turned around a corner. Baekhyun almost run into Zi Tao then, who'd just in time stopped Baekhyun with his hands on his shoulders. The Slytherin opened his eyes in shock at the sudden unexpected touch.
"Watch where you're going," the taller Hufflepuff said, nothing harsh in his voice, but Baekhyun was about to snap back an insult anyway. Before he saw Yifan that was, standing right next to his best friend and looking down at Baekhyun like he'd never seen anything more shocking in his life.
"I ehm.." Baekhyun started not knowing if he was even getting out proper sounds at the sight of Yifan that close "am sorry."
"No problem," Zitao said but Baekhyun barely heard it, too busy gazing up at fucking Wu Yifan who was looking as handsome as ever and who was - even more importantly! - looking back down at him.
Their gazes melded, only a waving hand of Zi Tao's between their faces could make them break the connection between their eyes, looking at the grinning Hufflepuff who was still standing besides them. "Well, I'm going to meet up with Sehun now, just so you guys won't be too shocked when you finally decide to snap out of it again and see me gone. Bye then," he said, so much amusement in his voice that Baekhyun thought about kicking him in the ass for a moment because Zi Tao had always had it just that fucking easy and the Slytherin could only hate him a little more for that.
The boy way already gone, though, when Baekhyun decided to look back at Yifan for a second and see him swallow hard while his eyes moved around Baekhyun's face uncertain.
He knew that kind of gaze. Yifan was nervous and confused. He wanted to do or say something but he couldn't because sometimes he would just be that much of a wimp. And it was funny thinking about all the times the Hufflepuff had just bend Baekhyun over something, without asking, and fucked him without any consideration. Now he couldn't even bring out the words that were obviously burning on his tongue.
"I guess I will also get going then," Yifan said after a while and Baekhyun hoped that the disappointment didn't show in his eyes. Nodding, he looked intensely at the Hufflepuff one more time before the two of them started walking again, an unsatisfied feeling in the Slytherin's chest.
"Bye Baek," he suddenly heard Yifan whisper over his shoulder and for a moment it felt like the world had stopped spinning.
No idea if Yifan had intended for Baekhyun to hear that, he stopped in his steps, eyes and mouth opened wide at the way his nickname had slide so easily through Yifan's lips.
He didn't even want to say it because there was nothing Baekhyun was more afraid of than the consequences this could have, but then the words were already out out of his mouth, before he could stop himself. "Bye Kris," Baekhyun heard himself whisper right back. But he had been too quiet and Yifan had been too far gone to hear him, so all the Slytherin could do was watch Yifan walk always, no idea how he was going to make it through the day without losing his mind thinking about what had just happened.
All thoughts of finding someone else to forget about Yifan were forgotten again. All he could think about was how long it would take for him to finally remember everything and if he'd keep his promise and come back to him then.
Baekhyun had survived valentines day, unbelievable but true. Dinner was over and he had almost made it all the way to his house when he saw Zi Tao and Sehun making out right in front of the Slytherin dorm. Sighing, Baekhyun had turned around right then, not wanting to walk past that because even if he was happy for his best friend having found someone, he hated having to watch them do stuff. Especially on valentines day. A day designed for couples to rub their happiness into everyone else's faces.
He didn't even know where he was going when he tried to make it out of the dungeon by turning around every time he saw a couple being disgusting together. Somehow he made it to the library, sitting down at one of the tables facing the windows that gave him the perfect view over the Quidditch field.
How often had Baekhyun sat here, watching Yifan in the middle of training with his team. How often had he whipped his tears away at the thought of never being able to touch or talk to him. And just a few days ago he had been so close to him again, the memories of it burning inside of his chest.
Smiling, he pulled out his phone, regretting it the minute he opened instagram to see a picture of Zi Tao and Sehun sharing a piece of cake - or more like, passing a piece of cake between their mouths. Baekhyun wanted to vomit.
"Hey," a voice from behind him said, all of a sudden, and Baekhyun didn't need to turn around to know who it was. Frozen in his seat, he watched as Yifan sat down at the chair next to him, looking at Baekhyun troubled and then at his huge hands he had put in front of him on the table.
"Hey," Baekhyun said back quietly. "Happy Valentines day." He had no idea why he was saying that but he was too nervous to think about it.
What was this... Yifan usually did not just talk to him... why?
Yifan snorted in response, smiling a little "Well, thanks."
They were quiet then - again - the uncomfortable silence making Baekhyun's skin itch, wanting to say something. Anything at all. But he didn't because he felt like this was not his place to talk and his assumption was confirmed soon.
"Listen, Baekhyun," Yifan said and Baekhyun did, looking at the Hufflepuff who's eyes were again fixed on his hands "I know I kind of promised that I'd come back to you as soon as I remembered everything... but I had some thinking to do first." Yifan murmured uncertain, gaze on the Slytherin now, who's expression was slowly changing, "I'm sorry it took so long."
This was the day, Baekhyun realized as he looked at Yifan.
Almost unable to breathe and sit there unmoving, Baekhyun put his hands on his thighs, boring a nail into his skin just to see if this was really happening. If he wasn't just dreaming. But no, he'd never dreamed about Yifan, not once, not even when he had fallen asleep thinking or crying about him and begged the gods for nothing more but a glimpse of a Yifan directing one of those wonderful smiles at him.
This was really happening.
"... how long since the memories came back to you?" Baekhyun asked, his hands shivering under the table.
"A few months, I guess."
"Months?" Baekhyun asked, voice louder than intended.
"I'm sorry," he explained, a sincere look on his face "I needed to think... about this," one of his hands pointed at both of their bodies.
The Slytherin couldn't quiet believe it. He'd suffered so much over the past year, the uncertainty almost eating him up alive. But there Yifan was, having taken his sweet little time to think about stuff.
About to get angry at that thought, Baekhyun squeezed his hand into small fists, ready to jump up and shout out in frustration. But then he realized something...
This was it!
This was the end.
Or maybe it wasn't... but one thing was clear...
This was final!
"Wait!" the younger guy quickly said, shutting his eyes close, "I don't know if I'm ready for a rejection yet." Saying it out loud made his heart erupt into that horrible horrible pain again "Just a minute. Please don't say anything yet."
He was about to get himself ready. To really really finally let go of every bit of hope his love-scared heart had been holding on to for the past year when Yifan just continued anyway.
"Who said I'd reject you?" the Hufflepuff whispered, and for a very tiny moment Baekhyun's heart was filled with joy instead of pain and worry. The Slytherin could hear himself let out a little whimper. Normally, he would have been embarrassed at that sound, but this time he was busy trying not to explode from all of the different kinds of emotions and thoughts that were running through his mind and body.
"What do you mean?" Baekhyun asked, looking up at Yifan again, but it only took him the split of a second to realize that he didn't need to wait for Yifan to mouth his answer. Just looking at the Hufflepuff's face was enough to encourage him to do what he'd been thinking about doing for so long.
Yifan's eyes were glimmering with love and hope when Baekhyun bit back tears of joy and leaned forward quickly, pressing their mouths together in a hard but nevertheless soft touch.
Wanting to cry, to laugh and to scream at the same time, Baekhyun felt hands coming along his back, fingers tracing it and then boring themselves into his shoulder so hard, there was a feeling of uncomfortable pain rushing to his head, immediately replaced by a dangerously warm sensation of fire running through his veins instead.
Yifan's lips against his felt so much better than anything he remembered. Feeling like this was their first real kiss, Baekhyun could barely hold himself back to stuck his tongue down Yifan's throat and claim his mouth his, and the taller guy quickly opened his mouth a little.
The unbelievable heat that was running through his body, right into every limb, made Baekhyun pull away first. He knew that he wouldn't be able to stop and they were hardly in a place for anything more than a kiss to happen. He could already feel a few couple of eyes on them, but there'd probably never been anything Baekhyun had cared less about.
Yifan looked both completely drained and filled with so much emotions, when he put his forehead against Baekhyun's, only the length of a fingertip between their lips.
"This is what I meant," the Hufflepuff said before Baekhyun let out a sob and Yifan smiled at him.
The smile Baekhyun had missed so much.
They didn't even have to try twice before the door to the room of requirements appeared right in front of them and Yifan pulled Baekhyun inside, fingers entwined, lips locked, as they made their way to the huge bed that was seated right in the middle of the room.
Being pushed back down into the sheets and having Yifan cover him with his body, their erections rubbing against each other through their so incredibly annoying clothes, made Baekhyun pull his legs around the man's waist and press him down closer because every tiny bit of air between their bodies felt like too much for today.
Yifan didn't even need his wand when he cried "Nudus!" and their clothes disappeared without a trace and both him and Baekhyun moaned at the feeling of having their crotches pressed directly against each other, Baekhyun almost whimpering when he felt Yifan separate their lips again to press small kisses to his jaw and neck and then going down to kiss his chest and nipples, lightly sucking on one of them.
He remembered the feeling of Yifan touching and kissing him everywhere, he remembered it so well because that's all he'd been thinking about for the past year. Then how come this was so much different from anything they'd ever done, anything Baekhyun had ever felt? Yifan's hot mouth was on him, taking his head inside while licking over the tip with his tongue and pushing his fingers inside of the Slytherin's tight hole. Nothing had ever felt this intense when Yifan started to kiss a line down between his legs, over his balls and perineum right to his arse so he could lick and suck at the place his fingers had been buried inside just a few seconds ago, pushing Baekhyun's thighs up with his huge hands pressed against the underside of them.
"Yifan," Baekhyun cried, voice only a hoarse scratchy sound when he came a second later, his dick untouched and spurting white all over his chest and stomach, with Yifan's tongue pressing inside of him in a quick, stabbing motion.
Yifan wouldn't let him rest, though, pushing his fingers right back in when he came up to kiss Baekhyun again and all the Slytherin could do was open his mouth for him, moaning at the feeling of fingers and a tongue carefully sliding over his insides.
"Have you," Yifan started, only pulling away for a moment to mouth the question "done this with anyone else since then?"
"No," Baekhyun immediately answered and Yifan looked relieved but somehow almost not so.
"Then I guess I'll need to take more time to prepare you," he said, already entering the third finger, making Baekhyun moan in the back of his throat and bend his back almost painfully when Yifan's fingertip touched against his prostate.
"Just do it," Baekhyun whined, very serious when Yifan looked at him in question "You know I like it when it hurts a bit."
"It won't just be a bit, though."
"I'll be fine," Baekhyun reassured him, a small grin on his face when he looked down between their bodies to see Yifan's rock-hard erection pointing at him. "Is it just because I haven't seen it for a while, or have you gotten even bigger?"
"I don't know," Yifan said, a little blush as well as an amused smile on his face before he pulled his fingers out, adding "Sure you'll be alright?"
"Go slow. I'll be fine," Baekhyun said, pulling Yifan down at his shoulders to sling his arms around his neck and share an intense kiss.
He didn't really expect it when he suddenly felt hands going down to press his legs forward so his knees were almost placed next to his head. Bending them around his shoulders, Yifan positioned himself before their lips touched again and he slowly started pushing inside. The sounds coming out of Baekhyun's lips were both from pleasure as well as the painful feeling of being filled up that much after such a long time. Yifan's soothing kisses and his hand's holding on to Baekhyun's legs, softly moving his fingers over their skin, made up for the pain, though. Slowly pushing forward, until he had buried half of his cock inside of him, Yifan let out an exhausted breathe, obviously trying very hard not to move and not to come yet.
"Fine?" Yifan asked and Baekhyun was almost surprised to hear him say that but then he nodded and only a second later, when the taller guy had started moving, did he start to moan, saying Yifan's name in between. The Hufflepuff obviously liked the sound of that because of the way he was looking at Baekhyun, not even kissing him just so he could continue to hear Baekhyun call him by his name. His eyes were filled with lust, and when he sped up, Baekhyun screamed at the sudden harder pushes.
"Yifan... Yifan," Baekhyun cried desperately and it took a while for the older guy to realize that Baekhyun was actually calling him so he'd lean down and kiss him. When he did, Baekhyun made sure not to let him go, pressing their lips hard together, so they'd bruise. "I'm coming, Yifan," the Slytherin half whispered half moaned when Yifan angled his hips differently, hitting that spot right almost every time.
"Me too."
"Kiss me, Yifan," Baekhyun said once more and the moment their lips touched, smothering both of their moans, they came at the same time, lips not unlocking as Yifan rid out his orgasm with Baekhyun's tight walls clenching around his penis, milking him just right. Baekhyun lost all of the strength over his body, arms falling to his sides as Yifan continued clinging to him strongly.
They stayed like that for a second longer, with Yifan slightly rocking against him, and even when he pulled out, he didn't let go, didn't move, covering Baekhyun's lax body with his, neither caring about the disgusting sticky feeling between their bodies, as they held on to each other, the strength coming back to Baekhyun.
He cupped Yifan's face in his hands, looking at him for a long time, smiling before the Hufflepuff finally pushed himself up a little so they could properly look at each other.
After having shared another long and tired kiss, Yifan rolled off of Baekhyun's body, lying beside him and immediately taking the smaller man into his arms. He rolled himself against Yifan's broad chest, waiting for the Hufflepuff's long limbs to hug him close. Head resting against Yifan's neck, both of his arms tightly slung around his body while his fingers were moving patterns over the skin on his back, Baekhyun hadn't even realised yet what all of this meant. On one hand, he had, of course how couldn't he after finally having had sex with Yifan again, but on the other hand, there was still a little something inside of him that told him that this could not be real. Yifan could not really be holding him like that. Loving him.
"I love you, Yifan," Baekhyun said and only the moment the words had rolled over his tongue did he realize that he'd never said it before. Not once. Not to anyone. Not out loud.
To his surprise, he heard Yifan snort. Looking up at him in almost shock at his weird reaction, he was met with a soft smile, though, his eyes glimmering almost wet.
"Remember the last day of our first week?" Yifan asked and Baekhyun nodded "When I told you to take your time to tell me that you love me, I didn't actually mean for it to take years, you know."
That did it. That was the moment Baekhyun finally wasn't able to hold back his tears anymore. He didn't sob, he didn't cry out loud, but he felt tears leaving his eyes as so much relief and guilty feelings washed over him.
Yifan was pressing him harder against his body now, kissing his forehead.
"I'm so sorry," Baekhyun whispered, wet drops on Yifan's chest "Thank you so much for forgiving me. Thank you so much taking me back."
"How could I not, when I love you this much?"
Baekhyun didn't know what to say to that so he just kissed him again. Kissing seemed like the perfect thing to do when you didn't know what to say, anyway. Kissing him so hard, trying to make up for the lost time.
"I love valentines day," Yifan whispered against his lips after a while, with Baekhyun having rolled on top of him and the two starting to rub off against each other again.
"Oh god," Baekhyun said, a laugh escaping his lips before he realized that "I do too."
Andrew Green made a surprised as well as a slightly confused face at the sight of yet another new gay couple approaching the Hufflepuffs table.
"What is it?" Joana asked him, seated right in front of him while taking a bite of her toast after having noticed his weird expression "Seen a ghost?" she joked, failing badly.
"No," Andrew said, eyes still fixed on Yifan, their Quidditch team's leader as he affectionately slid a hand through his apparently now-boyfriend's hair. "Just surprised."
"About?" his best friend Timothy added, mouth stuffed with different kinds of foods.
"I don't know... don't you guys think it's kind of weird that we have so many gay Asian guys at this school?" he nodded towards the new pair "First that Slytherin dating Zitao, then that weird Ravenclaw hooking up with Gryffindor's seeker and now Yifan and another Slytherin twit? Like what the hell is going on."
"I don't know man," Timothy said, shrugging his shoulders "maybe Asians are just generally gay."
"Yea, because that makes a lot of sense" Joana said snorting, fixing her eyes on the group of Asian guys sitting together at the other end of their table "and they're all really good looking, too."
"Who's good looking?" they suddenly heard Joonmyeon ask over their shoulders as the head boy had stopped next to their table, looking at them in interest.
"Your Asian lot. All really handsome... and gay," Joanna said, grinning when she saw Joonmyeon's confused expression turn into a slight troubled blush. "Don't tell me you like guys too."
"I... do not," Joonmyeon said, obviously a miserable liar.
"You so do," Timothy almost shouted grinning before adding "You also have a boyfriend? Let me guess, it's that weird tall Slytherin with the huge ears."
"What?" Joonmyeon responded loudly as well, "No way."
"Then the one who always looks really tired? That Gryffindor guy?"
"No, I told you, I'm not ga-"
"Don't try to deny it," Joana laughed but before she could make another false guess, a Slytherin had appeared next to Joonmyeon, letting his arm fall over the guys shoulder and making a pouty face.
"I'm hurt guys, you didn't even consider me?" Jongdae asked, pretending to pet his broken heart over his robes before he turned to Joonmyeon grinning and Andrew almost laughed out loud when he saw how tense the head boy suddenly was, trying not to look at the Slytherin and burying his hands in his pockets.
Timothy and Joana both shot Andrew an Oh-My-God look before they all turned back to watch Jongdae leaning over Joonmyeon shoulder and whispering something in his ear that made the guy blush so bad, his head was turning into a tomato.
"I didn't know you guys were a couple," Andrew said and Joonmyeon immediately shook his head, pulling his body out of Jongdae's grasp over his shoulder.
"We're not! Really!" he said and for a tiny moment Andrew believed the head boy but then Jongdae leaned over again, to whispers something else into his ear and all of sudden Joonmyeon was storming out of the Great Hall, rubbing his ear at the touch of his lips.
The three friends watched as Joonmyeon disappeared and then looked back at Jongdae who was still standing beside their seated figures, looking down at them before saying "Not yet!" with a grin on his face and leaving for his own table.
It took a while until one of them decided to say something again, all of them having amused expressions on their faces.
"This school is so gay, I'm telling you," Joana mouthed before she bit into her toast again, a satisfied smile on her face.
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the end...
this was total shit, wasn't it? idk how it got that long and sorry for this shit ending but somehow i had the feeling i needed to explain about all of those gay asians in hogwarts XD anyway, this is the longest thing i've ever written and most importantly the first krisbaek ff i managed to finish. krisbaek has been my otp for like idk 1000 years but i never quite managed to upload one of my countless desperate tries...
i hope you guys like this ff even tho it's total trash and i apologize for cockslut baek. that boy is just that much of a pervert in my head, i'll never be able to write him as a normal person, sorry. if you want to know more about how taohun and kaisoo became a couple read the other ffs to my potion!series here:
TAOHUN
KAISOO
(and no, i am not going to write a suchen story. i've got enough of the potion plot. but expect more hogwarts!exo stories from me since i joined the exolliarmus fic exchange :D)
huge thanks to my wonderful beta john who managed to edit this in only like 3 days or smth (i think he's a wizard but psssst!)
i'd appreciate any kind of feedback so pls make sure to leave me some. i enabled the anon option so even if you don't have an account here on lj, you should be able to comment :)
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