I am in fact alive. Even if i dont feel like it most days. Ill post more as i feel more human. Until then ( Read more... )

But this song made me think.....I think i lose goth points.

You're not Sorry by (Ugh) Taylor Swift

Lyrics:
All this time I was wasting
Hoping you would come around
I've been giving out chances
Everytime and all you do is let me down
And it's taken me this long
Baby but I've figured you out
And you thinking we'll be fine again
But not this time around

You don' ( Read more... )

I had a really great time with a really great guy today. At first I thought that i was boring to him, but it turns out we just had a slow start. We played games, ate Japanese, Watched some anime, and poked and tickled at each other. It was fun. When we finally got to spend some time together, just us, it was awesome. I got to cuddle and and just ( Read more... )

She cries, children often do ( Read more... )

My favorite pair of boots, that i've had since i was 15!!! have finally died. I got home tonight and the soul just fell right out. I actually got a bit chocked up. These boots have seen my first love, my first date, my wedding and divorce, my first pagan festival, my first trip to a SM club, my first drink of alchohol, my first time dancing at a ( Read more... )

The Birthday Massacre - Violet

The tragic comedy divine,
Paints the way to peace of mind.
Leaving shallow lovers far behind.

Past uncertainties combine.
Bringing tears to sleepless eyes.
Memory runs the course of time.
Blood runs cold beyond the violet prison, for violent visions.
And so the broken record plays, as you throw us away.

We're never ( Read more... )

Ok. So I had my date with my friend from NY on Thursday........and it was freaking awesome!!! I was scared to death that I wasnt gonna have fun, or he wasnt gonna like me, or that id be so wrapped up in my depression to even care, but it went great. He is such a sweet heart, and we cuddled in the back seat of his car for about 6 hrs. We started off ( Read more... )

Oh, I wish I could get my hands on some "Z" myself. "I can't feel nothin' at all....."

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Its been a month since Daniel broke my heart and left me. I thought that by now I'd be over it, but it still hurts. I still find myself crying over it at night, and running scenarios through my head of how I could have made it better, of how I could have been better, of how I could have made him stay and love me . I hate this! I hate feeling so ( Read more... )

So, after much thinking and mulling it over, I have come to a decision. I am a heterosexual. Thats right, I said it. I was a closet straight guy but no I feel free to let the world know, I like women! I want to get married, have lots of sex (in missionary position, of course), and make bunches of little babies. And im going to embrace Christianity ( Read more... )