never again I said, I made a promise to myself that Id never let him in that far again. hes done too much said to little to late. And I , Im always left with my heart lying open in my hands looking to the sky for answers Ill never find. and when its all said and done, Im afraid he wont be the one to catch me, so why let my heart believe he can?

Sometimes there is this hole inside of me and no matter what I do, nothing I try will fill it. And I feel crowded in with it and overwhelmed, is it possible to feel crowded and lonley at the same time? I do. I'm missing something, and I don't know what it is, or how to find it. sometimes I wonder if Ill always go through my life feeling like Im ( Read more... )

I hate being sick i feel like everythignabout my body is broken, and I still have to go to work tonight....gah it sucks sucks sucks!

sometimes I hate myself. Im so confused. I dont know what I feel I think I feel nothing right now.

ok, so I finally heard from him monday. Im relieved somewhat. although it seems to be that hes gotten himself in some trouble, dear god why do I gravitate towards the trouble makers? I actually believe him when he says he didn't do what hes been accused of though. Should I ? who knows, but in all reality hes never been the type anyway, I just could ( Read more... )

sometimes I feel like Im living a lie. All I want to do is cry lately but I just can't, I make myself go on, just make myself live to the next hour, somehow I still make it. i don't know who I am or what I really want, all I know is I miss him and I hate being alone. Its the only truth I know anymore, is that I dont want to be alone, and when I am ( Read more... )

may 2nd may 2nd may 2nd.......
jewel has a new album coming out I guess... I just found out... yay!

why do I do this to myself? I knew if I listened to this song I would cry, but I can't help it, even just feeling my love for him makes me feel closer to him. i know it doesn't specifically fit, but oh hell so many parts just break my heart becasue its really how it is ( Read more... )

Krystal's lame-ass excuse to break up:

"I don't want you to meet my parents because they are actually giant rabbits both named Harvey"

'What is your lame-ass excuse to break up?' at QuizGalaxy.com

Its not like him... I know sometimes he can be a jerk, but hes never NOT called me back eventually, and with that message I read.. well, Im pretty sure it wasn't there before? was it? or am I a freak and overreacting because my life seems to feed off drama? I don't think so, Its been like five days, something is going on and we finally made our ( Read more... )