Boys ae the grossest ickyest..just eww. So last night Travis didn't know I was still up and I had already told him I was planning on sleeping in my room that night, but I hadn't told him I was planning on also saying goodnight to him AFTER I got off the phone with Lisa. SO I get off the phone, go to his door, see that light from the T.V. is still ( Read more... )

Ive been neglecting my journal recently. I would normally have written so much about whats been going on in my life but I just havent made it down to the lab to do it and naturally I can't just pour my heart out baout another guy with travis standing right there. Ok so here goes. I finally decided to not even bother writting him back and just get ( Read more... )

i must have read his recent message a hundred times.Im still not sure what to make of it. There are some things that make me wonder, and some I think I know exactly what he means. I do know that it makes me very confused about what I thought I had put behind me. It blurs the lines of reality in my mind and makes me want to believe everyhting he ( Read more... )

Im to confused to even talk about or write about my problems...

I shouldn't feel this way... he shouldnt be able to have the pwer to twist the thorn in my side. But he does and always will can I help it that Im capable of loving more than once? and more than one at a time?

why does he insit on making me feel this way? why didnt he just fucking drop off the earth. Isnt that what he was supposed to do, go and be a freaking jar head and leav me the fuck alone. Damn this thing called Internet !

YAY! well I got home late last night after a bitch of a train ride, really people turn your damn cell phones on vibrate for petes sake! omg, and the friggin gehtto ass kid behind me who wouldn't shut up! he kept rappin along to all his gehtto crap....all I wanted to do was take a nap! and then we were behind cause the train got to kzoo a bit late, ( Read more... )

I know it shouldn't, but it still hurts, I gave so much of myself o him, and then his little comments on her myspace, they get to me whether I like it or not. And it is no place of mine to tell her to tell him to fuck off, so it just continues. I think Im just going to stop looking at her myspace, its the ony thing to do. I dont want to be reminded ( Read more... )

Happy Birthday Lisa!!!!

nobody I love is around, nobody is answering their phones but you know what fuck it I dont give a damn this day can go to hell cept one part , melissa called me and it was so awesomly cute that I had to smile. I think that was the only time this whole day I truly felt any sunshine. I hate this state and its damn weather, I hate my roomate and ( Read more... )