And then you hit a wall and all momentum is lost.

And no one is really surprised, not even you.

Because you make bad choices. And you know it.

Oh, no, wait. That's just me.

My friend and I have decided that we need to get out and try new things. As she pointed out "guys are not going to just drop into our living rooms. We need to go where the guys are." As I explained to another of my friends, who thinks that is a good idea, but wonders "where does one go to find nice, 30-something, single guys?", perhaps if we wander ( Read more... )

The counselor wants me to start a "daily mood journal". I'm supposed to be charting my moods so that we can see if any patterns develop (beside the obvious "happy to see E/conflicted to hang out with him/spend the night crying afterward" cycle ( Read more... )

One day a seed was planted in the ground. The flower inside was safe and warm inside the shell of the seed, but the world outside beckoned her to come out. "Come join us above the dark ground you're buried in" the wind and sun and rain would call. "Come see that there is much outside that is beautiful ( Read more... )

I feel strange today. It's kind of a wistful sadness. But not sad like I've been feeling. Just kind of a vague somewhere-in-the-pit-of-my-stomach-there's-an-emptiness feeling. It's the feeling you get when you miss someone very, very much ( Read more... )

I'm feeling good today. I feel like things are finally starting to settle down. Stuff is still broken and messy and confusing, but I no longer feel like dropping my umbrella and running. And that alone is a huge improvement ( Read more... )

I, Deema, hereby take thee, 2007, as my year. And I make these vows to honor you through sickness and heath, as well as richer and poorer months, until New Year's Day once again do us part ( Read more... )

So, here I am again. In the dilemma of "what to do about dating?". It seems "Not Quite a Date" had a lot of fun at dinner with me on Friday and would like to go out again. He called me yesterday to see if I might be interested in doing dinner again or maybe a movie when he gets back into town (he's going to see family for the holidays ( Read more... )

I have now officially done the "not quite a date" thing twice in the last couple of weeks. Two guys, two conversations, two attempts to move on from the broken heart ( Read more... )

How do people go about living life? How do people find value in themselves and fulfillment in activities? How is it that "simple pleasures" are enough for some ( Read more... )