The blues seem to have settled back in. The effects of the Synthetic Happiness has waned, my cheery attitude has flat-lined, and the reality of daily living has returned ( Read more... )

It's finally stopped. For the moment at least, all is quiet in my head and I can hear the real world outside of myself. It's a nice sound ( Read more... )

I've lost my will to continue on. I'm tired of being the universe's puppet in this sick, twisted fairy tale of life. I'm tired of pretending that I have some kind of purpose or future ( Read more... )

"All the world's a stage, and all the men and women are merely players. They have their exits and entrances, and each man in his lifetime will play many parts." -- William Shakespeare ( Read more... )

When is it going to stop? How do I get out of this attack on my desires that comes at me from every side ( Read more... )

One of the best benefits of my job is that I can go to school for an unreasonably small amount of money. While some people have to pay $1100 for a graduate level class, I only have to pay $25 a semester ( Read more... )

I was finally starting to feel better. I was finally starting to deal with my lot in life and accept that I am doomed to being a Reason for all eternity. I was finally getting to where I could have a conversation with him without it ending in a flood of bitter tears. I even smiled a couple of times yesterday ( Read more... )

I've been trying to deal with this depression. I'm trying to think and analyze in a healthy and well-adjusted manner. I'm trying to own my feelings (and not blame other people for how I feel), and follow my thoughts to the end. I'm trying to search the deepest parts of my heart and find out what I truly desire, what drives me to seek the things I ( Read more... )

I hate my life. And I hate pretty much everything about myself.

Does anyone else know that feeling?

I'm calmer now ( Read more... )