why does every decision have to be so hard? why can't things just happen. Why can't things happen like they do in music? it'd be so simple if it did. People want to get to know me better... well then they should listen to the words to the songs i listen to... they all make perfect sence... except thats the thing nothing is perfect so it may as well ( Read more... )

things have been so wonderful. david and i are about to watch a movie... "Summer". Neither of us have any idea what it's about. I hope it's not a foreign film. i mean most of the foreign films we have gotten have been wonderful, but... i dunno i don't like having to read subtitles. sometimes ( Read more... )

sitting here thinking to myself, i still don't know what to do. Dear god, i am so confuzd. i wish everything was easy, but obviously, they're not. I want everything to be the way it was last year. I really didn't have any worries, i'd fight with my mom quite a bit, but i could have tried harder not to. I wish that everything was better. More trust ( Read more... )

i had sex in my school parking lot this morning. hmm. fun but i was very nervous. i was waiting for somebody from school to come outside and see us... but no instead some old guy cut through the parking lot, dear god, i think he saw us. haha it was an interesting expierence.

my teeth hurt, i went to the dentist today, whatever he did hurt. but i didn't even have one cavity (lol bonus).

David and i went to Buffalo Wild Wings (something like that) it was soooo yummy!!!

Now we are working on my plants, then i have to go to work... bummer but i'm having fun now!

last night was such a bad night... dear god. i also did something that i have not done in a long time. pathetic. But there was an agreement, last night never happened... yeah right. oh course it fucking happened. i have a huge bruise too... damnit, figures. stupid night. wish it never had occured.

i drank some more tequilla tonight... fun so far... took me a while though, i kept thinking of a hangover and how bad it would be for tomorrow (in a way i guess today lol)... but i did it. i got 1/2 a vicodin because my head was/is hurting so bad... grr. i did some c.s. today- helped out at the middle school. i helped set up for a HUGE sale. i got ( Read more... )

last night was a blast... i had an adventure:) i took a vicodin (750mg or something like that)smoked with my friends and then left drank 1/2 a 5th of tequilla. i dont remember the night but i know i had fun. haha i was told that i was just mindlessly doing things and laughing so much. Happy that my birthday was a blast, but this morning... dear ( Read more... )

i am drun k. this has been a good birthday. I went over to A.R's house and chilled there. first time in a while (month so a lot shorter time than before) i "hung out". the sound was going in and out in my ears... like they were plugged. it was fun. didn't like commin down lol... never do. i am not going to do it again for a few months tho... like ( Read more... )

i so sick of people trying to control me. WHAT THE FUCK? IT'S MY LIFE. it's not like its my parents or even the people i live with. it is people i know, and people i go to school with. i can do what i want and i don't have to follow everything they fucking say. but the thing with this is, if i don't then everybody is all pissed off at me and MY day ( Read more... )