so new year's was rather amazing, except for the after-party. all i vaguely remember is some girl with crazy red hair and crazy tanning booth skin dancing in front of the speakers and shouting "YEEEAH BOYYYY!" at the dj who just slowly turned his head away with this totally nonplussed look on his face. and just as we were leaving the building a ( Read more... )

it's honestly been about 4 years since i had a decent new year's. but tonight is shaping up pretty well so far so i guess we'll see. supposedly i can get a ticket for $20 if i talk to the right people but i'm still trying to work that out. it would be nice to ditch the party a bit early and get out on the town for awhile. at least i have ( Read more... )

appleton is drab and blanketed in dog shit. everywhere i go. dirty snow and dog shit.

all my pictures are blurry and i don't know why. other than that, being back is like being shiv'ed in the belly and my large intenstine flops out and everyone laughs and says "you're so predictable!"
at least that's how it went in my dream last night. i have been self-conscious all morning.

( athina )

i leave tomorrow! drive down to milwaukee at 7 so i can be 2 hours early for my 11:15 flight. 15 hours on a plane and then 7 days in athens. oh god. the rats got picked up a few hours ago after a thorough cage cleansing and gorging on treats, i'm packed except for my carry-on, and i have a place to stay in milwaukee the night i get back. oh ( Read more... )

yielded heart and heart forlorn, I have fall upon your way-
I know of no other place to fall.

i am directionally impaired. i circled madison twice before i finally found the fucking place, after a roundabout at a dead end kitty corner to a fucking displaced petting zoo in the middle of suburban nowhere. the show was excellent though. as was milwaukee after i finally fucking found a place to park 6 blocks from where i was going. they ( Read more... )

33 days until 0 days left of waiting. fast-forward ( Read more... )

finally something's fallen into place. things are good. adequate enough, anyway.
drank today. and not alone. i waddled about and sang to the radio. accidentally ate half a half-cooked chicken wing before realizing hey this is probably going to cause something horrible and foul to happen to my body and spitting it out in the sink ( Read more... )

the area dividing the brain and the soul
is affected in many ways by
experience --
some lose all mind and become soul:
insane.
some lose all soul and become mind:
intellectual.
some lose both and become:
accepted.

-bukowski