Spring Break was so fucking messed up. I wond up having to do something I didn't want to do and I tottaly regreat it. This guy name Will came over to my house during spring break and he kept making out with me I mean I couldn't get him to stop he wouldn't get off of me he kept asking me to fuck him and I didn't want to and I told him that so so ( Read more... )

Every thing is so complexed and every thing is just so stupid. I miss Josh so much. Noone see the trouble I'm in. Noone see how I drink to numb the pain of my everyday excestents. I don't understand anymore. this lonlieness is overwhelming. Every day I wake up to this cold world and ask myself whats the point. I hate being me I hate this stupid ( Read more... )

Tommorw would have been Josh'es 18th birthday had he not died. I'm going to miss him so much tommorow. I've been feeling so overwhelmingly lonely latly. I'm so tire of being alone it feels like my whole world is crashing down around me and I have not way to stop it. Sometimes I wish I'd go death and blind so then I'd have a reason to feel souronded ( Read more... )

God I have to go to some stupid babyshower tonight and I don't want to go. I'm so pissed my life was going good now it's all shit again. I hate people. I wish I had someone who gave a shit about me. I'm really tired of being alone it sucks so much ass. Being single sucks!! I'm ugly and Fat!!!!!!! URGH

I feel bad for my friend Anthony his girlfriend just broke up with him like 15 20 mintues ago. Poor baby. I think I'm going to see if he wants to hang out today. You know try and cheer him up a bit. I doing so much better. I can go through a whole day know where I can think about Josh and not cry! Yeah for me!

I'm starting to feel a little better. As the days go on it hurts less and less. I'm just really glad that I have the support of so many cool people.

EVERYONE ON MY TAGGED TEAM ANDALL MY LIVE JOURNAL FRIENDS AND ALL MY FRIENDS AT HOME YOU KICK ASS!!!!

STUPID PEOPLE SUCK ASS ( Read more... )

I just got back from Josh's funarl alittle over an hour and a hafe ago. I cryed so so hard. I can't believe he's gone. It was so hard watching them put him into the ground. I wish I could talk to him I wish I was with him I miss him so much ( Read more... )

Tommorows Josh's funarl it's going to be hard but I have to go plus Tyson said he'd let me cry on his sholder so I'm glad I hae him there. I don't really know what else to say my mind is just a blank right now.

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