jamie and the girls are in town. oh boy...... i have alot of work to do so i think i have a good excuse of why i can't go with them to LA everyday to be all wild and crazy like kids. i'm feeling too old right now. i have alot of reading to do and even some writing too. not to mention quite a few shifts at work coming up at the beginning of feb ( Read more... )

so i've come to the conclusion that this semester i'm not going to do any drugs and i'm going to hardly drink at all. in other words i'm going to be a good kid and do my school work and not show up to work hungover or strung-out. so if i'm not as social this semester it's because i'm doing the MASSIVE amount of work for my Qualitative Research ( Read more... )

i'm so happy to be back in california. and i kinda fixed my computer. well, temporarily atleast. even better news is that my roommate moved out cuz she's moving to australia to live with her boyfriend. this means that i get a double as a single. woo-hooo!!!!!!! i'm pushing the beds together to make one big bed and buying bright pink jersey sheets. ( Read more... )

another night during which i don't sleep. instead of the sleeping like any normal and healthy person would do i am reading Prozac Nation. yep, u read correctly, i'm reading a book about depression. but in my defense i haven't read it in a couple of years and i accidentally left Diary Of An Emotional Idiot in my dorm room. so here i am reading cuz i ( Read more... )

so i was going to take a drive but i got as far as the end of my road before i realized that it was a horrible idea. so instead of driving i'm eating. yes, i'm eating my feelings away. i just feel so emotionally raw right now. like the littlest thing will get to me. which can't be pleasant for the ppl who care for me. and i feel bad about getting ( Read more... )

i can't sleep...again. for like the 5th or 6th night in a row. this is killing me. but i have been able to see a bunch of sunrises. i'm trying to look on the bright side of my insomnia. maybe i should up my dose of sleeping pills a little. that might work ( Read more... )

it's too cold here for me. send me back to the west coast please ( Read more... )

so i'm back in georgia. blah. not really all that excited about it. it's cold and kinda windy. can i please go back to the warm west coast now? please ( Read more... )

last night nicki and i had dinner with my godparents over at their place. mmm.....good food. i'm so tired of dorm food. anyway, they like nicki alot and think she's sweet. hmmm....me too. it makes me happy that they like her. and the good thing is that she likes them also. oh, and yes, embarassing (well, kinda cute) pics from when i was younger ( Read more... )

feeling extremely insecure today.