Along with life...comes a death

[doinitwitrythem]

As you all have heard by now...my dearest sweet little sister is gone, she passed away and was confirmed to be with child also.*sighs heavily* I just..I fuckin never seen it coming,I mean...I know she was unhappy and I know she was suicidal but I or someone else was always there to fuckin stop her you know?To fuckin save her. I never in my life

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[natalieabryant]

Baby I'm so sorry.... I'm so fucking sorry.. None of you deserved for this to happen, especially not Ave. I know this is hard Zac, never ever blame yourself though.. You said it yourself, she had just been through TOO much.. She was so young and all the things she'd experienced were too much even for a long lifetime.. nevermind to have to deal with it all in such a small amount of time as she did.. You did everything you could to be there for her, and she knows that.. She does and she loved you dearly for it baby.. She knows all you did for her, she'd never ever forget it. And the only solace you can have might be that she isnt hurting anymore Zac.. there's no one who could ever hurt her again. She doesnt have anymore pain. Not a single bit. You know she wouldnt want you all to hold onto her and be hurting from losing her.. you should thank god for all those amazing moments with her baby.. All those times you just got to be with your little baby sister and enjoy her company. She would want you to remember those times. She would want

[doinitwitrythem]

Thanks baby, I appreciate it.Your support has meant so much and I am just so fuckin sorry that YOUR having to support ME.It should be the other way around..I mean...YOUR the pregnant one, instead your taking care of me who is bawlin like a baby and lookin like a scrub because I lost my baby 15 year old sister.Im so sorry,,,I ...I still plan to take care of you.I plan to get better and to take care of our baby and you, you know?Dont worry...no worries baby. I...I love you and please ..I dont want to EVER have to lose you or this baby, I dont think I could handle it Natalie..I..I couldnt.I love you so much..I love you both so much.I miss her already though, its so hard knowing we are never gonna see her again..I mean...it's just...its not the same.No one should have ever hurt her in the first place..she was just a little girl...they should have hurt ME damn it.I love you baby.I love you.

[natalieabryant]

Dont ever feel bad.. I'm here for you no matter what.. through everything Zac, especially something like this where I know you need someone there just to hug you while you cry. I dont care what it is I have to do.. I'm here as long as you need me baby. I'm in it for the long haul.. I'm gonna help you through this.. I WANT to bedoing this and helping you Zac, let me baby.. and dont feel bad about it for even another second.. promise me?? I love you.. I know you'd do the same for me, god forbid, if the same happened.. You cry and bawl your eyes out all you need.. as long as you use my shoulder to cry on.. and dont dare think of apologizing for it one more time.. You need this and I'm happy to do this for you. Me and the baby are fine Zac.. I'm only paying you back for all you've done and what I know you'll do for our family in the future.. but right now, for this moment.. let me take care of you. Let me hold you and be with you. You need comfort baby. I'm so sorry for what happened to Ave.. This is the last thing you're family needed to

[doinitwitrythem]

You dont need any stress,You just need to be comfortable baby, as comfortable as possible because last thing we need to do is be losing this baby you know?Because this baby is just so much a HUGE part of our lives already, you know?Yes I would do the same for you sweetheart, in a heartbeat if anything every should happen to Matt.But it wont I pray because I know how much it would kill you because of all you've been through, you know?I wouldnt want any other shoulder...because your scent is so beautiful and on your shoulder I feel most safest...and at ease baby.You and our baby in that tummy of yours are so soft and comforting.I love you with EVERY fuckin ounce of my being.