Hospital=fun

[doinitwitrythem]

So guys..I just got back from the fuckin hospital.Dont flip and shit, but yeah lets just say that wasnt exactly the funnest experience.I'm suprisingly still sober at the moment, shit..Im such a dumb ass I dont even know how to take my coke right haha..shit lol.Natalie was leaving and I went to follow after her I guess and fell down the stairs or

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[natalieabryant]

You had me so scared Zac.. I just.. I dont recognize you anymore. You're not who you used to be. You're not that same Zac I fell in love with. This is happening so fast and I just dont know what to do.. I want you to get better, I wish you wouldnt be doing these drugs, but that doesnt mean anything if you donw want to stop. If you want to find help then I'll look with you, I'll be there for you. But if you want to keep going down this path then there's nothing I can do to change that. We have a baby on the way, and if I need to raise it myself I will.. I can do it.. But I wont have my baby in an environment where it's daddy is getting high and acting completely crazy.

[doinitwitrythem]

Im so sorry...I didnt mean to..I really didnt know that was going to happen, I guess I just didnt think about these things...all I thought about was the pain I had fogging my heart and clouding my judgement and being SO desprit to get rid of it that i'd done just about anything to be rid of it and then...well...then coke came along and *sighs* god im just..im stupid and im so sorry.Maybe i've only made the pain even worse, but not just for me but everyone I love and now im lonely.You know? I want this baby..I need this baby , please *cries* dont take this babies chance of knowing me away like Kate did for a while, off and on with the twins Kade and Choloe...because those are months,etc. out of their lives that I can NEVER get back.*Sighs*