I called her on the phone and she touched herself

[doinitwitrythem]

Lol okay wow so thats a fuckin crazy ass fucking song but thats besides the point.I really thought things had gotten better with Natalie and I but I guess I was mistaken or something, well I mean she says its because she loves me that she's giving us a break.She said she dont understand how I know we are meant to be and with this break she wants to

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[natalieabryant]

Zac, hun I'm sorry I had to hurt you. I just.. I dunno.. I need to be sure. I really feel badly that your not as sure about taking a break. I love you so much, and I just dont want to be unfaithful to you again.. I really think this break will be good for us baby. We can just get things to calm down more, and I need to get my head together. Then I'll be home with you and we can spend our life together. If you want I'd love to come by and see you still. Just because we're taking time apart doesnt mean I dont want to see you. I still miss you. If you dont want me to come over i understand. Just let me know. I love you Zac. and I'm sorry.

[doinitwitrythem]

Its okay baby.I mean...life is full of obsticles and sometimes what we think is the worst?Its not, its only something we need to sacrifice for something bigger and better and if thats what it takes to save our relationship and to make you secure with us, then ...then ill let you go.They set if you love them let them free and if they return back to you then its truly meant to be.

Are you...are you sure you want to see me?The temptation will still be there you know?But of course it kills me not seeing you and your growing belly.

I..I love you more then youll know.

[natalieabryant]

Thank you so much for understanding. That means more to me than you could know. I really think this is going to make things better for us, that's the only reason I'm doing it Zac. I'm really hopeful that I'll be coming back to you and I really appreciate that you can be so patient with me now.

I know, I just really want to see you. I dont know.. just, I really think I need it. I knew I'd miss you and all, but the past couple days, I've really felt like I need to just have you near me.

I love you too Zac, dont ever doubt that.

[doinitwitrythem]

Im not going to lie and make myself sound good and like a rational adult, because at first I didnt understand it and im not sure if I do even understand it completely right now...but I am more understanding then I was. I havent really left the house, its kind of horrible, but I dont want to look at anybody else, I just..i want to be by myself, the furthest ive moved is to the couch.

Then please do come over then, i need to keep your face fresh in my mind.

I love you