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All is fair in Love and War
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when it rains it pours
just trying to catch up. I'm not good at having one of these. forgive me if i am wrong, but love is all about acceptance. Accepting the one you love, loving them, trusting them, being there for them, being their protection, comfort, their home away from home(because home is where the heart is or so they say), and just accepting them for... who they ( Read more... ) -
I want it this way.
So things with Frank didn't workout like I thought they would have.
He's in Germany right now.
And right after I told him that I didn't love him, but that I in fact left the one I loved for the one I liked... Steven.
Steven is the one I have loved all along.
It just took me a long time to realize that though.
But, better late than never?
I guess.
When I ( Read more... ) -
I'm not broken in pieces, but I have cracks.
I'm so lonely.
My body feels so tired and weak right now.
i just got done talking to Frank... and i miss him so much right now.
sound weird?
i don't care. because i do.
I have come to the conclusion that i am loosing a lot of girl friends who i thought of as friends.
i just feel so lonely.
i have been down this road before and i don't want to go down it ( Read more... ) -
Err.. feeling of nothing.
I have been pretty empty lately.
Not feeling much of anything or wanting to do much of anything.
everything just seems to get so old.
i just have no modovation these days.
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smirnoff and parrot bay
i have nothing else better to do.
i might go swim at nick's house and then go hangout with kyle at some girls house and ten come back home with kyle and nick and just get wasted.
hmmm.... fun? i hope so.
Frank got on AIM!! today!
>.< i finally got to tlak to him again.... i miss him. i hope he is missing me as much as i am missing him.
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Get your mind right. read and weep bitches.
So yeah. Basically for the past half of the year I have been starting new.. over. With life, myself, and everything. I am no longer that girl who everyone that of as "dark" or w/e. I have changed. I, persoally think for the better. I'm still dark, I am not changing on who I am just bettering myself, but I am a happier individual. I no longer go for ( Read more... ) -
This time around
I want break free.
I need to break free.
I want to break free.
I need to break free.
I'm not so sure where I'm going.
All I know is that I can't stay here.
No longer do I feel pressured.
No longer am I holding you back.
You're too good for me.
I'm afraid this time
I don't want to leave.
But the only thing I will do by staying with you is to hurt you.
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Roku Miahi
I left steven.
frank is in germany.
steven and i are best friends now.
just best friends.
i still love him, but i couldn't be wit hhim when all i did was think about how badly i want Frank.
the only thing the bothers me is how frank truely feels about me.
i don't won't to be just any girl.
i want him to know me. the whole me. in and out. no matter how ( Read more... ) -
Sick and tired of being sick and tired.
I'm so sick and tired of always being sick and tired. I'm sick, and it seems as if i have no will to do anything. EVeryday is the same. nothing to look forward to, besides another day of living. but i mean there has to be more to life.... i'm not sure. this summer i'm going to have to do faith academy once again, but hey at least i'll stil lget my ( Read more... )