So, you think we should still be friends, huh ( Read more... )

I feel as though this vicious cycle will never end ( Read more... )

I've got a bad itch for, well I don't know what. I'm rambling, and Im going to keep rambiling on until something makes sense. [not likely to happen ( Read more... )

it is a weird feeling to want to plan out when i want to cut myself. how do i get here? wanting to cut all the time, or just wanting it more when i hear of someone else doing it and reminding me of how awesome it feels to hurt myself instead of someone else hurting me. the astonishing power of a blade is breathtaking. meeting me in the bathtub, ( Read more... )

melissa, are you ready for this?

no.

heart and mind, please don't fail me, now.

My whole life is just a whirlwind of emotions and crazy. that is all I can think of to write right now. I don't even know what I am doing, anymore. or what is real. or going on. or going to happen. I don't even want to think about where I am going to be if ________________________________________. that's it. what is in the blank? I don't even know ( Read more... )

So I am coming to terms with the fact that I won't have internet for a while still to come! :/ makes me sad, but hey..it happens. OH! I just remembered..I have to go to kroq.com for my dad. anyhow ( Read more... )

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I haven't had a real update in a while. The truth is, I just don't want to write. I don't have anything to say because everything I want to say is sad and painful and just too much to put into words again and again. I don't want to pretend like I am happy and nothing is wrong. It is all a lie. I keep thinking that posting something funny will keep ( Read more... )