maybe i was wrong. maybe i spoke too soon.

it felt wrong. because 2010 is meant to be something. for me. for life. something.

it can only be what i make of it. so i think i will grow up now.

can't believe i thought this year would be so much better than the last. 2010, you're letting me down so far.

i know it's only March, but i'm looking to 2011 already.

well i'm glad i'm holding it together so well ( Read more... )

it is my loneliest christmas ever... or at least in ages ( Read more... )

I don't know what I'm doing anymore. But I'm pretty sure that as long as I have amazing friends that I will be OK. Here's hoping.

 Am I supposed to be someone else? Someone I am not? I don't know who to be because I am obsessed with observing the lives others lead. Some of them look really great, at least from this perspective.

I want to fit into molds and live the dream. I don't know if I'm a mold fitting person though. I can't be categorized most days even though it would ( Read more... )

 and i won't
what does the power of prayer get you
false hopes i guess, or convenient reasons

bad things happen to good people
and vice versa

praying cannot bring him back
only luck and stupid politics

it is not fair
i am worried

Glen is in trouble and I want him back.

 there are not enough words
and so i need to get the hell out of here

i need to pack boxes
i need to pack boxes of things that i never want to see again
i will never come back to them
never come back to the boxes
only dust will collect overtop of them

i don't want to miss my mother forever
but i can't stay here ever again
Maryland is much too small a state
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 i do not feel like a complete person tonight. what does that mean?

half over then out. don't wanna come back no more. 

 I'm just here to say that I get a really big sense of accomplishment knowing that even though I was not the cool kid in school, I am the one whose achievements surpass high school, college even, and the stupid 20-mile radius I was forced to live and grow-up in. So even though all the popular jerk-offs from high school get a kick out of friending ( Read more... )