Ahhh, closure. Yes, my dear Ataxien...we are all re-opening hearts and closign doors. Lovely, yes yes. What a week, whew. I can say that my soul is thoroughly exhausted ( Read more... )

Ahhhh, only one hour until the beginning of our new year. how refreshing. i find myself excited and optimistic. i sent the preacher man a rather nasty note about how much a dick hes been, and can you believe he actually responded. haha. he said hes "doing it right this time around" well good for him and AMEN brother. he defended what he had ( Read more... )

Goodbyes make for a sloppy parting. If I had one wish...I would wish to be gone within two days from today...in a city whose name I do not know right now. If I had one wish no one would see me again. Cutting off ties is easy when there is no goodbye. Every few months there would be a postcard signed with my name...but not much more. This is ( Read more... )

Wow...can i be more exhausted? I don't think its possible. Some beauiful things happened this christmas...they brought tears to my eyes. People were just beyond generous to me. I show up and everyone has a million and one more than gorgeous gifts...and I am empty handed. That brought tears to me, but that wasnt so beautiful. I felt so...below ( Read more... )

Happy Yule!! I do hope that this wonderful day brings many people sweet things! I had a lovely celebration this past evening with two very special people. I feel refreshed and ready to take on this new year. I hope that you all find that feeling inside of yourselves...and we are wishing you the best.
Take time to smile...

i feel nostalgic. there are all these memories creeping through my bones. i feel saturated. i think i like it. i found a little part of my faith again, and day by day i think it might be blossoming. a little of that bitter taste is going away. its a dark winter...for the dark night of the soul, right liz? but im seeing the light, and how it ( Read more... )

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I think that a lot of people are blind. Maybe I dont make myself known as much as I want to? I feel distant from a lot of the people that I love...I feel like they don't see me. Maybe I am invisible...maybe i let my hair down and I am transparent. I don't know anymore. I cried again tonight, and it is really getting old...this constant pain... ( Read more... )

I was taking out the trash today, because this weekend has made me feel so dirty...so tainted...so i thought i would clean my space. make it pretty. make something near me satisfying...so i began the ritual...washing here and there...picking this up...leaving that there...and i got to the garbage. by the time i was done throwing away various ( Read more... )

It's been a long week, and I can hardly believe that the new one has begun...it seems like the last carried on for years. The past came back, and it bit me in the ass...ahhh retrograde retrograde retrograde ( Read more... )