Okay so I've been walking around like a zombie. I don't want to go out,I just stay home and read. I'm not in love in with life as I used to be. I don't even like writing like I used to. I'm trying to find my way and it's hard. Everyone thinks I have it together,but in actuallity I don't. I pretend and keep on pretending because no one else ( Read more... )

that boy that i was talking about does like me back and we have been having the best time together. we're not together together but it has been going really good with him. i think i'm fallen really bad for him cuz all i do is think about him and during the weekend he went home and i stayed here, when he came back i couldn't help but jump on him and ( Read more... )

Well, what is there to say. oh yeah. okay so i was sort of talking to this boy named justin, but he's 17 and i'm gonna be 21, so yeah that's like rape. i never did anything with him though cuz i felt too weirded out. so we just decided to be friends and leave it just like that. in other news i do have this little cruch on this boy here. i think ( Read more... )

so i haven't updated in a while am i am very sorry, but i've been busy and bored. school is okay i guess, i'm in a class with all boys because my major is electrical wiring and if ur wondering if they're cute, i wouldn't know cuz i don't see them like that. i've been in this mood like i don't want to talk to guys, i don't even don't want to talk ( Read more... )

So job corps okay so far. i haven't got into any fights except with my family cuz they told me that i was worrying my grandmother. they told me to not go home so i didn't go last weekend and ya know what happened. they came here and visited me. they also, told me to go home next weekend so this friday i'm coming home. and i'll be yelled at one more ( Read more... )

so i've been at school and it's kinda cool. i've made some friends and some really weird ones at that, but it's cool cuz they're hilarious. so yeah i've been talking to this kid and i don't know if i like him or not. it's kinda been weid cuz i don't feel like i can love anybody as much i was in love with akil. i know it's stupid and i know that ( Read more... )

so i'm so excitied. i woke up this morning on such a happy note. i guess cuz i had a really good competition this weekend. i got 1st place in kata and went on to grands, my first time. i lost to some guy by a tenth of a point but the kid was really good. umm, i've beemn helping out my grandmother a lot lately, ya know cleaning and everything. i've ( Read more... )

I went to school on Monday. Had a meeting with Job Corps. I think it went really well beacuse the lady that i talked to, carol couch, said that i was golden. I hope that that's good. I'm going to call her on monday to see what 's happening with my entry. Hopefully everything will go good even though of my past and criminal record. I really want to ( Read more... )

quit?! nope not this time ( Read more... )

wtf man? y does my mom has to b a bitch? i'm sick of her she just doesn't get it. she thinks that i should quit kjarate. shit i've been doing it for four yrs i'm not gonna to quit now. then i'll b doing the same shit that i did when i was younger, sorry but i have learned in the past and not going to do that. yeah i'm going to go to school but hell ( Read more... )