i dunno how i feel...im home alone, and thats when i start to think about my feelings. listening to music...got a dance later tonite...no ones going, but it'll be fun anyways...then i teach CCD and have Peer Ed training tomorrow...get to go shopping for shoes too...i need to buy a red polo and some khakis too...for target, cuz i work there now...i ( Read more... )

i dont know what to do. i dont kno who I am, or what im doing, or where I'm going, or why I'm doing what I'm doing. I don't have any idea what's going on with me, or why. Who am I? Am I gay or bi? Why am I doing this shit to myself? Why am I drinking, having sex, dating, doing extracurricular activities, running? Whats the point? Who am I? I ( Read more... )

Okay so MCAS scores came in the mail today and I'm confronted with a situation...I received Advanced on both of my tests...great job, woohoo...but after the effect wore off, i realized i have to make a decision...most of you know that it's been my dream to get out of this hell-hole the day i turn 18. That wasn't going to be a big issue, because I ( Read more... )

argh, weekends are worse than the weekdays...i have a headache, my family is irritating the shit out of me...and im going into boston alone tomorrow again...let me tell you how fun that is...the train trip is like going to a party and only knowing the person who's throwing it, so you sit alone in the corner and just think about when the party is ( Read more... )

it's so hard to be far away from the one you want to be with...i feel horrible that i can't be there with her...we see eachother once a month, and its NOT FAIR. not to mention I'm probably the worst boyfriend ever...we never get to talk, im usually at a loss for words, and i always screw everything up...and yet she's still with me...that is one of ( Read more... )

so school today was pretty awesome...i got graves kinda pissed off in chem today tho lol...i feel kinda bad, but hey...someone's gotta do it, so why not me? i finally did my history terms for AP...finished about two mintues ago lol, and they're pretty easy and understandable...practice today was intense...we ran to Shaw and had to run that hill 8 ( Read more... )

today was a pretty cool day...woke up and went to my road lesson...it was a good two hours...observing is a fancy way for "bore your ass off for an hour" lol. but then i went home and did some chores, then worked on the 65 Mustang...rolled it out into the driveway cuz it doesnt start...put blocks under the wheels...washed it and waxed the wheels, ( Read more... )

It's the second day of school...or the second day is over ne ways...its been a good couple of days back...had my first run in with high school drama today, but i managed to avoid getting involoved...but now I'm watching the news, and it makes me want to cry...people are dying! children, elderly...babies! and we're sitting here doing nothing...and ( Read more... )

I remember why I hate summer now...I never have anyone to hang out with and i spend my days babysitting my brothers for free...i don mind the babysitting but it sux that i cant blow off ANY steam...I was hoping i'd get a boyfriend this summer, but the one guy i was talking to just basically "broke up" with me before we were even going out...he said ( Read more... )

Two days before my sweet 16...and here i am feeling sorry for myself. I do this way to much, but it's what happens when you spend hours by yourself. Today's bitch session will be about how I'm single and alone in the world. I wouldn't mind being single so much if I had a friend that was gay and I could relate to and I wouldn't mind not having a gay ( Read more... )