i guess it's kind of funny now to look at some of the people who i consider my friends. the other day i sat back and really seperated myself from the whole situation and realized that some of the people who i consider my friends, or who i used to consider my friends are nothing more than acquiotiences. they dont care about me. they care about what ( Read more... )

1) List 20 things that you want to say to people, but never will ( Read more... )

so what is the deal with all of these guys cheating on their girlfriends? i was talking to my mom about it and she said it's a guy being a senior type of thing. i don't agree in the least. i'm not quite sure what it is that is making guys act this way. maybe it's a new rush of testosterone or something so they need to get it out by messing around ( Read more... )

so maybe i worry too much.
i worry about things he says i dont need to worry about.
but i can't help it.
i dont want to lose what we have.
i dont want to have to deal with that.
it would hurt so much.
and he says he would never.
but when he's around certain people i don't know.
or people that i dont know.
how would i know?
would i be able to tell?
do i even ( Read more... )

the whole topic of life in general leaves this horrible taste in my mouth. i have some plans, but i can't be sure that they'll work out, i hope more than anything that they do, but there is always the chance that they won't and i'm taking a huge leap of faith believing that this seemingly childish fairytail dream/plan will come true. since the last ( Read more... )

i feel like i'm sinking.
my chest feels like it's colapsing into itself.
i'm falling so fast that i can't seem to pick myself up anymore.
and i know that he cares.
and i know that he loves me.
but is it enough?
is it more than the love of his own flesh and blood?
is it just a matter of time before i feel like this every single day?
this lonely sinking ( Read more... )

I'm not sure why but i always get in these sort of ruts.
ruts where i cry uncontrolably, and at anything, for no real apparent reason.
or for any reason at all.
i dont know why and i can't help it, it just happens.
no matter where i am or what i'm doing.
i dont know why and it's getting to be pretty frustrating, because i can't stop.
i can't make it stop ( Read more... )

so basically for the next couple weeks i wont really do anything, which sucks. all because joe's gone, odd right? i mean one of the few people i would easily trust my life with has kind of abandoned me. i mean yes i do love joe and yes i will miss him very much, but i'd still like to hang out with people and have some fun while he is gone, i ( Read more... )

i hate this feeling of hoping for something that probabaly wont come. you know you get your hopes up, but i've doen it so many times before, that i know i'm bound to get shot down, so i want to do anythign to avoid this feeling, but i'd like to have it so bad, but i know that it won't happen. it kind of sucks. but i guess thats life sometimes.

so, jordan and i broke up on saturday night. i didnt know that we did ( Read more... )