it always makes me sad and start considering things that confused me in the past. its so weird cuz i feel like sometimes i've completely convinced myself that i'm over some stuff and other times i start to look back (like right now) and then i'm not so sure what it is i feel or felt. somethings just seem so obvious like in that update about santa's ( Read more... )

i REALLY should talk to charline instead of keeping it all bottled up inside or telling other people how i feel or taking it out on her in ways she doesnt even understand. she got into uf....no surprise there...sometimes i feel like she takes the things i want, wants them for herself, and unlike me gets them. she doesnt even really want to go to uf ( Read more... )

y doesnt she want to understand that we're just trying to look out for her????

i dont want to tell her about what REALLY maes me distrustful of people because i'm afraid she wont understand or say something mean like "but that doesnt have naything to do w/ me"......i'm gonna write her that note now because if i dont get it out i'll explode

so its been a while since i updated and i felt that i should do this instead of wasting my time doing hw that i'm going to have to do any..........makes total sense doesnt it ( Read more... )

to all the people that helped in making me realize what i did this weekend ( Read more... )

i dont understand y i like u...actually i do but i have SOOOOO many reasons NOT to that i just dont see y my heart wont listen to what my head is telling it. its clear to me that u dont look at me that way....u look at everyone ELSE i know that way...its sad for me to think on this since i dont think anything is really going to change unless i cut ( Read more... )