i know i believe in nothing, but it is my nothing

tonight i was laying on my back on a blanket coving the loose rocks on my balcony. the sky was spotted with clouds, the kind where you can pick pictures out of them and forget about everything. i sat and stared but i couldn't find anything, until i saw a design. it was put together roughly, but it was a heart. i layed there following it until the ( Read more... )

new lay out. i didn't really put much effort into the background. i really don't put much effort into anything anymore.

for the first night in a long time, i can actually feel something. and though it's not the best feeling to start off with, atleast i'm not numb.

oh,
valentine
you
were
never
mine
so
nevermind
my
resentment
towards
you.

it's sunday and i'm afraid to sleep. i will slide under the covers and rolls to a side and hold a pillow in my arms and slip away into unconciousness and then i will open my eyes, it will be morning, around 6:50am and i'll sigh and know i have to get ready for school. i will take a shower, select a few items to wear and grab my hoodie and shoes. i ( Read more... )

i am trembling: i think i know why you're single.

that would be because i'm a jackass.

i was chewing on tape and now my mouth tastes like a hospital.

i
remember
last year
when
this same
chill
came in,
and i was
happy
to see
it come,
i had
missed it.
but now,
it only
seems
to be
a reminder
that
the only
real
warmth
is having
a pretty
face
hid
into your
shoulder
and arms
locked around
your back,
and that
is
all i
really have,
a reminder.

sleep has posioned me with drunken insecurities. and i'm finding myself waking up cold sweats tossing and turning. the smell of ash leaks in through my windows and i peak outside to see it's raining embers. one lands on my finger tips and i try to brush it off but it just smears, it doesn't matter. i fall back asleep and i dream of burning houses. ( Read more... )