i hate those songs of its too late. those i still love you, this was a mistake, we could have tried harder songs. the ones that make you want the past and make you want to shamefully grasp whatever tender moment thats left. i hate them.

just move on!! its over. you can adapt and you can change. .... gah.

a fright? alright. im home. california was beautiful. i didnt see so much of the la beachy stuff but the mountaineous lake tahoe of beauty serene part. and of course san fransciso. where!! therewasthesekids,onelookedlikebrandonboydand theyaskedmeandmyfriendtotheir show afterwehadwalkedbythemandifelttheirgazeofmybackside carry on andwewent and it ( Read more... )

ok so im wide awake.... again. oh and from the previous insomia night there was in fact no chinese food in the fridge afterall. i guess when a father says there will chinese food when you come home he doesnt really tell you the truth. espeacially if its on a wednesday night ( Read more... )

somehow lately this new satisfiedly full happy thing has taken over my life but i am still going through withdrawl ( Read more... )

lauren and i talked about dancing in moonlight with white feminely garments of pure truth beauty. i would do it naked i said. celebrating womanhood and nature and lovingness. we roasted smores. set fireworks. later watched anime. drove a bernadette and a john dunn home. and then i was home. and the spark rustle of conversation struck again ( Read more... )

my parents said i looked like a million dollas last nite. a complimenting mix of a disney princess and audrey hepburn. i guess i'll take their word for it.

im getting romantically antzy. i miss that physical bond of its ok to touch and kiss and no worries i will sleep right next to you stuff. im anzty. my face doesnt know what to do.

i graduate today.

my nose is runny and bocked up. and i dont know why.

i think i hate you. you are still really cute and all. but im a business woman. i do not get screwed over and i always get what i want. so smiles and friendships are in order.

but i like this empowerment. freedom. have a nice life.

what the freakin is going on?! my life is pretty awesome which is pretty awesomeweird. it gets lonely at nights when i could just drive to a particular house and sleep there instead. but honestly... im over with..... everything. i will miss this place. comfort. cozy. you next to meeeeeeee.... doing you know what. nothing. moonlight. i will miss "i ( Read more... )

dear new boy... i would like it if you were these things:

happy
enjoy the outdoors...
and outdoor games...
..........like ultimate frisbee
you stay up late
<3 music so much
<3 life so much ( Read more... )