ah I don't understand this whole dating thing, which is probably not good considering I'm in a relationship.. but ok.. once you start feeling secure.. you either A) break down and start having some sort of doubt or become non-trusting or B) start fighting.. now me myself as I can agree with nicole I am a sadist of my own mind.. which I over analyze ( Read more... )

this past week has been entirely great. I can't really remember monday, but no big deal.. tuesday I took casey out to see this mike guy.. umm yeah.. lets just say they went for a walk to.. "queer peer" for almost two hours, leaving me alone.. yeah thank goodness for the fact that I brought a book.. which while I was there I want to this health food ( Read more... )

ah.. so the one year finally happened, and tara and I had a very amazing time.. first off.. I woke up and went to the soccer game with bethany early to get our jerseys.. we won... 4-1.. it might have been 3.. but I'm pretty sure it was four. Those girls are sooo cute... well for some reason I was a very big crab.. and when I talked to tara yes, I ( Read more... )

so i have all this built up anxiety.. I wanted to talk about it with tara, but when I got out of the shower it said I had a missed call and well she was already sleeping, and I got the hint that she was really tired because she kept saying "I'm really tired". Bummer. Tomorrow is our one year, and I just have this horrible feeling that it's not ( Read more... )

Last saturday casey and I went to diverse universe and truffles, not sure If I meantioned that.. but yeah.. casey met this guy mike, and mike gave him his phone number, and now casey is all giddy, love it.. casey is such a fag, seriously, but I guess that's good, he makes himself happy, and well this mike guy is too sort of.. .hard to explain. on ( Read more... )

so I hate when my mind can't keep up with my thoughts. Tara and I were talking about how I think more at night and have more to say when she really wants to go to sleep, then when we talk during the day.. that kind of sucks but what can you do that's how I work. so I'm up laying in my bed and i can't stop thinking about so many different things. ( Read more... )

so I think nicole is lying to me.. no big deal.. she will learn on her own if she is really messing around with that girl. ah but today I had a very nice day.. on the verge of greatness. I brought tara crickets and food to make tacos... the crickets were for her bearded dragon though, not for tacos. lol we watched lemony snickets and guess who.. ( Read more... )

so I'm in a great mood.. after my day started off real shitty.. yeah.. after last night and I wrote tara I long email.. I talked to her and she wasn't in the best mood.. and then I told her that people other then myself hear her say something to me.. and she wasn't too fond of that.. and yeah that sucked ass because I think it made it ten times ( Read more... )

wow I've never had drama like I've had tonight, I don't even want to start talking about it because it was soo bad. I was actually scared of my girlfriend.. which.. is odd.. but understandable.. she didn't hit me or anything like that.. just kind of shaken up by the night I had.. not a bad thing, tara and I are cool.. no wrong impressions needed, ( Read more... )

so I did nothing but read harry potter today. I must say I did well because I definitely finished book two. I also made hamburgers and they were good. I'm very tired and I don't want to stay up any later then it is right now, but I don't want to go to sleep either. tara said that I needed to tell more or our conversation line because she said it ( Read more... )