and the realization smacks again...

im addicted. i hate to admit it, but it sucks me in and i dont want to let it go. i cried too much for one night, to a fictional tv show of the late 90s no less...but its amazing how many things it can hit at once, or at least in the span of 3 hours... i know. 3. but anyway. im going home this weekend. that should be nice, although the amount of ( Read more... )

i hate that all my entries are depressing, but really, its when something is off kilter that i feel the need to vent, or something of the sort. so its been a week and for some reason i am missing the motivation i had just before i came back. im worried this whole having all my classes on the same day thing is going to drive me up the wall, but im ( Read more... )

saw closer for the second time. i liked julia roberts in it better this time, but i like her character the least. i think i lean towards natalie portman the most, then jude law. there seems to be innocence left in them that i cant reach in the other two. clive owen seems desperate to finish the man on top (no pun intended) and i leave wondering ( Read more... )

so im going to do it. the motivational speech i received in the car tonight was awesome, and i'm going to make every effort i can to do SOMETHING worth while for my own benefit. we'll see. coming home tomorrow morning. so excited! cant wait to see you all! allie! i havent seen you in forever! yeah for compton love! and all the rest of the love from ( Read more... )

so ive gotten to the point where i am so ridiculously stressed that all my worries are being turned into excitement and im happy all the time, at least full of enery a lot. i know things will work out but until they do and i dont have to think about them any more, i'm still gonna be crazy. give me until sat at noon, and ill be excellent. and last ( Read more... )

i saw a creative reading today of the play "now let me fly" commemorating the 50th anniversary of brown vs. board of education. there was a discussion afterwards where students from school discussed their stories of growing up in our education system today, etc. and i couldnt help but cry when one girl stood in front of us and told her story of ( Read more... )

why wont this weight get off my shoulders? its as though its slowly seeping into my pores, and no matter what i do it simply sucks itself to my body, insisting on living a parasitic life, sucking out the last bits of sanity that remain ( Read more... )

tomorrow is the last day of fall break...which is simply monday and tuesday off. i have a paper due thursday, and a midterm on wednesday...tomorrow's looking like a cram session. anyway, this weekend was awesome with allison coming, and angela the day before, and some crazy times with p in the b and "homework." haha. anyway. i had to read james ( Read more... )

its painful when you realize the people you thought you were the closest to, you don't really know anymore. you have to learn of their lives through... this. and as much as you try, its impossible to let all the emotions out and publicize the things that really go in and out of my head. whether its fear of failure, fear of despair, or fear of ( Read more... )