everything is really starting to come together....ive started my new job, and im doing very well. i can't wait for my first paycheck. my birthday is coming up very very soon. however i have no idea where im gonna have my birthday. its gotta be at a place where we can party and not worry about getting fucked....and nobody has to worry about driving ( Read more... )

 im pretty happy with how everything is going in my life...
the only thing that has been bothering me is what to do
about these 2 particular male species....but other than 
that im content...and everything has been going pretty 
good. what a change......

 im getting a car this fuckin week. so damn happy about that.

 court next tuesday the 16th.
fuck, im nervous.......
wish me good luck.

im fucking rad because i passed my drug test 
and it had only been a week since i haven't smoked.
now that i passed it, im gonna get so high today!!!
and i am indeedly excited. 
fuck yes!

peace out bitches < 3

i dont know what is happening in my life anymore. i dont know what to think anymore. i dont know what to do anymore.
ive got so much shit on my mind all the time. i dont know why i keep fucking everything up. i have once again dissapointed my family. tomorow im suppose to go to a birthday party for my aunt at her house, the whole family will be ( Read more... )

my new schedule-
monday: working 10am - 6pm
tuesday - thursday: working 10am - 5pm, ged classes 6pm - 9pm
friday: working 10am - 6pm
saturday: working 10am - 6pm
sunday: working 10am - 6pm

my first day at nature's way cafe starts tomorow.
im so happy i finally have a job.

tonight im going out to dinner with my family.
all of my family on my dad's side. im gonna get to see my uncle, 
he's coming all the way from japan with his future wife.
im excited to see him. i have to sleep on the couch for 
two nights though. but oh well, ill get over it.

im not going to make an 
effort if your not going to 
make an effort as well.
why the fuck should i try
so fucking hard and get
nothing in return? why?
id really like to know. 
dont fucking blow
me off anymore either.
im sick of it.
but oh of course you will 
give me your little excuses.
making it seem like im wrong
and your right....once again.
i understand ( Read more... )

i told him...
i told him that i like him.
so now what?
i just hope that i didnt 
fuck things up by doing so.
he hasnt told me how he feels yet.
i really want him to like me back.
now i just have to wait for him.
this sucks.