last night was sooo awsome, i finally got to go see jamie at night, i spent like 3 hours there ;). buuuuutttt then i got back at 6 am and i had to wake up at 9 30 to get ready to go to church with jamie and her dad, i woke up at noon!!!!!!!!! damn it!!! damn it!!! damn it!!! Fuck!!!!!!! i felt sooooooooo bad cause i really wanted to go with them ( Read more... )

today was awsome, i havent been able to see jamie on the weekends for over 3 months, but today jamies dad let us go to the movies together. she is soo funny, i love how she jumps when something scary happens, just the previews of silent hill freaked her out. its too bad we couldn't go to a theatre that had arm rests that you could put up ;). all in ( Read more... )

Your Inner Blood Type is Type B
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of all the things i can say, could say, want to say, the thing that will always win... i love you

on a night so black, so cold, to dark to even see a single star ( Read more... )

i miss jamie so very very much
its hard not to imagine what i would do to her if she were here right now

for the first few days after "the shit hit the fan" i just couldn't stay home, when i finally got out of bed on sunday everything was hitting me, what i did, what it ment to gareth and the rest of the family and especially what it would mean to jamie, i just couldn't deal with being here, so before i could grab anything (not even my coat ><) i ( Read more... )

On tuesday January 24 Kenden mattingly shot himself in the head at his parents house. i dont really know how to feel, i've known kenden since the 1st grade, he's been nice to me and he has been a jackass to me, but i think that instead of feeling sad im just mad at him. suicide is such a selfish thing to do, i watched as jamie and three other girls ( Read more... )

I can see you but you can't see me ( Read more... )

so yeah yesturday i cleaned the upstairs of the shop :o. it took me 4-5 hours of solid cleaning to get it done but it is now CLEAN and ready for couches and other devices of comfort, i thought about it and laughed to myself that i ended up doing this right after sarah moved out, sorry sarah :( i should've done it when you were living with gareth ( Read more... )