It's been forever since I have wrote on here. Alot has happened. I am now a member of the United States Navy. I'm a Seabee actually, and if you don't know what that is look it up, were pretty bad ass ( Read more... )

So T.I. said it better than I ever could ( Read more... )

So basically I'm just sitting here trying to convince myself I don't suck at life, I'm not pathetic, I'm not a waste of space, and someday I will get my life figured out. And maybe someday I can stop running.

Ohio...I may be back sooner than I hoped.

..Florida, I'm sorry..I'll be back.

Soooooooo ( Read more... )

If all goes as planned Eric and I will be togather before you know it. He should be here in FL meeting my family that's here, then we'll leaving to go to Ohio and PA so he can meet the parents. Then we shall be off getting my passport if we haven't at that point,we'll stop in Cali to see his sister, then off to Honduras and other foriegn ( Read more... )

So I haven't wrote in here for a few months. Alot has happened. My grandpa, mi abuelo, mi corazon passed away in December. So that's been super hard. But it brought me back to where I know I am suppose to be. So here I am back in my home state of Florida. I'm staying with my cousin Jose and his wife and their kids. It's been nice. My cousin is more ( Read more... )

I love that when my whole world is crashing down around me I can talk to Eric and he can make me feel like someone really loves me. I love him sooooooooooo much. <3 He is seriously like the best thing that has ever happened to me. And it's crazy to think I have been completly in love with him for x amount of years. We had our first relationship ( Read more... )

For the first time in my life I am scared of my of my own Karma. I can honestly say I have never done anything until recently that I thought karma would bite me in the ass for. I have everything to loose..and I really don't want to.

I feel like a horrible person. I lied to myself and to Chris. I broke up with him. I am so tired of lying. My heart was never in that relationship. My heart has never left Eric. I have been in love with Eric for years and it's not fair to be with someone else when he is the one who has my heart ( Read more... )

After much thought..(since it's pretty much been my only thoughts since the whole peeing on a stick fiasco) mi amor and I have come to a decsion as to the whole prego thing. As much as it sucks I cannot have a child right now. I am in no way ready nor is mi amor. And it would be completly selfish to keep a child because I feel it would be better ( Read more... )