well it is almost 5:30 in the morning and i CANT sleep.. well when i finally fell asleep around 2:30.. i slept for almost a whole 1 1/2 hours.. and Ben called ( Read more... )

Becca is _______ ( Read more... )

I AM SO GOING CRAZY!! i miss Ben.. soo much :( it hurts.. bad.. *tear*... Im sad... I talked to him today and yesterday, for like an hour.. but it flys by and its like i dont get to talk to him much.. and its hard.. i miss him.. and i just want to be with him soo bad.. *sigh ( Read more... )

WELLLL my LOVELY computer decided to be a screw up so i had to reboot it.. i lost EVERYTHING... all my baby's pictures that were on here, all of our conversations.. :( im sad now.. all i have are the few txt messages on my phone. *sigh ( Read more... )

Im a screw up.. and o boy did i screw up.. :( i feel like crap.. i hate myself... im going back to bed..

Im sorry Ben :(

..... forgot to send my bills off... didnt get my oil changed in my car... slept til 2... ive accomplished nothing....

today kinda sucked..

my phone went dead.. my charger is at Alethea's house...

i DID learn how to check my voice mail by using a house phone.. *woot*....

ok im off to watch Sex and the City... all alone...

...*sigh*...

OOO what a LONG day.. lol.. my little brother had a b-day party and had 6 lil boys over last night so i finally went to sleep around 2 because they were staying up all night and then was woke up at 8:30 in the morning.. soo ive been dragging allll day.. though i did get to talk to Ben this morning :) That brightened my day. MANNN he makes me ( Read more... )

He sent me a dozen roses... Guess now i cant say ive never got roses from a guy.. Gah, i cant believe how wonderful he is.. I talked to him this morning, we just have the BEST conversatations.. im soo happy!!

Okay.. where do i start.. Lovin the new job, it is a whole lot better than DQ. Im pretty much living with Alethea now so its not too far to drive to work. Savin on the gas- o ya ( Read more... )

I think hes cheating.. and it sucks because i have no way of finding out for sure.. he says hes not, that he would NEVER do that to me.. haa. I duno, maybe its the fact that everyone puts the idea into my head that hes not being faithful. I dont know what to think anymore. Everyone keeps telling me that im just his "sure thing" and that hes only ( Read more... )