Ugh i wish i could answer that question. I dont know. Ben keeps drilling me.. asking whats wrong and whats going on with me.. and i dont know. Im not having doubts or second thoughts.. i just.. i dont know. All this stupid crap going on with his ex and just the stress of everything going wrong and trying to fix it *the wedding and so forth*. We ( Read more... )

Ive decided that sleeping isnt going to happen anytime soon. Too busy thinking about changes. Not all of them are bad. Im getting married in 2 weeks and 2 days.. thats a great change. Have you ever sat back and thought about relationships? The point that you become so comfortable with another person that neither of you feel the need to impress each ( Read more... )

For the last 3 days at work i have had to do modulars... now i know that most of you do not know what that is, so let me take a moment to explain. If you walk down the aisles of walmart you will see products.. these products are grouped in sections. Lets say for example aisle 4 in the trussville walmart has bbq sauce, ketchup, mustard, coffee, tea ( Read more... )

Well a WHOLE lot has been going on since the last time i updated. I've started keeping a hand-written journal.. i guess so i would have it later.. because i mean come on, who actually puts how they truly feel on here when they are having a bad day and want to vent out on certain people? .. i mean, i trust my journal off the computer.. then i can ( Read more... )

Im getting married.. June 24 :) Cant wait. Ive got my dress already :) its SO pretty.. I had to go today and let Karlie, Aubrey, Ashley, and Haylee try on dresses. Haylee is gonna be my flower girl.. she was SO cute in her lil dress :) .. IM so excited.. i cant wait to be with my baby.. and have his last name :) .. anyways.. enough about that..

So.. Ben went home Sunday morning... but hes coming back tomorrow afternoon. It was really really hard to let him leave.. i bawled driving to go eat breakfast that morning.. and then after breakfast when we were standing by his truck.. and then after he left.. I didnt go to work Sat, and i left early *around 7* sunday and i didnt go today.. i had ( Read more... )

OOOoo i had a great New Year :) And im getting to spend the week with my baby!! :) Im soo00oo flippin happy :) Im so glad i have Ben.. he means SO much to me.. We started to watch The Notebook last night and he passed out on my bed.. and i just laid there for a while.. staring at him, watching him sleep. I couldnt believe he was real.. that i ( Read more... )

Ok sooo.. my computer has been down here lately.. Our modem kicked the bucket.. we got another one the other day and we are finally back online *woot*.. so0o0o... heres whats been going on lately ( Read more... )

Well.. its nice to know how "GREAT" friends are.. after they get into a relationship. Its funny.. i can be in one, and maintain my friends.. while other people, such as *cough-cough* Brandon, apparently has to stay under his girl's leash. You know, kinda irritates me.. the fact that he was such a good friend, and now that he has a girl, he ( Read more... )

... Ok so im spaced out all day lol.. no sleep.. naseated.. :( blah.. my day kinda sucked ( Read more... )