i dont even knoow why i still have one of these things. i should just delete this one and make a whole new one since i'm pretty sure i'm a completely different person than i was.. but then again, i'm too lazy and everyone already has this onee ( Read more... )

so today is going to be pretty boring. i didnt do anything fun yesterday either. i helped stephans family move to the new appartment and i didnt even get to see stephan =[ i saw him for like minutes and then i had to go to work. im not doing anything again today until i have to go to work, but im hoping my manager kyle says i dont have to come in ( Read more... )

i hate reading really old LJ entries and realizing how much people have changed and how much you just wish you could go back to then and keep it that way forever.. wheres a time machine when you need one ( Read more... )

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY LOVER<33

we're going to get our tongues piercedd today =P

soo for a while i havent had anything really worth writing in here, but lately my life has been piecing itself back together so smoothly that im SO HAPPPY lol ( Read more... )

hmm yeah im over it lol. they all confuse the hell out of me and i just dont care enough anymore to try to figure things out. for now on im just going to go with the flow and im just going to stop trying all together. i have to learn to acccept that whats meant to be will always find its way. and well if things dont find their way beack together, i ( Read more... )

and i know ill never be good enough for him again. so why do i keep trying constantly trying to impress him. he doesnt want me and i think he has made that perfectly clear to me on several occassions. i hate myself.. i just dont think ill ever be good enough for anyone anymore. ksdfkahdskfjhadskfjadsfj FUCK YOU

fuck you. fuck you. fuck you. fuck you. fuck you. fuck you. fuck you.
i hope you choke.

i dont know what to do. im wicked confused about everything. im so scaredd. i wish something would give me a sign for which way to go.

even though i know exactly where to go.

i never realized how much i hated people until today.